Let Me Fall
The pretty blue sky reflects it's cold onto my face
I'm empty inside, crawling with deceit and lies.
Covering me, seeping into my pores.
I want to close the doors, stop my descent
I want to back into a corner, curl up and scream
Instead I smile and talk words that leave me like vapour.
No one notices or maybe no-one cares.
I watch the Autumn leaves dying on the branches
I feel like that, I want to pick them up and tell them I care
That I'll look after them after they've fallen
That I'll worry, that I'll make sure they're safe
Instead I watch from my window and press my head against the cold glass
I don't even flinch at the sharpness anymore.
No-one notices or maybe no-one cares.
I feel like that, I want to pick them up and tell them I care
That I'll look after them after they've fallen
That I'll worry, that I'll make sure they're safe
Instead I watch from my window and press my head against the cold glass
I don't even flinch at the sharpness anymore.
No-one notices or maybe no-one cares.
I sit and watch the reflections, moving, talking, being.
I envy and hate everything before me
I want to fall to my knees and cry for what I've become.
Grating, vile, tormented, black and I've created a monster.
I want to let go of my hold and just fall down to my fate.
Just let me go, let me fall, leave me, please.
No-one notices or maybe no-one cares.
I envy and hate everything before me
I want to fall to my knees and cry for what I've become.
Grating, vile, tormented, black and I've created a monster.
I want to let go of my hold and just fall down to my fate.
Just let me go, let me fall, leave me, please.
No-one notices or maybe no-one cares.
I want to show you my hands so you can see what's seeping out.
Evil, bad, impure, covered and coated in the invisible.
Why can't anyone else see me for what I am now?
I accept my fate of pain, ripping, shredding, pure worthlessness.
Sealed like a letter that's lost without an address.
Useless, helpless, alone, cold, empty, small and wretched.
No-one notices or maybe no-one cares.
I care.
About me.
About you.
And it's slicing me in two.
Cutting.
I'm dripping.
Pooling in my palms.
About me.
About you.
And it's slicing me in two.
Cutting.
I'm dripping.
Pooling in my palms.
Dirty hands.
My dirty hands.
My dirty hands.
I feel the tears behind my eyes.
Fighting to walk in the light.
Please, I sob in my voice.
Leave me, let me go, let me fall.
Let this stop, give me peace.
This isn't how it was meant to be.
Not like this.
I wasn't meant to be this way.
I was meant to be good, pure, wonderful.
Not what I see in the mirror.
Not what I see looking back at me.
Fighting to walk in the light.
Please, I sob in my voice.
Leave me, let me go, let me fall.
Let this stop, give me peace.
This isn't how it was meant to be.
Not like this.
I wasn't meant to be this way.
I was meant to be good, pure, wonderful.
Not what I see in the mirror.
Not what I see looking back at me.
Instead I'm alone, surrounded by people but alone.
And I want to stop it, my descent, but I'm fighting the tide.
It's pushing me away from the shore, I can't fight it.
Useless, I'm not strong enough anymore.
Weak, fragile, sobbing.
Just leave me, let me be, let me go, please.
No-one cares and for once I'm glad.
And I want to stop it, my descent, but I'm fighting the tide.
It's pushing me away from the shore, I can't fight it.
Useless, I'm not strong enough anymore.
Weak, fragile, sobbing.
Just leave me, let me be, let me go, please.
No-one cares and for once I'm glad.