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| Song I'm Listening To: Ribbons - Sisters of Mercy |
| Book I'm Reading: Do I have time to read?!?! |
| May 22nd, 2002 Okay, so today I put up some new pics on the pics page. I revamped it a little bit because the other one was buggin me. I'm still a bit PMS'ey. Otherwise i'm just really house focused. I've been eating like a horse. Last night for dinner I had a 7 piece maguro sushimi and an order of ebi AND some salad. DAMN. Not to mention I was snackin on chips all day. UGH! My mom comes up Friday afternoon and we will paint the house this weekend (I know your jealous!). I finshed my level 2 reiki course, so the only thing left is reiki master. I'll probably take that in mid June. That's been a really great part of my life. I've been looking for subjects *woohhaaa* to practice on. I hate moving, but I really can't wait for the housewarming party. Aren't I a brat? LOL OH OH OH! Before I forget.......while I was waiting for the pictures to develop today I ran into Old Navy so I could feel fat. I bought a men's 2X shirt cause I figured what the hell, I like it and soon i'll be able to fit right? It fit! I got home and put it on and i'm stylin today! That felt pretty good (regardless of the 10lbs i'll gain by the weeks end). Just amazing.....last year the only thing I could by at Old Navy was a purse. I've been talking a lot to my step mom lately and it's been really nice. I totally am in this family space right now. Dad, Mom, MommieDearest, bros and sis, Uncle and family......they all mean so much to me right now. Family has NEVER been a priority in my life, and lately it's becoming one. It's exciting. My boyfriend is kinda upset that his dad isn't a part of his life. I told him that he's now a part of my family and that we love him. I think that made him feel a *little* better, but it's never the same. I'm pretty grateful all and all for what life has given to me. It's a struggle and a BITCH but it makes us strong and happy. Now if I could just find the compliants department about the cramps life would be perfect! ;) Til next time everyone! :) *mauh* |
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| May 23rd, 2002 Okay, so i'm MUCH better today than yesterday! I feel almost normal again (HHAAAAA HA HA HAAAAAAHA!)! We get the keys to our place tomorrow (woohoo). I'm pretty excited but it still hasn't truly hit me yet. My mom comes down tomorrow afternoon to help us paint. It should be an interesting weekend. Holidays and paint! So I found a puppy in the paper today and drove 90mins to go look at her. I let Halo play with her and everything....but they didn't click. So I didn't buy her. I'm looking for a friend for Halo since we have the house now we can have 2 doggies. I think it's gonna be difficult, but it will be fun nevertheless. I need to learn how to sew so I can make some damn curtains for my new pad. OH! I made a fresh strawberry/cherry pie yesterday and it turned out DAMN GOOD! I'm SO proud of myself. I can cook but desserts were NEVER my speciality! Well, today has been pretty uneventful so i'll leave you to your lives. I probably won't update til Monday if not Tuesday since we have out of town guests and all. I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday weekend and gets some good BBQ goin! :) *awh yeah* Later taters! |
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| Song I'm Listening To: Snoop Doggy Dog - What's my name? |
| Book I'm Reading: Do I have time to read?!?! |
| I'm a leo! Find out all about your sign by clicking on angry lion right here! :) |
| May 28rd, 2002 Hey and welcome back. I did something wrong today because i've been throwing up since noon. I thought I didn't chew but it's all foam so maybe I just ate too fast. I don't know but it's starting to really bug me. Well, it was a weekend. Glad to see my mom go. We had it out on Sunday before she left. I felt she was being way negative and I couldn't take it anymore. She's so bitter she can't even see the love people try to hand her. It's really sad IMHO. I know underneath she's a beautiful woman but she's become so jaded and unresponsible for her own behavior it's totally fucked her up. Just makes me miss my dad even more. Besides all that we did house stuff. OMG, I got a WORKOUT BABY! Two realizations: first is that i'm still too fat to have the stamina I want and two: i've come a long ways. Catch 22 as always. I know at 315 I wouldn't of been able to do ANYTHING besides sit there and hate myself for being too fat. At least now I worked Saturday and Monday. I finally gave up on Monday around 4p because my body just couldn't. I sanded and cleaned and prep'ed and tarped stuff down. It was really kewl. I started beating myself up for not being able to keep up with my boyfriend, then I just let it go and said you know what.......you did so much more than you could of ever done 5 months ago. Mind games are a bitch! It feels good to know your doing all this hard work to make your home beautiful. It still hasn't hit me that it's really ours. Weird how that is. Maybe when we move in it will truly hit me. So if your not busy June 8th come on down! I could use the extra hands! ;) This weekend my boyfriend and I go camping on Friday night and then Saturday night we come home and Sunday I go to the Alternative Healing Center's Health Faire were i'll be working. I'm all done with my reiki 2 classes. Last is reiki master which i'll take in a month or so. If your in the San Jose area please come on down and see me.....i'm working both reiki and tarot during the faire. Email me for more information (shameless plug!). Have a wonderful day.......til tomorrow folks! ;) Later taters! |
| Song I'm Listening To: Turn off the light: Nelly Furtado |
| Book I'm Reading: Hard to read while puking ;) |
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