It's a new year for me, and a new beginning. I had a feeling deep down in my stomach that I wasn't going back to college, and the university confirmed it. Luckily, I found out in time before I received my twenty-four hour notice slip saying I had to pack up and leave. It's going to be hard for a while. I don't have health insurance anymore and in a few months I'll have to start paying back my student loan. I'll do just fine. I have my family, boyfriend, and other friends here to support me when things get tough and I feel I can't go on.
Listening to my mother's story of how she left college six weeks after starting, and how her mother didn't finish, I was determined to break the cycle. I would complete college and leave witha degree. I guess I was too determined, because I never saw that I was slipping in my classes and was losing my focus. I wanted it to badly that I didn't take the advice to stop and take a break. So, now I'm at home. I've told myself if I don't go back to school in a year, I'm moving to Sioux Falls and will work there. I'll just have to wait and see what happens.