Chapter 6


When I got to my office at Jacks I was still thinking about my ''visit'' with Dominique. She was right of course, everything would be okay.

But there was still something eating away at me and I could not pin point the exact problem. So I called Gail and asked if she had an opening for the afternoon. She did and I took it. I thanked her and hung up.

''Don't worry sweet baby, Gail will help sort this mess out. She helped me help your daddy when he was going through a tough time. She knows what to do.'' I told my unborn child with a smile.''Because if she doesn't then no one probably will. Except your daddy but he cannot know about you yet. It is too soon. The stress from telling him and his reaction might cause me to loose you. I cannot risk it. I have waited long enough for you to come into my life. I won't loose you now!''

That afternoon I was about to go into Gail's office but who should walk right into me but Kevin. I smiled nervously. I did not need this right now.

''Hey D--Kevin.''

''Hi Lucy. How are you doing?'' he asked in the most pathetic voice I had ever heard.

''I am good.'' I said then said the one thing that I should not have said.''I miss you Doc.''

''Who's choice was that Lucy?'' he said and walked away.

Suddenly I felt weak and knocked on Gail's door. She opened the door and I made a beeline for the couch. I was about to pass out.

''Lucy?'' Gail said.''What has happened? You sounded fine on the phone.''

''I ran into Kevin.'' I said.''But the one thing that helped us through that thing with Grace is not there anymore. Our love has changed and gotten weaker.''


Chapter 7


I was really thrown for a loop when I saw Doc out in the hall. He was the last person I expected to see at GH. But then in PC do people go anywhere else? Think about that! :-)

Gail could tell that I was upset and she tried her hardest to calm me down but I need to have a good temper-tantrum. Man did this one feel good.

Once I was ready and calm, I looked at Gail with eyes that were saddened and confused.

''Lucy, what happened between you and Kevin in the hall just now?''

''What didn't happen should be your question.'' I said with a thin smile so she would know I still had my sense of humor, such as it was at that time.

Gail smiled. She was relieved, I think that I hadn't lost one of my only weapons.

My humor is one of my greatest weapons in tough times. But not any less inspiring is my sensuality and my charm.

Felicia told me one time that Kevin once told her that ''Brains do not have anything to do with the appeal of that woman.''

Meaning me!! Gosh I miss the old days.

''Lucy, why did you want to see me so suddenly?''

''I wanted to let you in on a secret I am holding from Kevin but you cannot tell him or Scott or Rena or anyone about this. You promise.''

''Yes.''

''I am two months pregnant with Kevin's child. Timing's everything huh?'' I said.

As soon as I said the secret about the pregnancy Gail understood why I wanted so desperately to keep it a secret as long as I could anyway, from Kevin. I will tell him but not yet. It is not time to tell.

''Tell me why you want to keep this a secret from Kevin. I think I know your modivation behind it but just to be sure could you tell me, Lucy?'' Gail asked.

Feeling that I could trust her I said,''Because he would think that I was lying. I don't have any proof to back up my claim that I am pregnant. I have no ultrasound picture to prove it. And with my track record of lying the odds are even with the picture or proof he still would not believe me.''

''Lucy I wonder when Kevin lied to you about what was wrong with him when he was dealing with Grace's death, what did you do?'' Gail asked.

''I was mad but then after everything was explained to me I forgave him. He was only trying to protect me from what he was fighting. But you know what really bugs me, Gail?''

''What?''

''That when I lied for him, you know about him being stable when he wasn't to save him from jail when he was stalking Felicia?'' I said.''He didn't mind when I lied then. But when I lie to protect our relationship and save face and so I don't have to admit what I had done because I was too ashamed to admit it, he breaks things off.''


Chapter 8


"That when I lied for him, you know about him being stable when he wasn't to save him from jail when he was stalking Felicia?'' I said.''He didn't mind when I lied then. But when I lie to protect our relationship and save face and so I don't have to admit what I had done because I was too ashamed to admit it, he breaks things off.''

''So you think that he will think that the pregnancy is a sham to get him back? Why would you think that Lucy?'' Gail asked.

''I think because he knows I did it before. When I was married to Alan Quartermaine. I let him believe I was pregnant with a Quartermaine heir but I was not pregnant. Then I arranged to make love to someone in order to concieve. That person was replaced at the last minute by Scotty only I did not know it was him because he used a different name.'' I said ashamed.''I believe Kevin feels that if I did it before I could do it again. and that is not true.''

''I know Lucy.''

''It is almost as if he is afraid of the Lucy that once was. That Lucy is gone. This is the real Lucy. Vunerable and insecure. I used to do all those things to people to make myself feel better.'' I said.

''Did it work?''

''No. I always felt crummy after wards. I know I put on the persona that I was glad things happened that way but I know that I hurt alot of people. Is there a way to prevent that old Lucy from coming back into view?''

''Yes Lucy be true to yourself and have faith in God and trust that he will never mislead you and that He loves you.'' Gail began.

''Even after all the bad stuff I did, and what I did to Serena.'' I asked.

''Yes. Lucy he loves you unconditionally.''

''Thanks Gail. I feel better. I am going to ask God what he would do in this situation--er--I mean what he wants me to do in this situation. Same time next week?'' I asked.

''See you then Lucy.''

''Bye!'' I said.

Later that night I was on the brink of sleep and I said my first real prayer of my adult life...

''Lord? It's me Lucy Coe. I was wondering if you could tell me what direction I should go. I am confused as to weather or not to tell Doc about the baby growing inside me. Could you give me a sign or something.''

I was interrupted by the doorbell and went to answer it. I looked through the peephole and when I saw it was Doc I said...

''Boy you work fast! Thanks!''


Chapter 9


When I answered the door I was surprised to see Doc standing there. I wondered what he wanted since it was apparent to me that he did not want to have anything to do with me after the accident.

''Doc, hi!'' I said in a cheerful voice.''I was just thinking about you.''

''Hi, Lucy.'' Doc said.''I was thinking about you too.''

''Come in. I have to tell you something important and you might not believe it at first but, I am 2 months pregnant with your baby Doc. If you don't believe me ask Dr. Neumann she knows.''

''I believe you Lucy. To be honest I was thinking about the way I treated you at GH earlier. I was out of line and did not mean for it to come out as harsh as it did. I was just flustered over the whole situation. I did not mean to hurt you.'' Doc said.

''Well, bub you did! And I really don't need this right now can you come back later. I was in the middle of something important.''

''Okay. Fine, Lucy. But remember you were the one to push me away this time. You cannot put this on me.''

After he left. I cried. He did not believe me. He said he did but I know the look in his eye when he told me he believed me. Was there going to be a reunion of me and Doc? At that point I was not entirely sure.


Chapter 10


After he left I cried. He did not believe me. Kevin said he did but his eyes told me differently.

I then called Victor at the Lighthouse to see if he sent Kevin over to see how I was doing. Victor would do that.

''Hello?''

''Victor. It's Lucy.''

''Hey Lucy. How you doing?''

''Good. Hey I just was wondering, did you send Kevin over here to see how I was doing?''

''Why would you ask that of me Lucy you know I would never do that.''

I had to smile at this.''Yes, my dear Victor you would do that! You have done it before and you will do it again.''

''Alright. Alright I did send him over but I told him that when I ran into you earlier that you had something you needed to ask him. He bought it.'' Victor said.''So how'd it go?''

''I told him about our unborn baby. He claims he believes me but I could tell in his eyes that he didn't. Oh Victor, what am I going to do?''

''Try again. Lucy you cannot give up on this.''

''I won't''

''Talk to you soon.''

''Okay. Ta.'' I said and hung up.

After that I laid down and thought about our baby and what it would be like. Would it have Doc's eyes? Would it look like me or him? I must have fallen asleep during that time because I was awakened by a strange noise coming from outside my door of the hotel. I went to the door of my room and slowly opened the door and what and who I saw surpised me...

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