with a HATRED in my soul.... that no man has ever known to exist.... i tell you now.... I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU!!!!!! with words of love you tell me that i matter.... with words of love you tell me that you care.... and with those same words hides betrayal..... you did not mean any of them...... not a word..... not a one.....

you see me in tears.... you think i am weak... you think you have destroyed me.... and for a moment or two in time.... that is the state of the universe....

but in time...... i will become cold inside..... i will become as you created me.... bitter..... hateful.... full of revenge..... and my soul so very dead.....

you thought you had won.... but all you have done is taken that which flowed in my veins.... my most precious blood.... and replaced it with the poison that exists in you...... and now..... now i have become something you NEVER EVER expected....

i have become your worst enemy..... i have become worse than you..... stronger than you.... more powerful.... i have learned your tactics.... your slyness.... your treachery.....

but i am calm..... so very calm..... a black calmness overcomes me..... an evil calmness..... from the depths of HELL comes my power and strengh... from the depths of HELL comes my focus.... my direction......

what am i going to do???? that remains to be seen....... what i do know..... i would fear for your life if i were you......

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