Kitty's Pad - Slayers Do Total Recall

Disclaimers: Joss and his Mutants own BTVS and all characters that I borrow.

Me: I own all the others.

Title: From the poem 'Let Me Fall', by Anonymous Writer.

Dedications: To Heaven, Hell and all in-between. Also to Nikita, for the most heart wrenching fic, 'Just Another Love Story'. Do not miss it, it's fabulous.

Lyrics: ABBA own them, from 'If It Wasn't For The Nights'

//No one to turn to, you know how it is
//I was not prepared for something like this
//Now I see them clearly, the things that I miss
//Baby, I feel so bad, I know I'm never gonna make it

Faith's POV

Slayers Do Total Recall VI - And I Want To Stop It, My Descent, But I'm Fighting The Tide

'Faith, you're awake. Hey, how are you feeling?'

Don't think about it, don't think about it, don't think about it, it's not...

'Ok... better.'

'You look better, I mean, you look less pale. Do you need me to get anything for you?'

It's ok, everything's ok, don't think about it, you're ok now, don't think about it.

'Huh? No.'

'I got you some clean clothes to change into, Faith.'

Concentrate, you're not there anymore, everything's ok, it's not happening, you're ok.

'B?'

'Yes, it's me!'

Stay calm, no, don't think about it! Stay calm, it's ok, you're safe. Stop thinking about it!

'I have to shower.'

'I'll wait here for you, Faith.'

Keep her with you or he'll get you, he's coming to get you, Faith. He's coming to get you!

'Come with me?'

'Course I will.'

Buffy's POV

Ok, she's talking in almost sentences.

And she wants me to... shower with her?

No, you idiot, to stay with her in the bathroom!

I follow her in and she turns the shower on, making the room fill up with steam.

Wow, ok, might need to open a window.

'Um, Faith, I don't think you've turned the cold on.'

'I know.'

'Oh, ok, but I think we're talking scalding, burning, and hospital visit if you get under it like that.'

'I know.'

'Faith? I'm not going to watch you hurt yourself!'

'Then get out.'

'No, I mean...'

'I said get out.'

She opens the door and her eyes look wild, and I don't want her to get in the shower, but I don't want to set her off again.

'Get. Out.'

She starts shaking and I know she's going to freak if I don't go.

I have to.

But, she might get hurt though.

She's not going to hurt herself!

She won't, Faith wouldn't do that.

'Faith, I don't want you to get hurt.'

'Too late. Leave. Now.'

She's shaking and she's going to freak, I know she is.

I'll go, but, I'll stay right outside, so I can hear if she does anything.

She closes the door and I hear the lock flip.

Faith's POV

You wanna stay under my skin? Stay there, stay there you fucker, 'cause you're gonna feel pain.

I'm gonna make you hurt, you're gonna feel me, not the other way round, me, me, Faith. Pain's coming from me now, not from you. Yeah, you can feel it burning, can't you, you can feel it, can't you? This is from me, me to you! Feel me, feel it burning you fuckin' bastard!

Feel it burn!

Feel me!

Me!

I'M IN CONTROL NOW! I'M IN CHARGE, NOT YOU, ME, AND I'M GONNA MAKE YOU HURT!

FEEL--IT--BURN!

Buffy's POV

The steams coming out from under the door.

There's too much steam, she's going to hurt herself!

I have to stop her, but what if she... I don't care!

Doors locked, ok.

I grab hold the handle and snap it right off, and I'm in.

I can't see a thing, shit; open the window!

I reach for the shower and turn it off, stopping the water.

Then the steam starts to go and she's under the shower, still in her clothes, with her arms out, where the water just was.

Her arms raw, where the water was all over them, raw.

'DIS?!'

Discord's POV

What the fuck?

I flick my smoke out the window and rush into the bedroom, where are they?

Bathroom... Fuck!

'What did she do? What the fuck did she do?!'

'She wanted to take a shower, she... hot water, she's all burnt, Dis. Help me get her out of here.'

Man, this is screwed, like, fuckin' screwed!

I pick her up, and hold her, trying not to touch her arms, and she starts laughing.

Sends a shiver right down me, and I've heard some stuff.

She's just laughing and laughing, like she's heard the funniest thing.

'Faith, what's goin' on? What did you do to your arms?'

'I hurt him, like he hurt me!'

And it makes my blood boil, 'cause I'm not stupid, I know what's happened.

I might not know who but I know what.

I lay her down on the bed, and go for the first aid kit.

See, that's the thing, I figured it out; I figured it out.

Now I'm glad of what I am.

I'm Discord, Angel of Vengeance.

And now I know what my next jobs going to be.