Claimers: I own them. Even
the evil ones.
Title & Lyrics: System
of A Down own the song "Darts", not me. Very revealing.
Dedications: To Mr Man, and
his naughty misbehaving script. May it be fixed shortly.
Fear not the Gods who come from the
skies,
Long not for the Gods who've lost their
way.
Elle's POV
LaOC XXXI - Arise
As Did The God Ninti
I turn my alarm off and get up.
I glance at myself in the mirror and I look
dreadful.
That's what having no sleep does to a person
I suppose.
I'm awash with anger, betrayal, hurt... and
so much more.
The one person I thought I could trust, believe
in, and... I can't.
The one person who I love more than anything,
and she's rejected me for another.
Then I start to laugh at the irony of it all.
I left her once and now she's left me.
I laid with another and she's had her revenge
by doing the same.
Except this isn't a game.
We're not totalling up score.
Neither person can win.
We can only lose.
And I know I have.
I have lost and I am lost.
I can feel it deep inside me.
I feel... alone.
Completely alone.
I get dressed on automatic.
I can think of nothing else but the moment
I heard Michelle's thoughts.
Those thoughts of her and Dizzy... together.
Of Dizzy hurting her while they...
It's what I don't understand.
Dizzy's so gentle.
Perhaps that's only with me?
It seems I don't know her as well as I
presumed.
Presumptions are always a dangerous thing.
They lead you along one path, while the
truth veers off on another.
And I have truly veered, so far that I'm not
sure where the truth is anymore.
I sit down on my bed and stare at nothing.
And that's when my tears finally start.
I've been fighting them all night, afraid that
if they came they'd never stop.
I fall back and curl up as I begin to sob.
Tears for what I had.
And tears for what I have lost.
I've lost part of me.
And it hurts beyond belief.
Believe in me, I told her.
Believe in me and I can save you.
And she betrayed me.
I can see my life falling apart before me.
The one thing I was so sure of is moving
away from me, and I can't stop her.
The person who made me feel complete is ripping
herself from our union.
It's as though I can feel everything inside
me tearing.
As if it were real.
As if I were being pulled apart.
For the damage has been done, and I'm not
sure if it can ever be repaired.
And I am a God in pain.