Disclaimers: Joss owns
all the BTVS characters, not me. I make no claims to them, at all.
Me: I am the proud owner
of one Discord Knight, steal her and I'll kill you.
Note: Faith and Discord
do have the same last name. What can I say, they're mom's never made it
to the alter in time. Faith's a right bastard anyway.
Title: No Doubt own the
line, not me, it's from their gorgeously sexy 'Return Of Saturn'
Dedications: To Twinkle,
the inspiration for this fic. She broke my heart, with one tear. Also, to
Gianni, such a naughty kitty. He's the only male I will ever love.
Discord's POV
Slayers Do Christmas
LXIX [49] - The Magic's In The Make-Up, Who Am I?
Yeah, come on, bad ass, let's play chicken,
it'll teach you a fucking lesson!
And then she starts shaking, like shaking,
real hard.
I can almost hear her heart hammering, can
see the sweat on her face.
She's looking right through me, like I'm
not here.
What's going on?
'Faith?'
Her hand lets go of the knife, slowly, but
she's still looking through me.
'Faith?'
Her hands on my shoulders, gripping me, tight,
bruising me.
Her eyes are dead, like, wide but dead.
She's not there.
What's happening?
This is all going wrong, I was trying to
teach her a lesson, not... not this!
Her hands go up to her face, covering it,
then scrapping back into her hair, over her ears.
Her whole body's shaking, can feel it.
Then she screams, like an animal, her head
back, hands in her hair.
Fuck!Fuck!Fuck!
This is all going wrong!
My hand goes up, to try and calm her down,
and as I touch her she flies up off of me, her back against the wall.
All the time she's whispering to herself;
no, no, no, no.
Where the Hell is she?
With that Lucy suddenly appears in a ball
of flames, next to me!
She kneels down, looks over at Faith and
closes her eyes.
'She's in her own Hell, Dis, not mine. I'm
sorry.'
Then she's gone, just as quickly as she appeared,
leaving the smell of burning in her wake.
And I don't know what to do?
Pushing myself up, I move over to her, as
she slowly slides along the wall.
'Faith, it's Discord. Faith? Look at me.'
Her eyes, still looking through me.
I take a chance and stop her moving with
my hand.
And it was one of the biggest mistakes of
my life.
Faith's POV
See, you can't hurt me now! I'm Faith, Faith,
you hear me? I'm not your little girl, I'm not her, I'm me, me, me,
me. I'm there, with him, and he's all over me, and I can't stop
it. No, I'm Faith, I'm a Slayer, you can't hurt me anymore! I'm a Slayer,
a Slayer! I can't move, and he's still there, pawing, grabbing, and hurting
me, making me cry, making me scream, laughing. Little girl, you're my little
girl, laughing, can't get him off, all over me, help me, someone help me!
Crying, can't stop crying, it's making it worse. Don't cry, you're Faith
now, Faith the Slayer, he can't hurt you! He can't hurt you now!!
Stop it, please, but he's still there, please, no, leave me alone, and I
can smell him, and he's all over me. Get. Off. Me. I'm Faith, Faith,
Faith, Faith. You're my little girl, little girl, little girl. I'm
his little girl, I'm his little girl. I'm his... NO, I'm Faith! I'm
no-ones. I'm no-ones, you're not having me again, you're not going to hurt
me, I'm Faith. Faith the Slayer, Faith the bad ass. I'm strong now. I'm
Faith, and you're not taking me without a fight!
Discord's POV
I feel her fist, right in my face, with so
much force that I stumble back.
Fuck, I think she broke my nose!
Fuck it!!
Then she's punching me, again, and again.
I manage to block most of them, and she's
still swinging at me, then a round house from no-where and I'm down.
She's on top of me, and I manage to backhand
her off.
She lies on her back, for a second; still.
Then she rolls up, into a crouch and the
look on her face scares the shit out of me.
It's like... she's like an animal, growling
and baring her teeth, her hair a mess and her clothes damp from sweat.
What the fuck's going on?
It's not Lucy, she's not possessed?
I was trying to teach her a lesson about
knives, not to... not this.
It wasn't...
I flip up, and at the same time she flies
at me, and I catch her, pinning her arms to her sides, pushing her against
the wall, keeping her legs trapped.
She's like a fuckin' banshee, man, struggling,
screaming at me, thrashing, and I feel myself start to cry.
It was meant to be a lesson, not this.
'Faith? Faith, please, it's Discord, it's
ok. You're ok.'
'You're not going to hurt me! I'm Faith,
Faith, Faith, me, I'm not going to let you hurt me!'
She's screaming at me, thrashing, and I don't
think I can hold her much longer, not without breaking something of hers.
'Faith, you're ok, you're here with me, Discord,
it's ok. You're here with me, Discord!'
Faith's POV
Yeah, I'm Faith, I'm bad, you made me bad,
you fucked me up... you fucked me...up. You can't hurt me, I'm in control,
but he's still there, and I'm crying and I can't move, I can't move, help
me, I can't move! SOMEONE HELP ME! Please, please, no, you can't
have me, not me, I'm not gonna let you, not this time, not now. You're not
here, this isn't happening, please, I'm not letting you, you hear me? I'M
NOT FUCKIN' LETTING YOU! Dis? You're not Dis, you can't fool me, not
me, not me, not again. You're not her! You're lying, get out of my head,
leave me alone, please, LEAVE ME ALONE! I'm not your little girl,
not now, I'm me, I'm not yours. You're not going to hurt me! I'm Faith,
Faith, Faith, me, I'm not going to let you hurt me!
SOMEBODY... HELP ME.
Discord's POV
Her whole body's soaking from sweat as I
hold her, trying to calm her down.
Then she slows and starts to sob, wracking,
tearing through her.
Tears sliding down her face, she's sobbing.
She stops thrashing and then she's still.
Like, completely still in my arms, her whole
body goes limp.
Faith's POV
You're not here.
You're not...
I'm Faith, Faith.
Faith...
Discord's POV
I move her away from the wall, slowly and
lay her body in my arms, carrying her to the bedroom.
She's breathing all shallow, sucking in enough
air to keep from passing out.
She's all limp.
What happened?!
I look down at her face and she's staring
up at me, with this look.
And I don't even know how to explain it;
it's the saddest, most pained, helpless look I've ever seen.
A single tear falls from her eye, onto my
hand.
And I feel my heart break.