June 2000

You’d think that I’d have some explaining to do again right? The Scooby’s would all wig out on me and I’d be faced with that death row walk the next time I came into the magic shop. Only this time there wouldn’t be her to save me, flick the switch to off, and cut the power. In fact it would be her with the noose in her hands, swinging it like it was a jump rope as if she were bored.

That’s the funny thing about expectations, whether they are too high or too low, something can always come in and shatter them. I’m usually with the, keep things at ground level cos that way you don’t have that far to fall when you get dumped over the side, whereas I bet people like Red are all with the, happy woo-hoo things are darkest before the dawn but look there is a silver cloud over that lining, or whatever the hell that saying is. So yeah whether they are high or low, the stakes are often the same when it comes to how you expect things to go sometimes. And it’s only just dawned on me how many times lately B has shattered the illusions of my life, and let in some light.

She took the whole "you assaulted my boyfriend" thing way calmly. I talked myself out of it with Giles, like I used to talk my way out of not showing up in home room on time or like ever, back in high school, but I figured getting the slayer to calm down would be another matter. Cos like, I’ve seen her wail on the big bad ever since Army Boy got his super chip removed and he gets himself caught in the cross-fire....though now I come to think about it that’s been a lot less of a happening lately. Still I expected to be saying hello to another one of those Summers Specials sometime soon.

Only it never happened, much to Army Boy’s disappointment I bet. Ha, psyche!

So here I am wondering why B didn’t go for me. And why when I called round the magic shop the other day B was hardly capable of keeping a straight face explaining to the rest of the Scooby’s why Army Boy wasn’t showing his face much around there anymore. Why, when I looked over at her with the green eyed monster fighting to be seen in my eyes, and her honey down on the floor groaning, she wasn’t looking at signs of him being all right, she was mouthing the words.........

"Are you okay?"

.....to me?

Yeah doing a lot of wondering lately.

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