Dear Jesus,

I am so sorry to bother you when I know you have so many important things to do than mess with someone like me. I need Your help Jesus. I need You to ask our Father to intercede in my behalf. I don't know how to forgive the abuse that has been done to me. How to forgive the ones that did it or to forgive myself. I think I have forgiven them then something comes up and brings it all back.

How do you forgive someone for beating you or putting you down all the time? How do you forgive someone for turning there back on you? How do you forgive someone for molesting you? How do you forgive them for not loving you? How do you forgive them for giving away your baby? How do I forgive myself for putting myself in the position for all this to happen? People can say for most of it I was only a child, but that is no excuse. I quit being a child a very, very long time ago as you know Jesus. I had to, to survive.

I beg of you my brother Jesus to get our Father to grant me some peace. I have given up the dream of ever being a wife and mother or a slave to the man I love. That is my punishment for letting all of this happen to me, but please if you can see fit to intercede peace would be wonderful. I would also like to ask you to help Nicholi with his migraines, JRB with his knees, kitten with what troubles her soul, my mother with whatever is causing her such pain and MistressVella with whatever it is that causes her such pain in her heart even if you can't help me, please help these dear people. There has been enough suffering in this world and I suffer enough for all of them. So, in Your glorious mercy, please go to our Father and get Him to help.

Amen

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