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Controlled
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Problems overtaking...
Surrounded
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No motivation...
Secret
I Can't Tell You
Hidden
Can't Explain
Escape
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What's this life...
Girl, Interrupted
Controlled
I say something
You comment
I be quiet
You ask why
You control me
What should I do?
Talk? Don’t talk?
Look? Don’t look?
Move? Don’t move?
Listen? Don’t listen?
Pick one
Cuz I have no say
You control me
Controlled
Untitled
Problems overtaking
Can’t control
Life surrounded
Thoughts overtaking
Can’t control
Life surrounded
Body overtaken
My life has become
Powerless
Surrounded
Problems all around
No matter where I turn
I can’t hide from them
I need to escape
Just to be free
Even for a little while
Problems are bringing me down
Going to make me fall
Gonna send me six feet under
I need to escape from these problems
Need to find a place to hide
Hide from all these problems
Be free, free from everything
Forget that all this bad shit is going on
Be happy, be me
Don’t want problems all around
Wanna be free
Free from all these problems
Don’t wanna be surrounded
Surrounded no more
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No motivation
Life’s a drag
Need to continue
Can’t give up
Can’t give in to the pressure
Have to succeed
Need to show that I am stronger
Have to find a way
Miracle needs to come my way
I need help
Don’t want to be stopped
Need motivation
Have to prove better
Need to come out on top
Secret
Feelings stuffed inside
Afraid to be told
Afraid to face reality
Don’t wanna get hurt
Rather stay inside
Don’t wanna disappoint
Confused, mixed up
Secrets are meant to be kept secrets
But some secrets are just meant to be told
Is this one of them?
Should I tell someone?
Should I face my fears?
Am I brave enough to stand up and tell someone?
I need to get better
This secret can’t be a secret forever
I need to tell
The feelings need to come out
I can’t go through life like this
Help is the only the way
Feelings have been stuffed down too long
These secrets have to come out
I Can't Tell You
These feelings I feel
I can’t tell you
Afraid you won’t feel
The same way that I do
Don’t want mine to get hurt
Don’t want things to get weird
Just want things to stay the same
I don’t want our friendship to be ruined
I can’t tell you
Don’t wanna ruin things
Want things to remain the same
Gonna keeps things to myself
For the sake of our friendship
Hidden
Hidden is the truth
Deep down where no one is to know
But begging to show
Locked up behind walls
A secret is waiting to be told
Is the truth
Feelings no one knows
Thoughts that aren’t suppose to be thought
Feelings no one wants to be
Society is to blame
For the thoughts that are being felt
The pressure to be perfect model type
Beautiful, sexy, skinny
These things I am not
Hidden inside
Are the feelings I feel
No one likes me
People don’t show it
I don’t know it
Am I really liked?
Is my life worth living?
Will I be missed when I am gone?
I need an answer
Before it’s too late
Can't Explain
These feelings for you
I can’t explain
Don’t know how to put into words
I don’t know why I like you
There is something about you
That just gets me
Something inside me
That gets all nervous
When I’m around you
My stomach gets butterflies
My muscles become tense
But I guess that’s a good thing
But I can’t explain why I like you
There is just something about you
Something mysterious
That attracts me to you
But I do know one thing
I like you
Escape
Wanna get away
Escape from the place that I reside
Explore the world
Sick and tired of staying here
Wanna start anew
Erase my past
Create a new me
Start fresh
Can’t stand the person that I have created
Want to destroy
Need to get out of here
Before I fall apart
Going to escape
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What's this life living for?
Nothing going on
Can't be the person
I want to be
People talking shit
Making me hold back
It's right infront of me
Where ever I turn
Can't escape
Because I do it too
It's just the way we are
But what's this life living for?
Am I going to miss anything
If I end it early?
Who will know?
Can't say I will, can't say I won't
But who is to say I will
My life is nothing
Worthless
Girl, Interrupted
Suicide on the mind
No guns need be involved
No holes in the body
Violence is not right
Method unknown
Pills? Hanging? Drowning?
Maybe a bottle of aspirin chased down by vodka
Not sure as to how
Have time to think
Maybe life will get better
That’s what I have said before
Suicide is my only answer
The only thing I can think of
Think of something better
Please let me know