"Throught the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone,
In a world that she can't rise above
but her dreams give her wings
as she flys to a place
where she is loved
Concrete Angel"
Hi, I am Monica, or Moni, and this is my little Part of the Web I am still not real good at all this computer thing, but decided to try.. and update this page, so here goes I hope you enjoy it.
First a little about me,..I am a 27 (Hey That Is my Story and I am sticking to it)Year old Pre-op Transexual, 36b 28 34, stilI do not live full time but hope to one day I have been transistioning seriously for about 3 years, and since that time I have discovered so much more about me Some of the things I find I like others i do not but I suppost that is all part of the growing period.I am married... to a wonderful woman, have been for almost 9 years now, she is very supportive of me and my future as Monica...If want to know more .....ask.
I was born in 196something in Gallup, New Mexico with no idea of what the Good Lord had instore for me., After stops in La, Tx Colo, Az, Nev, and Cal, I am now back in Farmington NM. I am of hispanic and Itilian decent ( no wonder I love to cook have a big butt... and that I am a jealous Lover ..
The Little quote above is from Martina McBrides' song Concrete Angel. I picked it Because It say all about me, that no matter what comes My way, I have my dreams.... always,... and with my dreams I can fly I can accomplish anything, without fear of ridcule or jugement Most people do not see me as a real woman, but I am in fact, as much a woman as any other Gentic female.You see ,to most we are nothing more than a one night stand in some motel room, or a crazy fantasy fulfillment, maybe even just a fling to try something new, were needed but not wanted, not someone to love in the light of day or be proud of, even thought we are just people..people not meant to be loved for who or what we are.Yes in all my hard work to be a real woman ..one thing that I will never find is acceptance but in my dreams l can fly high above it all,I can find the acceptance and ......the Love I deserve
Now on being a woman, I have learned so many of the things that a woman goes thur daily, but truely know that I will never be able to experience all of what a women feels, and alot of what they go thru. But some of the things I have learned is that a woman is more than dressing up and makeup, it is attitude,it is compassion,tenderness,and being strong against all adversity.It is the beauty of helping those you love and those you just met, it is the comfort you feel wrapping up with a good book, or lying in the arms of the one you love.But it is also heartbreak, and that part is what truely let you know, that being a woman is so much more than what we ever imiagined it could be.
Now as I go through so many more changes in my life, I look back and say was it all worth what I have given up, family, job, friends,home? Well that question will be answered many years down the road I am sure, but for now no regets and no way I am looking back.So to all you young ones out there that think that they want to change in and just start hitting the hormones, believe me it is no picnic, the mood swings the tenderness in your body and the damn emotional issues is enough to scare any woman and would just about drive a most men crazy, not to mention the risk you take by takeing them, you really better know your body if your going on without a doctors care, it almost cost me my life,but I am still here which is only by the Grace of God. So again be careful what you wish for, you may get it, and when you do I Pray you are ready.
Now the lack of Testaterone has made me more passive and understanding...(all men need more estrogen..lol) One of the things that I have truely found enjoy able is looking at the male of the species thur these eyes.I never noticed how they truely are such dogs, Guys you do not win a womans heart or attention for that matter with the vulgar and disguesting ways that I have seen you approach with, belive it or not just because we are in a chat room or online dose not mean were "whoes"... so try a little respect .Now I do love men that are polite and sweet that do not ask what I am wearing, what it is I want in sex, a man with class wins my heart everytime....But that is all they can win sorry guys stricky women for me.
I thank you all for takeing time to read about me and looking at my site..if you would like to know more about me or just want to talk email me ...monica87301@yahoo.com... So until then all of Gods blessings and Love, and a big Latina Angel....Kiss ...........MONI
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