The Beginning of the End
Chapter 1
"We can’t do this!"
"Why cant we? Am I the only one who thought the other night meant something?"
Tears started to stream down her face "Please don’t do this to me" She put her back against the wall and slid down, hitting the floor, she held her stomach, he knelt on both knees in front of her "well! Am I?" She cried and mumbled "No!" he lifted her chin up "then why can’t we do this?"
I can’t believe this happened! Why, I mean really why did it have to happen? Well you’re only a journal how the hell would you know!!! God it’s the first time I have ever written in one of these!!! They say that to write in a journal helps you sort out your feelings out… So here it goes!!! When I was six I moved to London and I had to change schools obviously, well I remember being so nervous. I didn’t know any one and I remember going into my class and I sat there everyone looking at me and I remember turning my head to look out the window and on the table in front of the window was this boy with dark brown hair and he smiled at me, in fact as soon as lessons began he came over and sat with me. I remember him saying ‘hi my names Matt, do you want to be my friend?’ Which is just so typical of Matt. We were friends all the way through primary! It was so easy in primary, nothing complicated, and you were young, no responsibilities, and no complicated relationships! We were still friends in High school, life started to get a little more complicated!!! We would hang out in school out of school, sleep at each other’s house. We would share everything with each other and when I say everything I mean everything, the kind of stuff that only girls would tell girls and guys would only tell guys!!! Yeah you may think its nasty but we didn’t care we trusted each other and its not like we had to be ashamed…. You could say I helped him understand girls and he helped me understand guys… I don’t even know why I’m explaining it cos we never cared what any one thought!!! We use to go to the park and sit on the bench talking about anything… we even adopted an old couple! When I mean adopted I mean they walked passed us every time saying things like "oh look Henry… young love!" they were so cute as soon as they got to the next bench, me and Matt just burst out laughing, it was so funny! He was there for me when my parents split up when I was fifteen, I remember him saying ‘loz I know what your feeling, and its so much harder when your older because you understand what’s going on even better then you would have when you were younger!’ He took me to the cinemas and to a gig to try and cheer me up; he is so sweet and considerate. His parents had split up when he was three years old he said he just remembered his dad not being at his home any more, but both parents were always there for him, I felt bad for crying. We went to different colleges, but he was always round mine and me his, as usual, we nearly got a copy of each other’s keys because we were round that much, except he decided to move in with his mate James, so we were usually at James house, well that’s until they got their own flat, then it was party time! Matt always loved music he could play the guitar really well as a matter of fact so could James, one day they had this crazy idea of creating a band! Oh don’t get me wrong I believed they could do it but it seemed a little strange to think about. Well I was wrong as usual they found a third member and got signed, I was so happy for him, he was happy as well, that’s all I cared about! That he was happy! I remember the day they got signed……………………
Chapter 2
"Yeah hey… really? Fletch; man that is wicked… okay yeah sure! See ya!"
Laura, Charlie and James were sat on the sofa watching television, while Matt was on the phone, he put the phone down and ran in front of the television "Matt, get out of the way of the way!" Charlie said and threw a pillow at him; he threw it back and hit Charlie on the head "that was Fletch on the phone!" James and Charlie sat up and stared at Matt, Laura sat there confused "Were a band man!" he started laughing, "You should see your faces!" Charlie and James just stared at him "Oh my god!" James stood up "Were a band?" Matt clapped "Hell yeah! BUSTED!" They all started to jump up and down, Laura still staring at them laughing her head off; Matt dived on her "Loz! Were a band its actually gonna happen!" she bit her lip and smiled "Yeah! It has!" he picked her up and spun her around and screamed. "Right we need to celebrate" Charlie said grabbing his coat "No Chaz, not today! Fletch is coming over in like an hour to talk to us about stuff!" Charlie put his coat down "I need to phone Camilla!" Matt put Laura down "where we going to go?" every one shrugged, Laura turned to Matt "Is it okay if I invite Alistair?" she bit her lip "Yeah sure! Havant seen him in ages!"
"Yay! Thanks!" she kissed him on the cheek; Alistair was Laura’s boyfriend they had been seeing each other for two years they started dating in their last year. The next day they all decided to meet back at the flat, there was a knock at the door it was Laura and Camilla they had bumped into each other outside so decided to walk together they were giggling, Camilla looked great but then she always did she had nice legs for skirts, Where as Laura was a trouser person…. A tight trouser person, she ran up to Alistair and jumped on him "Hey beautiful!" she hadn’t seen him for a week, he had gone to see his brother in Scotland "Miss me" she asked him, he kissed her "Of course I did!" everyone rolled their eyes, except Charlie and Camilla they were too busy saying "hello" as well, Matt coughed "So are we going out, or do me and James have to watch this cheap porn flick much longer?" they all stopped, Laura kicked him "oww!" she pulled her tongue out at him! Charlie grabbed the keys "Okay people let’s go!" they all walked out and Charlie locked the door "Er…. Chazwick where we going?" Matt asked, "Oh to a restaurant, me and Camilla go to!" they started walking down the corridor "How about clubbing?" Matt said hoping Charlie would change his mind, Matt wasn’t much of a restaurant go-err "I don’t real feel like clubbing, Matt!" Matt looked at him "Well I don’t want to go to a restaurant!" everyone got outside and faced each other "well were we going then?" James asked, every one looked at each other "Oh I know!" Laura said lets just go to the little restaurant thing at…"
"Laura your suppose to be on my side!" Matt moaned she hit him "Let me finish! At the pub! Then Charlie gets the restaurant, Matt gets a bar full of girls and we are all happy!" They agreed and made there way down to the Dragonfly the local pub, which they always hung out in!
"So what is it that you guys are going to be doing first!" Alistair asked Matt, James and Charlie "Well, when fletch rang he said he’s coming over to chat about things with us…but err…Charlie… I think you should tell Camilla now!" Camilla looked at Charlie "Tell me what?" Charlie turned to face her "We have to go away the day after tomorrow, Fletch has to take us around the studios and then we have to do some recording and organize events and…" Laura turned to Matt "How long you going to be gone?" Matt scratched his neck "a month! Then we come back here but we will be out every day cause we are planning on recording are first track and video while we are gone and by the time we get back hopefully there will be events we need to go too!" Camilla lay her head on Charlie’s shoulder and he put her arm around her "so basically we are gone for a month, and when we get back were going to be super busy!" James added, Laura sighed "Yeah well if its what you guys want…. Go for it! We will just expect phone calls for the next three months!" he Matt smiled "which you will get!" Charlie lent his head on top of Camilla’s "especially you!" she looked at him "I better!" he kissed her, Alistair lifted his pint "Well… Congratulations you guys were really happy for you!"
Chapter 3
It had been three months and the lads had finally got a week off… it was 12:30 and they were all still in bed, when there was a loud knock on the door Matt walked out of his room in his boxers and shirt, rubbing his eyes "One minute!" he opened the door it was Laura "Hey gorgeous! What you doing here so early!" she kissed him on the cheek and hugged him "Early its nearly one o’clock in the afternoon!" he shut the door and yawned "Oh! You want anything?" She sat on the sofa "No! I’m good!" He got a glass of water and sat on the sofa next to her, she turned and crossed her legs "So come on tell me what you got up too!" he looked at her half asleep "We have been recording…. And stuff!" she laughed, "I know that! Did you get off with any girls while you were away!" he looked at her "Laura! I’m half asleep…!" she grabbed the small glass of water of him, which he had drunk half of it and threw it in his face, his eyes widened and he stuck his jaw out his hair was soaked, water dripping down his face, she gave him the glass back "Okay your awake now so spill!" he got up and filled the glass up "Your going to pay for that!" Laura got off the sofa and edged towards the bathroom, Matt slowly walked towards her, she ran into the bathroom and tried to shut the door, Matt pushed it, she jumped in the bath and pulled the shower curtain around herself, but Matt turned the shower on and ran out of the bathroom, he heard Laura screech and he started laughing, She turned the shower off, she was soaking, she got out of the shower and walked out of the bathroom and looked at Matt, who stood there smirking and drinking his water "Told you, you would pay for it1" he laughed, she took her jacket off and walked up to matt, and she squeezed all the water out of her jacket on Matt’s head "Yep! You did!" they both started laughing, "I think you may need to change your clothes Matt!" he laughed and put his cup down "You to ya silly git!" he walked into his room and threw a towel at her head, "I will find you something to wear loz okay!" she walked into the bathroom "Okay just knock on the bathroom door, I’m going to take these wet ones off!" she shut the door and took off her top and flung it over the shower pole to dry. Charlie got out of bed and made his way into the living room where he saw the floor was wet through, he walked into the bathroom and stopped, there was Laura in her underwear hanging wet clothes over the shower pole, he quietly snuck back out and sat on the sofa, his face slightly red ‘thank god she didn’t see me’ he thought ‘that would have been embarrassing…. She did look good though… stop it Charlie… think Camilla…yeah that’s better!’ Laura came out of the bathroom in a towel "Oh hey, Charlie, I didn’t know you were up! Sorry the floors wet Matt got the urge to soak me!" Matt walked out of his room "You started it! Here wear these, until your clothes dry!" he handed her a baggy t-shirt and some shorts, she laughed, "wow! Trendy!" he stuck his tongue out at her "Shut it! And go put them on in my room!" he sat on the sofa and looked at Charlie who looked slightly disturbed "You okay Chaz?" Charlie looked at him "Oh yeah, I am!" Matt laughed "Oh man you should of seen Laura!" Charlie sat forward "I didn’t see Laura, why would I want too?" Matt raised his eyebrow "She was soaking it was funny!" Charlie laughed nervously "Oh yeah she said!" Matt looked at him "You sure your okay? You look a bit hot!" Charlie stood up "I think I might go back to bed!" he walked into his room. Matt shrugged. Laura walked out of his room in a massive t-shirt and shorts she looked at him "I hate you Matt!" Matt pissed himself laughing; "I got to take a picture of this!" he picked up his camera "Don’t you dare!" Laura ran into his room and locked the door; he rolled around the floor laughing!
Chapter 4
It was the last day before the boys had to start working again and Charlie and Camilla Were at her place "Thanks for dinner Camilla, it was really nice!" she got up and took the plates to the kitchen, he came up behind her and rapped his arms around her waist and started to kiss her on the neck "No! Charlie" he let go "What’s wrong?" she turned to face him "I hate this! Your going to be gone by tomorrow and I wont see you for another three months!" tears started to come into her eyes, she went and sat on the couch "I don’t know what to say" he said sitting next to her "You know how much I have wanted this, you know how much I love music, its my dream it’s share it with everyone!" she put her head in her hands "I know and I’m happy for you but I can’t take not having you around it’s driving me insane, not being with you!" he put his arm around her "I’m sorry! I really am, but I have to do this it means so much to me!" she looked at him, tears rolling down her face "and I don’t?" he wiped a tear from her eye "you mean a lot to me Camilla! I love you! But I have to do this, it’s my life!" she nodded "Then go and do it Charlie, if it is what you want… Just do it!" she got up and walked in her room and got his coat "I’m not going to hold you back Charlie!" she passed him his coat "Don’t do this Camilla!" he took the coat off her she wiped her eyes "If I’m hurting you so much, then tell me were over Camilla, you say because I cant!" she looked at the floor and took a deep breathe and looked into his eyes "Were over Charlie! Now please just go!" he opened the door and walked out shutting it behind him, Camilla walked into her room, collapsing on her bed in tears.
Charlie walked slowly back to the flat, tears started to build in his eyes, but he knew it was the right thing…. If she was in pain, it was the right thing! When he got back to the flat there was a note from Matt and James reading: Chaz, we have gone out! Don’t expect us back early! Matt and James, he sat on the sofa, gazing into space for half an hour, when there was a knock on the door, he jumped up hoping to see Camilla on the other side. He opened it… It was Laura; she looked a little upset "Hey Charlie! Is Matt in?" Charlie went back to the sofa and sat down "No! James and him went clubbing, they wont be back till tomorrow!" She shut the door and sat next to him "How come you aren’t with them?" he played with a little piece of paper "I was at Camilla!" Laura looked at him "How come you aren’t there?" Charlie sighed, "We broke up!" Laura looked at the floor "Oh! I’m sorry!" he looked at her "Yeah me too! Why you looking for Matt? I thought you were going out with Alistair?" she looked at him "err…. It’s complicated!" a tear started to roll down her cheek; he looked at her "you want to talk?" she laughed "No! You got your own problems!" Charlie felt so confused he was oddly attracted to her, but as a friend didn’t want her to be upset "Well we can talk, you know comfort each other, you cry on me and I will cry on you!" she laughed "Yeah! The fun!" he turned towards her "so what’s wrong with you and Alistair?" she started to cry, "I never see him! And when I do, he’s always to busy talking to his mates on the phone or getting them to meet us without even asking me and then he ignores me!" her face was red and she couldn’t stop crying, Charlie handed her a tissue "So why are you and Camilla not together any more?"
"Because I’m never there for her any more, but I need to do this band, it is so important to me!" She looked up at him and wiped her eyes "but she must understand that" he nodded "she does, I told her that if she didn’t want to see me any more then to say so…. And she did! I didn’t expect her too… but I don’t want her to be hurt!" Laura started crying, "Why cant Alistair be like you! He doesn’t understand how I’m feeling!" Charlie lifted her chin "Do you love him?" she looked at him "I don’t know! May be something’s wrong with me! We have been dating for two years and he acts like I’m not there sometimes!" she put her head in her hands "have you told him this?" she nodded "and what did he say!" she looked at him "he said… don’t be so stupid and the turned the TV on! Don’t a deserve love? Have I done something wrong?" Charlie went to the bathroom to get more tissue.
He sat back down, next to her "What makes you think that?" she took the tissue of him "I see how you and Camilla are… I want that… Alistair… though all that was stupid! So many times I have watched you kiss Camilla and wanted Alistair to kiss me like that!" Charlie moved closer to her "Like what?" she looked up into his caring brown eyes "Like you loved me!" he wiped her eyes "You mean ‘he’?" she looked at his mouth then back into his eyes "No! I mean you!" she kissed him, his lips were so soft and tender…. Her heart was beating fast… he pulled away, she got up "I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to… I have to go!" she walked to the door and opened it, he came up behind her and shut it, he turned her around and kissed her passionately pushing her against the wall, he rapped his arms around her waist and she lay her hands on his face… their hearts beating faster and faster… they stopped "are you sure you want to do this?" she asked him he nodded "only if you are!" she bit her lip and nodded "what about Alistair?" he looked deep in to her eyes "I don’t care about him" he led her into his bedroom and closed the door behind them.
Chapter 5
When Charlie woke up the next day Laura was lay next to him naked, he had’nt dreamt the whole thing which meant him and Camilla were over, but he didn’t know why he had slept with Laura, sure he liked her as a friend and his imagination went wild every time he seen her after that day in the bathroom, but…. He wasn’t sure! Maybe it could work out with him and Laura…. He wasn’t sure! He closed his eyes and went back to sleep. He woke up half an hour later to see Laura sat on the bed dressed, putting her boots on "Hey!" he said sitting up, she turned around "Hi!" he looked at her "You okay?" she pushed her hair behind her ears "Yeah! I think!" she smiled "Look Laura about last night…" she stood up "I’m sorry, it shouldn’t of happened!" Charlie looked at her confused "But I thought.." She picked up her coat "Charlie, I’m not sure how I feel about you right now at this moment! And I don’t want us to fall out, but I need time to think… I think you do too… You did just break up with Camilla after all!" he nodded "Yeah… Well… last night was great!" she smiled and opened his bedroom door "Yeah! See you when you get back okay!" he nodded, as Laura walked out of Charlie’s bedroom she put her coat on and bumped into Matt "Hey Loz! I didn’t know you were here! How did you get in?" Charlie walked out of his room "Oh I let her in!" she looked at him and nodded "Yeah! I wanted to say bye! I’m expecting updates of everything okay!" Matt nodded and hugged her "Yeah! Totally! We need to do something when I get back!" she kissed him on the cheek "Yeah! Cool! Well I’m going to go, see you soon!" she walked to the door and opened it "…bye Charlie!" he looked at her "Bye!" she walked out the door and shut it behind her! Matt yawned and turn to look at Charlie who didn’t look too happy "So…. Do I dare ask what you and Camilla got up to last night! Hey! Hey!" Charlie looked at him "…Well, it wasn’t that! We broke up!" he walked into his bedroom and slammed the door! Matt went to the door "I’m so sorry man!" Charlie opened the door it "doesn’t matter! It was for the best!" he closed the door again.
Chapter 6
They had been gone for three week’s, and for three weeks Laura had tried to tell Alistair but as usual he wasn’t paying a lot of attention. On Saturday she had stayed at Alistair’s. Sunday morning he rolled over to Laura "Hey babe! You awake?" she hadn’t slept "I am now!" he kissed her shoulder "You feel a bit… you know!" she got out of bed "No! I don’t!" Alistair looked at her strangely "Why not?" Laura felt so pissed at the way he was treating her all the time "Because…. I have…. Something to tell you!" he sat up "Well what is it?" she started getting dressed "you know the other week when I said I stayed over at Matt’s!" he nodded "Well Matt wasn’t in!" she pulled her trousers up "Well Laura who said Matt had to be in for you to stay at his place!" She pulled her top over her head "Yeah well I stayed with Charlie!" he looked at her "Yeah your friends!" she grabbed a bag "… In his bed!" Alistair looked at her "I slept with him!" he got up "What!" she walked out of the bedroom and got her jacket "I was pissed at you! I’m sick of the way you have been with me lately! You don’t pay any attention to me! We have been together for two years and you have never said you loved me! So yeah! I slept with him! And I loved every minute of it! I felt wanted for a change!" he started to get tears in his eyes… He slapped her across the face "get out… You Slut!!! Get out! I don’t want to see you again!" she walked out of the door and he slammed it behind her, she pulled out her mobile and phoned Matt, luckily Matt was staying at a hotel that was only three hours away from Alistair’s apartment, he wasn’t answering his mobile. Laura’s face started to sting, tear’s were coming to her eyes. She went to the train station to get the next train. She needed to see Charlie… she needed to apologise, that she wasn’t using him…. She just had to tell Alistair before they could go any further.
While she was sat on the train she kept trying to get through to Matt, she knew he was busy but she needed to hear his voice. She remembered him saying that they were staying at a hotel called the intercontinental or something like that, she would just go and find him. She went to the toilets on the train her cheek had swelled a little, she sat on the train for three hours trying to figure out what to say to Charlie.
Sorry Charlie… that night did mean something to me and I don’t know what it meant to you… but I couldn’t do anything else until I told Alistair… please understand…don’t hate me…. I don’t know if we could make something out of this…. I’m willing to try…. If you are…. If you want too?
When she got off the train she got a taxi to the hotel, she went to ask for Matt at the desk…. "Excuse me do you have a mr Willis staying with you?" the woman checked the computer "no I’m sorry! No mr Willis!" Laura bit her lip "how about a Simpson or Bourne?" the woman checked again "No!" what’s he called… "Oh Fletch.. I’m not sure of its Fletcher or fletch?" she checked "yes we do have a mr Fletcher! Would you like me to call up to his room?"
" Please! Ask him if Matt is there... Please!" the woman phoned, "there is no answer, I’m sorry, they may have gone out but I’m sure they will be back! Would you like me to take a message?" Laura sighed, "No thank you I’m just going to wait for them! Could you tell me there room number! I am a friend" tears started coming to her eyes "Its 201! Second floor!" Laura smiled "Thank you!" Laura went to the lift and pressed the button for the second floor, and there she sat for half an hour waiting to see Matt.
Chapter 7
She sat there for half an hour with her head in her hands when she heard "Loz!" it was Matt he walked up to her, she stood up and threw her arms around his neck, crying "Laura baby! What’s wrong?" he looked at her face "What the fuck happened to your face?" she couldn’t speak she just leant against the wall and slid down to hit the floor! "Laura what the hell happened? Tell me!" he stood her up and put his arm around her waist "Right your staying with me! Lets get you in my room you need to sit down" Matt knocked on the door "I’m sharing a room with Charlie but he wont mind!" He knocked again "Charlie! Open the door!" Matt and Laura heard Charlie getting up… "Who is it Charlie?" that was a female voice, Laura looked at the door waiting to see who was inside "Oh shit!" Matt said, "That’s why he didn’t come out with me!" they heard the chain come of the door "Matt! I’m kind of busy…." He opened the door to see Matt holding Laura, her face swollen and her cheeks soaked from tears, he just stared at her "What happened?" he asked her, Matt looked at them both "Me and Alistair broke up!" Charlie looked in shock at her; she carried on "Yeah! I told him the reason why I couldn’t stay with him and…. He slapped me! Called me a slut and told me to get out!" Charlie didn’t know what to say he could see Laura was hurt, but after what she said that morning he didn’t think she wanted to be with him or anything.
Matt looked at Laura in shook, why was she just telling Charlie as if he needed to know "Right! Come on Loz were going to get another room! See ya in the morning Chaz!" He sat her on the stairs while he ran down and got another room, he came back ten minutes later, with a key he picked her up and took her to the room sat her on the bed and closed the door. Laura took her jacket off and flung it on the chair, Matt gave her some tissue, he sat on the bed and crossed his legs "Why the hell did he slap you?" Laura lay back on the bed "you wouldn’t understand!" Matt looked down at her " Laura we have been best friends for thirteen years…. We tell each other everything! Don’t give me that crap about not understanding! I know you better then you think I do!" she started to cry and sat up to face him "He hit me because I didn’t want to be with him any more!" Matt looked at her "So its no reason to hit you!" she looked down "I didn’t want to be with him because I didn’t love him and I realised I didn’t love him… because… Cause… I slept with Charlie!" Matt looked at her "What?"
"The night before you had to start working I went to yours to speak to you because Alistair was being a bastard again…. You weren’t there but Charlie was… he had broke up with Camilla and we started talking… and…I… kissed him! And it went from there!" Matt sat against the headboard "He used you!" she wiped her eyes "The next morning I acted so cold with him… I was so confused! He had broke up with Camilla… I was mad at Alistair… I didn’t want to go any further until I told Alistair… But I think I hurt his feelings and he thought I was using him!" Matt sat forward "well were you?" she turned and faced him "That’s the thing I don’t know… It all started because… I told Charlie…. I wanted what him and Camilla had Affection! Alistair doesn’t believe in all that!"
"What and Charlie gave you that?" she nodded "For one night…. Yeah! But I want to have all the time…. But not with Charlie!" she started crying Matt moved forward and hugged her "Hey! Don’t worry you will find someone!" She looked at him "That’s the thing what if I don’t! I want to be with someone who knows me so well maybe more then I know me and for me to know them so well that when were together we don’t know where I begin and he ends! I want every word to sound like ‘I love you’ even if he’s only asking for the TV remote… Maybe I don’t deserve it! Maybe I..."
"Shhh!" he held her "Why wouldn’t you deserve it? You’re a lovely, caring person and you deserve it! And one day you will find it!" she looked at him and smiled, he wiped her tears "If I could only find someone like you Matt!" he looked at her weepy eyes and for the first time he got butterflies in his stomach looking at her, that had never happened before "Yeah! Well not everyone’s me!" she laughed "You should get some rest babes!" he got off the bed "Where you going?" he turned to face her "To see if I can get anything from my room unless Chaz plans to hog everything!"
"Don’t say anything to him! Please!"
"I wont!" he walked out the door, and Laura pulled a brush out her bag and brushed it up so she could tie it up.
Chapter 8
Matt knocked on Charlie’s bedroom door "You all decent in there!" he turned the handle "Don’t worry she’s gone Matt!" Charlie said, he was sat at an open window smoking; Matt shut the door "Don’t worry I’m staying with Laura tonight so feel free to do what you want!" Charlie looked at him "Is Laura okay?" Matt grabbed some clothes "Yeah! She’s really upset about her relationships with people but she will be okay she’s a strong girl!" Charlie looked at the floor "I will be back in the morning Chaz… so… Night!" Matt walked out of the door, while Charlie sat there looking out the window.
When Matt got back to the room the door was still open but Laura wasn’t in bed "Matt is that you?"
"Yeah darlin were are you?"
"I’m in the shower!"
"I got a t-shirt you can wear to bed!"
"Okay just put it on the bathroom floor!" Matt opened the door slightly and threw the shirt on the floor and as he looked up he saw Laura’s reflection in the mirror, the glass was blurry and all misty from the heat… but he stopped and found himself looking at how beautiful her body curved… the shower went off, he quickly closed the door and sat on the bed he mumbled to himself "shit... Matt… Friends…. Just remember that!" Laura opened the bathroom door and walked out the t-shirt just came above her knees, Matt looked at her and smiled "It fits okay?" she laughed "Better then the other shirt you gave me!" he smiled "Err…. I’m going to go back to my room!" he got up "Look Matt…. You know I wouldn’t ask but will you stay with me tonight…. I just don’t want to be on my own... Other wise my minds going to drive me crazy again!" Matt gulped "Sure!" Laura climbed into the double bed; Matt sat on the chair "What you doing?" He looked at her "I’m going to sleep on this chair!" She got out of bed and took him by the hand and got back into the bed "What’s wrong with you? I’m not going to get freaked out if you’re sleeping next to me! Your acting like we have never slept in the same bed together!" he nervously laughed, "Well I thought you may be freaked out!" they lay there Laura rapped her arm’s round Matt and lay her head on his chest "Thanks for staying with me Matt!" he rapped his arms around her "No problem babes!" he kissed her on the head as she drifted off too sleep!
Chapter 9
The next morning he woke up, his arms still rapped around Laura and hers still around him. He had done this so many times before but it had never felt so right… he closed his eyes and went back to sleep, ten minutes later Laura woke up, she had forgot that she was curled up with Matt and expected to see Alistair or Charlie… she lifted her head… It was Matt… she looked at him sleeping… he looked so cute… she kissed him gently on the lips, she didn’t know why, but it occurred to her that she had never done that... I mean yeah they were best friends but…. She didn’t know why she had just done that… she put her head on his chest and went back to sleep.
She woke up again half an hour later to see that Matt was gone, she sat up and on the pillow next to her was a note reading – Morning Babes! Had to go things to do I will be back at 1pm Luv Matt she smiled and looked at the time it was 10am, she got up and got and ran herself a bath, which she spent forty-five minutes in trying to figure out why she had kissed Matt… she started to make a list in her head…. "We have known each other for thirteen years! I trust him! He makes me laugh! Never hurts me in any way! He’s always there for me! I can talk to him about anything! He knows me better then any on else………. He knows me…. Better then myself… and when we were together nothing else matters… I don’t know where I begin let alone where I end…. Oh Jesus… No Laura you’re being stupid! Then why did you kiss him? Because I wanted too! I wanted to know how it felt…. It felt so good lying in his arms… I felt protected from everything!" she sat up and got out of the bath and got dressed "Laura I don’t like what your saying… Me and Matt are best friends…. It’s not aloud! Why isn’t it aloud loads of people have been friends and then dated! But it’s Matt! Yeah! Matt who was there for you when your parents split up the first day of school! Every time you have been hurt by a guy! Mark! Chris! Alistair! And well Charlie but that doesn’t really count! And did you hear what he said last night ‘I know you better then you think I do Laura!’ And he’s right! You know he is!! So what are you trying to say Laura! I love him! Of course I do I always have as a friend! Well Laura you know what they always say … your best friend is everything you want in a guy… Oh and guess what your best friend is a guy!!! Think about it… look in your heart!"
She lay there thinking about everything her and Matt had ever been through, the laughs they have had the pain the conversations, when the use to sit in the park and laugh at their old couple, their water fights, food fights… all their play fights! "Oh my god! I do love him! I love…." Matt walked thought the door "…Matt!" she stood up! "Hey did you sleep okay?" She smiled "Yeah fine!" she walked over to him and hugged him "You okay?" she looked at him yeah I’m fine "Thanks for last night!"
"Its okay! Look I have got someone I want you to meet, I would have told you last night but you were to upset! So get your jacket!" Matt took her down stairs to the canteen where Charlie, James and everyone where sat, James got up "Hey Loz" he gave her a hug "Hey James!" She smiled at Charlie "Hi Laura…. Err… This is Louise!" He was sat next to a brown haired girl, who was very pretty, "Hi, I’m Laura, Its nice to meet you!" she smiled "Hi" Charlie looked at Laura and she smiled at him "Okay Laura, I don’t think you’ve met Fletch are Manager!" She smiled "Hi!" he shook her hand "Hello!"
"And last but not least this is Holly… She’s my girlfriend!" Laura just stared at him "You okay Loz!" She nodded "Yeah! Why didn’t you tell me! That’s great!" Holly and Matt laughed "Nice to meet you Holly!" Laura turned and walked off, Matt shouted after her "Where you going Loz?" she turned "I don’t feel so good I’m going to Lye down!" she walked out of the canteen, tears started to roll down her cheeks.
Chapter 10
Laura sat on the bed crying "I cant stay here I need to go home!" she put her jacket on and grabbed her bag, Matt walked in the room he looked at her "where you going? What’s wrong?" she looked at him "I can’t stay here! I need to go home!" He hugged her "Is it Charlie? Talk to me! I don’t like to see you like this!" she cried on his shoulder, all she wanted to do is say I think I’m in love with you but I’m not sure, but were friends so we cant be in love "No its not Charlie!" she looked at him…. She wanted to tell him, its matt he would understand… he would tell her that she’s upset and just wants Alistair back... but she didn’t want Alistair.. She wasn’t sure what she wanted…. "What is it?" he looked into her weepy eyes, his heart beating fast.. "I … I don’t know!" he smiled "Come on you mus…." She kissed him, neither of them pulled away… she stopped "I’m sorry… I didn’t … mean… I have to go!" she walked out the door "Laura! Laura!" Matt shouted, as she was walking down the stairs she bumped into Charlie "Laura hi!" she smiled and walked off "Look about that night…" she looked at him "don’t hate me! Its just when you were talking to me the next day you made it seem like you didn’t want anything to happen… and now I’ve met Louise and I really like her and…"
"Charlie, I don’t hate you! I didn’t want anything out of that night, I’m sorry for being so cold and Louise seems lovely but I have to go…" she carried on walking down the stairs, Charlie carried on walking when Matt flew passed him "Matt you okay?"
"Have you seen Laura?"
"Err... Yeah she just walked passed me on the stairs!" Matt ran down the stairs and into the entrance where he seen Laura waiting outside at the Taxi point, he ran out to her "Why did you do that?" she didn’t look at him he grabbed her and turned her around "Look I know you miss Alistair and your upset about Charlie and I’m not mad at you for kissing me cause your upset…"
"I didn’t kiss you because I’m upset! I kissed you because…. Cause I wanted too!" he let her go, a taxi started to drive up "When I said I wanted someone who knew me… I meant it... and do you remember you told me … you tell me all the time every time something’s wrong that you know me better then I do… Your right! You do and I’m scared Matt! We have been friends for thirteen years and I … I don’t want to ruin that over a crazy idea!" she climbed into the taxi and was about to shut the door when Matt grabbed it "What idea?" she looked at him "The idea that I might be falling in love with you!" she shut the door "To the train station please!" the taxi drove away and Matt just stood there watching Laura leave.
He didn’t know what to say to her, every night he phoned her for the four months he was working, when he got a week off he went round to her apartment but Laura was never in, he left so many messages for her on her answering machine Laura hi its Matt… again … look I have only got this week off then we start are first tour of the uk for two months… then we have to go to Japan… I need to speak to you Loz… Please phone me back! Bye Laura had been to stay with her aunt in Scotland so when she got back it was too late to phone him she had been gone for the week he was there, she listened to every message he left her at least three times, she couldn’t help crying about the whole thing, she may have lost her best friend and the one guy she could see herself with.
Chapter 11
It had been four months and Laura hadn’t heard anything from Matt, she had come to the conclusion that he never wanted to see her again, Alistair had been begging for them to try again but Laura didn’t want to know. It was August 8th Laura’s birthday and she sat at home, watching TV, there was a knock at her door, she really didn’t feel like seeing anyone but it might have been her mum so she decided to answer the door "one minute" she opened the door and there was Matt, she looked at him, his hair was now blonde but you could see the brown roots… he looked so good… she just stood there looking at him, she bit her lip and looked down at what she was wearing baggy pants and a strap top and her hair was a mess it was just shoved up, it had never bothered her before if Matt seen her in her pyjamas and messy hair.
"Hi Loz!" he smiled…. He looked so good, he pulled his hands from behind his back and handed her a small squared shaped present and a card "Happy Birthday!" she smiled "err…. You want to come in?" he walked in and she shut the door behind him "Thanks for the present…. I didn’t think… you…" he looked at her "I didn’t think you were speaking to me! So I didn’t expect anything… let alone you to remember it’s my birthday! Or to see you!" he lent on the back of the sofa "I did phone you every day after …. You left the hotel! We have been on tour for the last four months!" She put the present and card down and crossed her arms "Oh… cool! How was it?" he laughed "Fantastic! But I’m really tired!" she smiled and nodded "So how’s Holly?" Matt scratched his neck "Err… she’s okay I see her every now and then!" Laura looked at him "Well you are dating! You’re meant to see her!" he looked at her "No we… we broke up! About a month ago!" Laura leant against the wall "Oh... I’m sorry!" Matt looked at her "you are?" she laughed, "Why wouldn’t I be? She looked like a really nice person!"
"I’ve missed you!" she smiled "Yeah! I’ve missed you too!" he walked towards her and hugged her… it felt so good…. in each other’s arms "Look I’m going to throw you a party at mine!" she pulled away "I don’t know if that’s such a great idea, Matt!"
"Why not? I haven’t seen you in six months! We need to catch up and Chaz and JB miss you too!" she bit her lip "Please Laura! I miss you I want to talk to you!" she nodded "Alright! What time do you want me there?" he smiled "Yes! Err…. Seven… yeah…. Seven is good!!" he opened the door "Okay seven!! Be there!!" she laughed, "I will!!!" he shut the door, she looked at the present and card on the side, she opened the present, it was a golden necklace with a small red heart in the middle, a tear came to her eye, she opened the card and read it the front said Happy 19th! She opened the inside and read what Matt had written Dear Loz Happy 19th your getting older only joking! I don’t know what happened that day! But I don’t want to lose my best friend! Luv Matt xxx "I don’t want to lose my best friend either…. So, just go to the party Laura and tell him your sorry and you were being silly, you were upset!"
Matt spent the whole day setting food out and making sure the place looked clean, James and Charlie giggled at him "Matt, man please slow down your making me dizzy!" James said while buttoning his shirt "I cant its Laura’s party everything has to be perfect!" They laughed "Its only Laura! Flip you would think you two were going out!" Charlie looked at James; Matt stopped "Look I haven’t seen her in six months… I’m aloud to want things to go well!" he went in to his room and shut the door, James and Charlie looked at each other and shrugged. At 7:10, nearly all the guests had arrived but no Laura, Matt was stood in the kitchen walking up and down "She’s not coming is she? She promised! Where is she?" Charlie handed him a glass of vodka and coke and he knocked it back "Calm down! She will be here!" the bell rang, Matt ran out of the kitchen to answer the door, he opened it and it was Louise "Hi Matt!" he smiled "Oh hey Louise! Charlie is in the kitchen!" he was about to shut the door when he heard "Hi Matt!" he turned around it was Laura, she was wearing a black strap dress just above the knee and she was wearing the necklace…. He stood there staring at her "What?" she laughed, "You look… Beautiful!" she smiled "Thanks! Oh and thank you for the necklace its…. Beautiful!"
Chapter 12
"Can I come in?"
"Oh yeah! Sorry!" she walked in and looked around, Matt shut the door "Happy birthday babes!" he kissed her on the cheek "Thanks!"
"Laura!" James shouted and walked up too her giving her a big hug "Haven’t seen you in ages! How have you been?" she smiled "Bored! Working! The usual! What about you?" he laughed, "We have been on tour it was wicked!" she turned so she was including Matt in the conversation "Yeah! First group to got 3,2,1 by 1,2,3!! Its cool!"
"Oh I will be back in a minute!" James wondered off "Do you want a drink?" Matt asked her, she nodded, so he grabbed her hand and took her to the kitchen, were Charlie and Louise were making out, Matt coughed and they stopped "Happy Birthday Laura!" Charlie said and hugged her, Louise handed her a present "Oh you didn’t have to Louise!"
"Its from me and Charlie! Happy Birthday!" Laura hugged her "Thank you!" Charlie and Louise made their way into the living room.
"You okay?" Matt asked her handing her some coke "I guess!" she walked out into the living room and started to talk to people, Matt followed her out and lent against the wall and carried on drinking his drink.
It was Mid-Night and Charlie went over to speak to Matt "You okay?" Matt looked at him "Yeah! I’m fine!"
"You and Laura haven’t spoken since she got here! Are you both okay?" he shrugged "Why what’s wrong?"
"Look… I know about what happened between you too!" Charlie looked down "and I spent the night holding her in my arms cause she was upset… and I don’t think of her the same since!" Charlie took him in the kitchen "What you mean you fancy her?" Matt poured himself another drink "I’m not sure!"
"Have you spoken to her?"
"That day she left… I went to see what was wrong with her and she kissed me and … I … didn’t pull away! In fact I wanted to stay there forever!"
"Well…. Does she like you… like that?" Matt knocked his drink back "I don’t know… I’m freaked out we have been best buds for like thirteen years Charlie… and when I seen her at the door... I wanted…. Her so much! I’ve missed her! But she’s my friend... It’s weird!"
"What so weird about it? Loads of friends have fallen in love before!"
"You watch to many mushy movies mate!"
"Maybe! But it’s true what they say!" Matt looked at him "And what would that be?"
"Well for girls – Your best friend is everything you want to find in a guy and lucky for Laura…. You are a guy!" Charlie walked out of the kitchen, leaving Matt to think.
By two all the guests had gone, Charlie had gone over to Louise’s and James had found him self a cute little red head which left Matt and Laura alone to tidy up.
"So did you have fun?" Matt had a black bin bag and was just picking anything up and throwing it in "Yeah I did!" Laura was collecting glasses and taking them into the kitchen "Where we you hiding all night, I hardly seen you?" Laura looked at him "Err… I didn’t … think you wanted to talk to me!" he stopped "Why not?" she sat on the back of the sofa "Look that day at the hotel…"
"Yeah I need to speak to you about that!" Laura looked at him confused "You know like you said you want someone who knows you better then you know yourself and you them! That’s us!" she looked at the floor "I was being stupid!" he sat next to her "No you weren’t! I spent the whole night holding you in my arms! I never wanted to let go! And when you kissed me… I didn’t want it to end!" tears came to her eyes "Were friends Matt…. It doesn’t make sense!"
"It makes perfect sense! We have known each other so long! We know what to expect, we know how to cry together have fun…. We can talk to each other about anything and not be embarrassed or ashamed!" she wiped her eyes he stood yup and faced her "I have missed you more then ever over the last six months… I wanted to have a water fight with you again… Sit in the park and see are old couple… I wanted to hold you all night long and not care about are friendship but the fact I’m in love with you!" she put her head in her hands and cried "Do you love me Laura? You said you did that day!" she fell to her knees "I don’t want to lose you Matt!" he knelt down infront of her and lifted her chin "Your not going too lose me but I have to kn.." she kissed him his lips were soft… her stomach filled with butterflies…. Their hearts beating like crazy… they stopped, Matt stood up and helped Laura up… their hearts beating faster and faster each second…. He pulled her close and kissed her …. Each kiss got even more passionate then the last…. He un-zipped her dress and slid the straps slowly down her arms… the dress hit the floor and she stepped out of it kicking it to the side… he grabbed her waist, she held onto his hair…. She un-buttoned his shirt…. They stopped kissing… he took his shirt off…she took her shoes off and took him into his bedroom…
Chapter 13
The next morning Matt awoke to find Laura wasn’t lay next to him… he got out of bed and opened his bedroom door…. She wasn’t in the living room… he went to check in the bathroom…. She wasn’t there either…. He ran to his room and got his clothes on. The flat door opened he ran to see who was there "Hey Matt you just got up?" It was James "Yeah! Have you seen Laura?" James shook his head "not since last night! Why did she crash here?" Matt ran back into his room and put his shoes on "Matt you okay?" Matt ran out the front door, James shrugged and turned the TV on.
Matt ran all the way to Laura apartment, he knocked on the door "Laura! Laura! I know you’re in there! Please open the door!" Laura opened the door she had changed "hey!" he walked in "why did you leave so early?" she closed the door "Just did! Do you want a drink?"
"Don’t change the subject!" she smiled "I’m not! You sure you don’t want anything?"
"Your acting like nothing happened!"
"No I’m not!" he walked over to her and went to kiss her but she dodged him "See! What the Hell is it with you Laura! I love you! You love me! Why must it be so hard?"
"We can’t do this!"
"Why cant we? Am I the only one who thought the other night meant something?"
Tears started to stream down her face "Please don’t do this to me" She put her back against the wall and slid down, hitting the floor, she held her stomach, he knelt on both knees in front of her "well! Am I?" She cried and mumbled "No!" he lifted her chin up "then why can’t we do this?" she looked at him "Because what if something goes wrong we wont be friends any more…. I just don’t want to loose you…. No matter what… if we are friends or what ever!"
"Look at me!" she looked at him "I want you! I love you! And your not going to lose me! You haven’t for the thirteen years we have known each other and its not going to change!"
"You promise!" he smiled "Cross my heart!" he kissed her…. "I love you! You stupid git!" he laughed and stood her up "Come here!" he rapped his arms around her and kissed her on the head "You want to go to the park?" she smiled "Give are old couple something to look at!" they laughed….. and kissed each other.