The Trouble With Confessions


“Dear Filia,

They say you should never write things down if you want them kept secret, but I feel as though I’ll go insane if I don’t let this out somehow. 
I’ve fallen in love with you. 
There; I’ve said it. Well, sortof anyway.  I watch you all the time, and I doubt you evennotice.  Not that that’s a problem, really.  In fact, it’smuch better that you not know of the truth of my feelings for you. You might feel some obligation to be kind to me, and much as I wish to haveyour kindness, even you love, I would not like to be pitied. 
I’min a bad situation and I know it, but what can I do?  Those who controlboth our lives would hardly look kindly on my…insubordination.  Such a cold way to look at falling in love, but I know without even asking that it’s “against orders” for me to have any care whatsoever for you.  Maybe I would just say “to hell with orders” and admit my feelings, but this could very well make you a target, and that is one thing I never want you to be.  If I ever do tell you, we’ll have to keep it a secret.  It’s a good thing I’m good at those, isn’t it? 
Well Filia, you’re going to sleep now,so I’ll stop writing and wish you sweet dreams…even though youlikely won’t believe me.
Sincerely
Xellos”


Xellos slipped the pen and paper back into his satchel.