Chapter 5


Lucy laid still in the hospital bed still not sure what to do about Damien. The only thing that she did know for sure was that Kevin couldn't find out. She was still trying to work things out in her head when Kevin walked in.

''Hello love how are you feeling?'' Kevin asked walking in kissing Lucy's forehead.

''Good...I guess...'' Lucy answered trying not to make direct eye contact with him.

''You dont sound to too good Lucy is something wrong?''

''I'm fine it's just that...'' Lucy stopped mid-sentence remember her decision Kevin couldnt know about Damien yet.

''It's just what?'' Kevin asked curiously

''It's just that.... I'm worried about how Scott's handling us being back together....'' Lucy lied.

''Oh I see'' Kevin sighed ''Listen to me I know me and Scott havent been on the best terms lately and that we can both overreact sometimes but in all honesty I know it's just because Scott cares for you and is afraid of seeing you hurt you know he would do anything to protect you but sometimes he oversteps his boundaries but I truly believe that he loves you and would do anything not to see your heart get trampled on again''

Lucy smiled ''I love Scott too and trust me Kevin Ive overstepped quite a few boundaries myself to make sure he doesnt get hurt...'' Lucy finished with a sigh ''...but I guess you cant regulate who someone loves no matter how much theyre bound to get hurt Its really not fair. That your heart just falls so madly and wildly in love but then there's always someone or something trying to tear you apart and you make one mistake and you could loose it all...''

Kevin watched as Lucy's eyes diverted watching her hold back some tears ''I guess were not talking about Scott anymore, huh?''

Lucy didnt need to say a thing Kevin already knew the answer.

''Listen to me Lucy we both have been through a lot in our relationship but somehow we keep finding our way back to each other call it fate or whatever you want sometimes we hurt each other but being together just makes all that pain disappear we have to believe in that or else were going to waste our whole lives waiting for someone lurking behind a corner to sneek up and tear us apart again and frankly Lucy I don't want to spend the rest of my life with you like that but if you cant get past that then....'' Kevin couldn't finish he watched Lucy's eyes well up with tears ''... then maybe we shouldn't be doing this''

Lucy took a deep breath ''I dont know if I can... you want me not to worry about something tearing us apart when its happened so many times before? Think about it Doc every time we even get close to living a perfectly normal life together I have to go foul it up''

''No Lucy you dont...''

Lucy tried not to cry as she explained but it showed up in her voice ''Dont even tell me that I dont Doc because we both know its a lie! Think about it every time I have to go do something stupid and mess everything up...'' Lucy continued as Kevin tried to protest ''Lets look to our past relationship shall we? Lets see both of us great start falling madly in love wait.....now wait a second what is that I see oh yeah the bet with Damien...Oh and then there's Frank Smith following right behind... Oh yep then there's you telling me no Lucy dont get messed up in any of it warning me and warning me but do I listen?? No of course not and what happens Doc?? We almost break up and throw it all away... now in hindsight that might have saved us both a lot of trouble, huh?'' Lucy asked.

''Listen Lucy that wasnt your fault and we didnt....'' Kevin tried to say but Lucy broke him off.

''Oh no Doc Im not even half way done... Let me think what was next....how did I screw up after all of that.... THAT'S IT!'' Lucy said snapping her fingers ''MADAME MIA!! I insisted she was for real you know and you tell me not to believe in it she's just trying to use me I say ‘No Doc of course not!!' and you warn me and warn me not to put my heart on the line and what do I do?? I risk my heart and us once again and what do you know Madame Mia is a phony and if it wasnt for you I couldve gotten in even more trouble..'' Lucy said not being able to hold the tears anymore as they poured down her face.

''No Lucy please stop this.....'' Kevin begged tears coming to his own eyes.

''Okay fine lets go more present day then...fine.... now what's next were both happy living together everything we wanted mmm.... and what else? Oh yea Doc Im pregnant...'' Lucy started sobbing a bit harder.

''Dont....'' Kevin pleaded.''dont do this to yourself....''

''You know im thrilled I find out I'm carrying your child Im on my way home all excited so of course you know something has to happen then bing, bang, boom looks who's stuck in the General Hospital elevator and then of course you come to save me as always...you get me out alive and help me fight to find Serena... you know and you tell me to calm down and not to work myself like that that its not good for the baby but as usual I mess it all up you know I dont even listen..'' Lucy was crying uncontrollably but still continued ''...and i guess we both know what happened after that you know there I am I lost your baby and by all means you should hate me but there you are telling me how much you love me and how's its going to be alright...''

''LUCY STOP IT!! THAT WAS NOT YOUR FAULT!! It wasnt your fault'' Kevin screamed at first through tears.

Lucy paused for a second Kevin had been grasping onto her arms begging her not to go on she looked into his eyes ''... I guess i never really said thank you for that Doc...for any of it....I never really said Im sorry either..but I am Ive just been carrying it all around bottled up inside me I wanted to let it all go scream it out how sorry I am...how I dont deserve you...'' Lucy cried.

''NO!! Lucy it's me that doesnt deserve you...'' Kevin said as Lucy tried to interrupt ''NO LUCY!! Dont talk...you said your part now its time for me to say mine'' Kevin sighed wiping the tears from Lucy's face coming up onto the small hospital bed with her cradling her shaking body in his arms. ''Listen to me not once did I blame you for any of that... not once second in my entire life did I ever wish things had went differently... you know I never really believed in fate before I met you but you Lucy Coe are my destiny I feel it in the blood pumping through my veins, the beating in my heart, in every fiber of my soul I feel you there. Without you I have no reason to be here on this earth you are what allows me to live my life without you in my world life would simply cease to exist. You talk about all the bad things in our relationship but what about all the good things weve done for each other? Youve seen the darkest places in my soul and pulled me out just because you didnt want to watch me hurting... Thats why we survive through all this not because you mess up and I save you but because we love each other so much that our love save us. US Lucy. The both of US and theres nothing you can tell me that can make me think otherwise because you are my life my soul and my heart'' Kevin finished tears falling down his cheeks. Lucy was crying harder as she turned around kissing Kevin.

Pulling away Lucy cried harder making her decision she had to tell Kevin about Damien.

''What is it Lucy''

''Can I tell you something?''

''Anything'' Kevin answered concerned giving Lucy's hand a tight squeeze.

''Damien Smith is alive'' Lucy answered solemnly

''WHAT?!?!'' Kevin asked startled.

''Damien Smith is alive he didnt die in the Ward house fire and he's back in Port Charles.'' Lucy said holding on to Kevin's neck ''Im so sorry i lied to you please say something Doc'' Lucy pleaded as Kevin sat there in a stunned silence

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