Postal Ape, 3/31/98

Taist  t h a t  is  w h y.

     Forrage for gorp on mountain tops



							ANGRY..WHY so ANGRY
I like when he blows his top
		Butter strikes the bowl

My kin swallows a BULLET


  MABY YOU OUGHT let the children be/your already out of the oven/what 
need you with them

	My dear freckle face
	I wish I was that blemmish
	to be the perfect imperfection
			             n
				     n
				     not on your life
						    e
						    Id ego->superhuman fectch me that pitcher
		So what if he's not like you and    I
maby he's crazy maby's he's handycapped just like U+I
	Cap'n crunch no unneccessary letters you so Intamate
				so unlike any others!


			your healthy soup, and my favorite tie, come together like boots and 
cow pie

I like you
       you need me
		me and you
		       you need me
				me and you
				       you need me
					   need some help there silly
								silly
							       Silly what they can do these days


 FANTAZTIC  >--holliday-spirit--<                 I like the 
color you creat an atomosphere of bait


		Catch?..FIG..U.N.-fish- "I caught one" whoopty FREAKING DOO!		Not 
really all that bad
										No need for all that laytex
									you can do it without assistance
								No really your not all that much better
							infact your slightly worse but I can't love myself ya know
what are you saying..are you saying what I think your saying
		if so why not thats what I allways say

		Put that down
		your scarred
		your not mann enought
		oh big man
		big man
		man
		!
(distress{three lay dead[four mortally wounded]Ill be alright 
though}this is not good at all)


		SCA-SCA-SCASCASCA-SCASCATUON-dope..phart
						   ronea
						   etdal
						   t  ll
          					   t  y
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				Postal
			Postal
Postal..  .. .. .. .. .. ..   ..  .. ..APE

Your friend came by today
		She didn't "talk" but she did have something to say
"do you like my friend peggy?"
		oh baby all the way!

  the question struck me funny
	Oh I did see it coming
  what else would you be doing here?
	Oh thats right you gotta wax your flagg
  no account for your friendly>ness

			hmmmmmm....  Makes one wonder
			somehow...   Made me wanna cry
			


					-Wellness compi- Ive got credit in many dept.
					 oh...the captain? of a...football team?
					 I can see throught thiss like a DREAM!

 sophisticated...MaBy?
 interelated.....HoBy?
 Polyphony.......Multirhthms? now were talking melody

				     Makes one wonder

well well well mister aphection! gottit baby ACHTUNG@!
 slice me decore me salad toss me what is it you cant see, what is it 
that you will not..

			no matter Im gay for now ask me later Ill be Dr. Funny:-)

     lycara..oh you missed a red velvet thong to nock your socks off!!
						she got smooth smmooootthh skin yo!
		you she's puttin on a show for some slugger tonite you can bet

		COuntry shindig..good ole country shindig like grand(..) used to make

				     Makes one wonder

Im healthy Im shaking Im a mover baby! Im a Mover! Im a shaker! Im 
dead! Im not really dead Im!

				you are!~?!

~~~~~~~~~~like these~~~~~~~~


		Hopless as a cherry pie__unt mine plate

				     Wonder what?


	Gotta go

I a little potatoe
 I flounder about at picnics as such
  yes as I realize my own sence is unsatisfactory to most
   do I look like the type that would care? well do I? hmmm?
    Im not like you but I wish I was I wish I was ?????????!
     do I look like I care to the unseeming I that I am what
      to the untrained I eye I am invinceable! utterly and forever
       I wont..
	I wont conform

        Take my hand, but cut it off at the seem

	I lost all your money, the money that you stole	

	let me go past the dream maker dont take that away from me

	the best the best the best in town

	dont lose controll just fix it, fix me, fix what your breaking

	you could never be what I have become


IM NOTHING SAVE IT BE SOMETHING ELSE THAT MAKES IT REAL

I SIT WITH ANCENT OTHERS IN THIS SOUP OF MASHED CORN-LIKE MINERAL 
forever.....> comfortableness but so much nullness...> those Im with relate 
there lifes lived eternities ago, with solem countenences the account 
there stricken past no emotion to drive you simple contentness in this 
eternal place of rest yet no need to lay your head down it would be nice 
if there was more to do but there is no need to chance......> hell.....

benith china town lay's the ultimate. exploration. intulectual 
anything. fEAR if thats your thing. And unconciquenced pleasure. for just the 
right amount of time. all free of charge.  taken there in three paralell 
trains. the big headed reahlm masters are well thought out and have it 
all worked out. anything you could want. many know of it yet few ever 
feel like going untill th're there. never crowded always fun!!

	the limit pushed a million times means nothing anymore
	
	its sad about this short road

	for me a pleasent field trip with things yet to explore
	
	for you it's just a silly game, a trifle and a bore

	i wish i could give you something that no one ever has

	but its been done befour

	its been done befour

	everything has already been done befour

		no experience is fun without the fun to share

			the only one im going with dosn't even care

	Good night.. that is to say oh well

	i am sophisticated and tired when all i have is nothing that i want

	John said that earl wasn't coming to flood or fix the basement

why cant you be nice to the one you loved befour?

guided by missconception and discruntled by pleasent fumes i find 
myself lonley

deeply i fear whats dead ahead
crying out i hear nothing but my own voice sharing headaches with the 
silent ones

im so frustrated i fear nothing
led to the point wear all could be lost i look over that edge in 
curious terror breathless

chains jingle benieth her while she whispers faint replys to the only 
thing she loves out loud

the ones who wonder nightly quiet churches have in them the infinite 
cascades of heavenly confinement without one word speaking

once again i manage to sleep.. alone


    -Joey

    the blackness of my destiny fills my every action with a plastic 
glory
    i sit alone in filth while flies inject my gangrenous wounds with 
maggots
    speechlessly i peel onions just to sting my eyes with its pungent 
vapor
    little seeing, barley feeling i stretch my aching muscles toward 
the sun
    
        never belittle me
        dont tunnel though me
        ive seen enough profanity
        why should i help myself to more?
        ask me how i knew the things you said were true
        tell me all my secrets. you read my like a book missing pages
        i am without words this hour and i feed on your smiles that are 
rare as free food from my best friend

rare as in not always but sometimes, hardly countable or worth 
statistics

	lucid and pure i drift through her mind
	i wonder how shes doing
	i wonder if i should

	filling up these silly gaps with putty
	im sicker that you think
	im taller than your sink
	im driking what you drink
	let it go
	let us go
	let us fill the sky with catastrophic vegatables

whisper me your time away

    touch me

        cover me with tears

            hold by this a memory

                and always remember me

                    ask me, tell me, hear me

                        listen to the earth breathe

                            press your head againced my heart beat

                                 hold me forever, and once again its 
said

                                 "be still and be mine always"           

                                  ill manage by and by. my last breath 
i give to you

sitting quietly destroying myself
im so lonely im sick to death

a grey car passing wayward
	I am helpless and i cant see
the people hear arn't friendly
	no not at all

		i wish i was free to explore you
		i wish you knew how much you need me
		I need to touch your face a last time
		but first perhaps a first time
		
i could never doubt you never never would i doubt you

			Pulling
			Storms*
			Excite% 
			**ME***

		every day
		lean its weight apon me		
			 It wont fear me It holds not back rejection
			    Harsh     Harsh       Rejection

	Clever you; how fantastic to see you here under the stress you often 
have
		    fluresh in the wind you might be something you have had in past 
lifes
			I apologize for being so... so the way i am

			I complain because i dont know what to do..

			Yes I turned out just a bad egg............
	
			The kind arn't good at all.................

			I'll always be the whyner......nothing more

			
			Good to give up now..so Iwont drag you down



	so I have beneith my chin what bothers young "agers" well what ever\/

what ever pop culture decides.....trendy and well bread we uncooth the 
dusty happits of the meloncoly rapists

happy doing what we doing we're fill what we're fillin cuz its easy to 
be filling in the drive in if your now

what we said you would be now

			DRIVER8 misconceptions filter me

			they breed more of me and then I
			
			 As i said befour strangle her

				  sorry dear 

good nicht

in the summer
of this year
things were different

never as befour

	I brush myself with greatness
	I am someone to become now
	I feel it... strongly
	But should I Lose my life today
	should I never see my wisdom bloom
	Then please mourn for what you could have had
	People don't always know, what th'er potencial is

	together they hit it at 17
	lonley I slug about at 18
	I failed
	I lost out
	where has my time gone?
	I die at baldness
	does that mean I'm half dead?
	I win when people listen
	am I worth the're time?
	
	can you hear me?
	I strum wild on my guitar
	can you hear it?
	I sing notes that make me reasured
	can't you listen?
	I feel the start of something great
	can I finish?
	I perform for every one
	listen
	I'm in the grocery store
	i could be greatness
	Im hear you could have a peice of me
	you may love my every word someday
	i could reach out to you
	I could be your fantasy
	I could be your hero
	you may want to be me
	Im just not under hot steamy lights
	but now im hear for you to touch
	and when you have to share is when you'l want me back
	you could be another lonely fan
	people pushing you away not knowing your my biggest fan
	how you wish you could just get to know me.. when its to late

	why arn't you greatfull
	Im just a failure
	your's to have to eMail to Instant message
	I'm one in a billion
	not seen but by you
	Im a failure
	yours to love
	why dont you love me
	Im a failure

	close 
	closer please
	i want to touch your lips
	you tease me with your smile
	you give it to every one
	but when you give it to me
	its as if your myne
	that priceless smile no one deserves
	i can never 
	i could never
	never
	ever have

	you tease me
	just let me have you
	could i just look into your eyes
	I could see what you want the world to see
	but few know how to look
	I would see thing few would look for
	you could never understand what that could mean for you
	you wouldnt look for it in me

	your mind
	the criminal side
	your mind the many
	where the masses hide
	there's a warm glow of confusion here
	warm because the bindness is home
	it wraps them and keeps them still
	they face the warmth afraid to turn
	the lie, the protection, 
	covering the nakedness
	they fear 
	something
	but they are safe here
	the noise so defening
	the glow so bright
	the're blind and dumb here
	cant see a thing here
	
	where did you come from?
	Im glad your here
	where did you come from?
	what kept you whole?
	Im glad your here

	a deeper people
	can speak
	you will listen
	if only
	you'd do something

i need a break
get away from me
leave me
just go away 
dont touch me
dont even come near me
dont make noise around me
dont call me stupid names
let me do my thing
i have too

break apart what once was great
beautyful and full of peace
larry said he's going all to peices
but the foods near by
ive got change enough to buy
not far now
drug free poetry 
like sugar free fruit
i want it all to go away

ive gots this situatiaon
not sure how to fly
 the best inturpertation of my will
i feel alone and over crowded
peoples painted faces look almost like the walls
i want them all to go away

in the distance i see a flag burning
far off like a distant paddle boat dwarfed by an age-ed tall ship
not sure who it is the passenger could be dead!
oh be a beauty! let me save someone worth to me to save

sure thing
ok sounds good to me
i think i want this now
im glad we both can see

sure thing
permission granted
finders keepers
ok good ill try it

no no ok
uh.. just forget it its over never mind
im used to it.. this being used
its over i suppose
oh well i got my hopes up
what about hope anyways?
why do i hope all things
dont get your hopes up
perhaps i know why
i know nothing at all
if i cant see what makes the flower seem so pretty
then with short season die
and leave no seed for the earth to hide

Such a beautiful day
such music that breeds four dimensions

filled so deeply
the sky is so clear
the sky is the greatest celebrity of all.
Changing its face
every time you look

I look into my past
a few months gone
this music takes me back twelve years before I was born

It fills me

this place is filled
with people searching… for me
perhaps?

Not so if I could be so sure
I could reach you

I’m going away for a time
your already gone
we will make the best

positively  I know where I want this to go
let us go so our loneliness is satisfied

dainty dainty little cars
skimming the crackly streets
where did I go wrong?
Where did I go wrong?

Slipply green little creatures
spinning in the heads of boggley scientologists 
famous as can be
famous as can be

choking on a grissley piece of meat
wheezing on my cheeky wind pipe
is this not enough?
has it been said to much?
enough enough enough

hello my angel
who's light springs from 
the deepest moutain spring
whos substance is as old as the earth
and who's purity whipes clean the thoughts
of those who gaze and dont look past

dont turn bright angel
your gaze is far to short

grace me again with those deep forest eyes
those rythmic thighs
and lips that whisper my anthum

let my body drip through your fingers
like a symphony of bio chemistry

let me breed your smiles into laughter
and laughter into joy
like the toys of heavenly creatures

create with me thunder
that thunder into light
that science into alchemy
let it flair up inside me
and utterly consume me
into your arms release me

I'm waiting once again...