March
March 27th, 2002

Hey all........
Today is kinda sucky cause I don't feel good at all. I guess I ate on an empty stomach and it screwed everything up. I had so much stuff I wanted to do today too......UGH! Sometimes I miss the days that I could just eat and go. Then I look at pictures and I think....UGH. That about cures the longing for that. Halo had his vet appt yesterday and it went really well. The vet said he's a happy healthy curious puppy. He got some more shots and we have another appt in 3 weeks. My mom called me today and asked what I was doing for easter. I said nothing, my boyfriend is going riding (motorcycle) and i'll be home with Halo. She's all really? Then all of the sudden I felt all alone. That kinda bummed me out, but maybe I can find something to do. I'm in puppy jail and the walls start to close in after a while. Don't get me wrong, I love my puppy, but I really want to go out and exercise too. This weekend is supposed to be beautiful and I want to go hiking or something like that......but at least on Saturday i'll be having dinner at my uncle's house. It's always nice to go up there, I usually enjoy myself when I do. I'm starting to get hungry but the thought of eating makes my stomach turn-ugh! My sister in law is due anytime now and I know she had a dr's appt today......i'm totally curious to know how it went. I don't tell her enough that I really do care about her and my brother and they baby. I think their marriage is inspiring and I want to have the kind of friendship and love in my relationship that they do theirs. Of course, putting up with my bro is no easy task, she's a HELL of a woman!  LOL God knows I love my bro tho........he's my 40 drinkin hero!  :)  On that note, I bid everyone a WACKADOO!    :)
Song I'm Listening to:
Dear Mama - TuPac
Book I'm Reading:
It's a TV day......
Why am I not here? I really want to camp at Yosemite this summer. My boyfriend has NEVER been (OMG!!) and i'd love to take him!  :)
March 28th, 2002

Well it's happening......my hair is falling out. It started last week badly enough for me to notice. How bummed am I about this? VERY! I think I just feel very frumpy in clothes that don't fit, not very sexy or feminine. Now i'm losing my hair, ugh! So i'm thinking maybe i'll cut my hair into a cute little pixie cut or something fun like that, but I don't know if my face is small enough for that tho. Please, send me your opinion.......email and let me know - cut or grow?!?!?  :)  I love poems!  LOL I can't wait for Easter. My dad called last night and invited me up to his place for an Easter feast. Now being the good pagan that I am I celebrated Ostara last week........but i'm a sucker for any holiday christian or not. Dye, eggs, food.......is there more to life (besides sex)?  LOL Because I wasn't feeling good yesterday I skipped my shrink appt, I have another one next week. I am now really diggin the whole self improvement movement i'm making in my life. I'm noticing that it's touching every part of my life, esp my interpersonal relationships. I'm bonding with people I would of never thought cared and i'm growing apart from people I was close to, and improving other current relationships. I guess the big surprise to me is how much my family is meaning to me. I've never had a strong family base (isn't that an understatement) and now i'm starting to build one. It feels pretty good. My good friend is having trouble in her pregnancy and i'm pretty worried about her. I'm totally keeping her in my thoughts...........and she's a total reminder of how not to take life for granted. That's today's lesson of the day........love what you have because you never know what tomorrow brings. On a very happy note for me personally, my boyfriend told me this morning that he knows that he wants me as his life partner. I was totally happy to hear it and even tho I knew in my heart we'd be together for the rest of our lives.........confirmation from him is wonderful too! Of course I was half asleep when he told me, maybe he was hoping I wouldn't remember!  LMAO  TOO BAD!  :)  :)
Song I'm Listening to:
Welcome to Atlanta - Ludacris
Book I'm Reading:
Info on herbs and gems
Go forward, move ahead........