Cassidy laughed and splashed her sister, careful not to get
salt water in her eyes.
Cassidy tossed a long piece of seaweed at
“Eww!!! Gross!” eight-year old
Cassidy grinned.
“*I’m* not afraid of the seaweed!”
“It’s icky and slimy….it could be alive!”
“It’s a plant, you silly!”
“So?”
“It’s not going to bite you!” Cassidy glanced toward the blanket to make
sure Mommy stayed away and gasped.
“What is it, Cassidy?”
“They left us!” She
shrieked.
“Where’d they go?”
“I don’t know… it’s like in that book where the parents
leave their kids and they leave breadcrumbs to find their way home,” Cassidy
said. “Except we don’t have breadcrumbs,
and I don’t *want* to go home,” she admitted.
“Hansel and Gretel?”
Cassidy almost said she’d probably get locked away in the
cellar again, but thought better of it.
“It’s okay… we didn’t drive very far.
It was only a couple minutes. We
can walk home if we have to…”
“But it’s a lot farer away when we walk! And we don’t know where
to go!”
“Yes we do. I
do. Daddy’s friend lives near here, he
brought me one time and forgot me there.
She gave me a ride home and I watched.”
“Can she give us a ride home now?”
“Maybe. But I bet
she’ll let us stay if she can’t. Come
on.” Cassidy took her sister’s hand and
led the way. Sure enough, she was able
to find the house and she climbed the porch and knocked on the door.
Cassidy looked at her feet, trying to look pitiful. “Daddy forgot us again,” she explained.
Cassidy turned around.
“
“Come on, she’s nice,
“I got chocolate chip.
C’mon in, girls.”
Cassidy led her into the house.
“See? It’s okay,”
Cassidy assured her sister, handing her a spoon.
“But…”
“We’ll be home soon,” Cassidy promised.
The two clambered into the car.
“Where the hell were the two of you? And who was that?”
“You and Daddy left us,” Cassidy said as bravely as she
could manage. “Daddy’s friend brought us
home.”
“Gonna be a little smart mouth about it?”
“Sometimes,” Cassidy said quietly.
“Why you little….get in the cellar.”
“No, ma’am.”
“Mommy…don’t hurt her…she was just trying to get us
home. And the whore lady was nice, she gave
us ice cream.”
“
Cassidy rapped on the door.
“Let me out!”
“We had to get home!”
Cassidy cried out. “But I wish we
hadn’t!”
“Because you don’t want us!”
Cassidy yelled back.
“Don’t want *you.*”
“I hate you!” Cassidy
screamed, running for the stairs.
“You don’t deserve to have
Cassidy, however, didn’t seem to be reacting at all.
After
Cassidy glanced at her reflection in a puddle on the cement
floor.
Cassidy just nodded, still staring at her reflection.
“Cassidy?”
“Don’t worry about it.
You better go on up before she gets back. Lock the door behind you.”
“She didn’t lock the door.
Come upstairs.”
Cassidy shrugged.
“She’ll hit me some more if I’m up there when she gets back. Go on.
Go up.”
“No.”
“Go on!” Cassidy said
sharply.
“You bet I can. I’ll
tell Daddy.”
“Cassidy, please, don’t.”
“Go upstairs, then.”
“Only if you come with me.”
“Mommy’ll be mad at you too if you’re here when she gets
back. Go! Go away!”
“What’re you doing up?”
He wobbled slightly as he took off his shoes.
“Go on upstairs, then.
Where’s your sister?”
“Downstairs. Mommy
cut her hair because she brought me to the whorehouse.”
Cassidy took her sister’s hand and led her up the stairs to
their room.
“Cause she doesn’t want me.
And I don’t like her either. Go
on to sleep.”
“You can’t tell me what to do.”
Cassidy shrugged. A
second car door had slammed outside, and she knew what that meant.
“I said,” a voice said from behind her, and there stood
“If it had been up to me, she wouldn’t have been born at
all!”
“Well she was, so tough shit.”
“What the hell do you care anyway?”
“She’s my kid.”
“Get the fuck away from me! What do you think you’re doing?”
“I’m not the same little girl I was when you raped me the
first time, you must be insane if you think I’m going to let you do that to me
again.”
“If you’d *let* me, we wouldn’t *have* this problem.”
“Leave me alone.”
“No… no, I don’t think so.”
“Well, you got the fuck part right.”
~*~*~
“You’re home early.”
Surprisingly,
“Yeah, well…I found something pretty disturbing out today,
and it repulsed me so much that I got sick and had to leave early.”
“Oh? That’s
good.” He didn’t seem to be paying
attention.
“Yeah. Once again I
have your disgusting chromosomes in my body.”
“Well good for you.”
He walked off, trying to find his daughter.
“I’m pregnant, you asshole.”
“I got the message.
Thanks.”
“Well, you know, you usually don’t understand anything when
you’re sober.”
“Get lost, would you?”
“What’s in the bag?”
“None of your damn business, it’s not for you.” He headed upstairs to the girls’ room.
Cassidy looked up, surprised. Someone had remembered? Someone had actually remembered, and cared
enough to give her something. Unthinkingly,
for a moment just glad to be ten, she got up and gave him a quick hug before
backing away a few steps. “Thank you,
Daddy.”
Cassidy opened it slowly, wanting the moment to last, and
pulled out a teddy bear. “Daddy, thank
you.” She’d never gotten anything for
her birthday except a yearly round of not-very-nice birthday punches from her
mother.
“You’re welcome, Cassidy.”
“Here,
Cassidy just barely restrained a whimper.
~*~*~
Cassidy sat on the edge of her sister’s bed. “Are you awake yet?”
“No.”
Cassidy grinned and tugged the blankets off her sister. “Happy Birthday.”
“No! Don’t say that.
It’s not happy.”
Cassidy sighed and handed her a box wrapped in paper. “Fine, guess you don’t want this…”
“A present. Go on,
open it.”
“Why?”
“Cause it’s your birthday, stupid!”
“I’m not stupid.”
“It’s yours now,” Cassidy said, watching her sister lift the
teddy bear from the box.
“But why?”
“Cause you need it more,” Cassidy said simply.
“Welcome, Gracey.
Happy Birthday.”
“Yeah,” Cassidy admitted.
“But I’m giving it to you anyway.”
“Thank you.”
“Welcome. Come on, we
better get dressed before Mom comes up here.”
“Hey, I bet there’s Cheerios,” Cassidy said as she pulled on
her second shoe.
“Maybe with strawberries?”
“Maybe. Daddy sure
didn’t eat ‘em and Mom didn’t come in last night. I listened.”
Cassidy came downstairs a moment later to grab bowls and
spoons.
“Maybe they already left.”
Cassidy looked out the window. “No cars.
Guess they might have.”
“Good.”
“Okay… bring the Cheerios, we can eat ‘em on the way.”
Cassidy picked up her own backpack and the two set off.
~*~*~