Chapter 32


By the time Victor and Mary got to the lighthouse, Kevin was back.

"How is she?" Kevin approached them.

"As well as can be expected. She’s trying to get on with her life." Scooping Sigmund into his arms, Victor started towards the door.

"Wait! Victor, where is she?"

Victor studied him for a moment before replying. "She found a place to stay, and she’s okay. That doesn’t mean she’s ready to face you. I don’t mean to make it sound like she’s angry. She’s not. At least not with you. But when she’s ready for you to know where she is, she’ll let you know."

After they left, Kevin looked at Eve. "And the movers wouldn’t tell you where they were taking her things?"

"Kevin, for the last time, she told them not to tell me. It’s obvious to me she doesn’t want to see you. Why isn’t it obvious to you?"

Eve could see how much that remark stung, but it was the truth. She wasn’t too thrilled about how much that fact bothered Kevin.


Chapter 33


A few days later, Lucy decided it was time to tell Scott what was going on. She was shaking by the time she reached the firehouse. Deliberately going while Serena was at school was not what she wanted to do, but the scene that she was sure was going to take place would not be good for her.

When Scott opened the door, he started to close it again.

"Scott, wait. Please."

"Why? What more could we possibly have to say to each other?"

"We’ve been friends for too many years to let it end like this."

Stepping in the door, she made sure he couldn’t shut it.

"I really don’t want to see you right now."

"Too b ad, Pal. I have a few things I need to tell you." Tears came, and she shrugged. "Actually, you’ll probably figure I got what I deserved."

Scott had seen her cry before. It didn’t phase him any more. "I really don’t want to hear that Kevin changed his mind again."

"He didn’t. To be honest, he didn’t change his mind in the first place."

Scott was confused, but still too angry to care. "I don’t want to hear about your love life, Lucy. What I really want is for you to leave."

"Scott, please. Just listen to me."

"I don’t want to. I want you to turn around, and go. I don’t care if it’s to Kevin, or the moon! Just get out of here."

"I want to see Serena."

Shaking his head, Scott pushed her out the door. "That little girl, that you claim you care so much about, has been crying since you left us. You’ve done enough, Lucy. You’ve hurt me before. More than once. I always understood that was just you. But now you’ve hurt Serena. Something I thought you’d never do. And I’m done with you. Get out, Lucy." He slammed the door, and could hear her crying on the other side. Sighing, he went upstairs. He knew that he would have to let Lucy see Serena sooner or later. But let her think about what she’d done.


Chapter 34


Luke wiped the bar down and joined Lucy at a table in the corner. "Is today the day you’re going to finally tell me what’s going on?"

"What?"

"In the last month, you’ve become a regular fixture around here. I get the message that Baldwin is no longer a concern, but why? What happened?"

Lucy had been debating telling him what happened for a couple weeks. But she’d always chickened out. Felicia and Mac had been incredibly supportive, but she still felt like she’d done something incredibly stupid. Victor had been a godsend, he’d come to see her almost everyday. But there was something that she couldn’t tell any of them. Not until she was sure. And she was also afraid of knowing for sure. The queasy feeling that she’d been feeling all day took over. Standing, she ran to the bathroom.

Once she began to get sick, her knees started to shake and she couldn’t get up. After almost 10 minutes, Luke knocked on the door. "Lucy? You alive?"

"Luke! Can you help me?"

Worry stamped on his face, he picked her up and carried her to the office. "Okay. Spill it! What’s going on?"

Crying, she told him the whole story. When she told Luke that it had been Ryan she’d left Scott for, Luke sat next to her and held her hand. "Oh god, babe. Why didn’t you tell me sooner? You’ve been alone all this time?"

Nodding, she leaned back and closed her eyes, willing herself to not get sick again. "I feel so stupid. I believed every word he said! I believed Kevin wanted me back."

Pulling her to him, Luke held her. "Luce, you wanted him back so badly. I knew that, Baldwin knew that. Hell, babe, everyone who knows you knew that."

"Except it wasn’t Kevin. I feel like an idiot for thinking he would want me back."

"We all make mistakes, Luce. Like believing there’s hope when there isn’t. Wanting to believe there’s a chance."

"Why do I get the feeling we’re not just talking about me, here."

"Right now, we’re talking about you. What was that scene in the bathroom all about?"

All it took was the way she looked at him.

He whistled. "No way. You know for sure?"

Shaking her head, she pulled away from him. "No. I’m not sure I want to." Tears came, and she tried to fight them.

"And, if you are...."

"It’s Ryan’s." That was all she could say.

"Come here." Luke pulled her back to him and held her while she cried.

After a few minutes, she started to get control of herself again. Luke looked at her. "The first thing you need to do, is find out for sure. Now."

"I’m scared."

"I know. But you need to know. I mean, if you’re going to have a baby, you need to know. If you’re not sure what you’re going to do-"

"Luke, get real. If I’m pregnant, I’m going to do everything in my power to make sure I have this baby. I’m just not sure what I’m going to do about the father."

"What do you mean? What can you do about him?"

Her eyes met his. "Make damn sure he never finds out. You know what he is, Luke. If he found out I had his baby, what do you think he would do to me? To the baby?"

She shook her head. "I need to find a way to make sure no one ever finds out who the father is."

"How? Like lie about due dates? Come on, Lucy. You’ve been obviously alone for a while. Do you want to invent some mysterious lover and hope everyone buys it? Or find someone else to..."

Her eyes met his for a moment, then she shook her head. "No. I don’t want to drag some poor innocent bystander into this. Do you have any idea how much trouble that man would be in if Ryan found out? What do you think Ryan would do to the man he saw stealing his child? No. I’m not sure what I’m going to do, but getting some innocent man killed isn’t the answer."

Taking her hand, Luke stared at her. "I’m telling you right now, if Ryan gets anywhere near you or the baby, it will be the last mistake he ever makes."

"Luke, I appreciate that. But we’re getting ahead of ourselves. I’m not even sure-"

"Yes, you are. I can tell from looking at you. You’re sure. You just don’t want to be."

"I’m afraid to be."

Sighing, Luke put his arms around her. "Look, I’m not going to raise any more kids, but if all you want is a name to protect yourself and the baby, use mine. Hell, it’s not like anyone would be surprised if we had."

Lucy could barely speak to answer him. "I can’t drag you into this. You have no idea what you’re offering."

"You want child support?"

"No!"

"You want a weekend father?"

"No! That’s the last thing I want."

"So, all you need is someone to blame, and someone who can take care of your ex-shrink’s psycho brother if he makes an appearance. What’s the problem?"

She wasn’t convinced.

"You’ve got time. Think about it. I’m not offering to make an honest woman out of you, or save your spotless reputation."

They both started to laugh.


Chapter 35


Lucy took Luke’s advice. The next day, she called Dr. Newman, and was relieved to find out the doctor had another office on the other side of town. The last place she wanted to go was GH.

This was NOT something she wanted on the grapevine until she decided what she was going to do. Sure enough, she was pregnant. Dr. Newman got her started on all the normal prenatal vitamins and something for the morning sickness. Lucy didn’t offer any information about the father, and getting the hint, Dr. Newman didn’t ask.

The doctor did tell Lucy some things that Lucy was already aware of. Avoiding stress was important, and, given her medical history with pregnancies, she wanted to see Lucy every two weeks.

When she arrived home, she tried to make at least one decision concerning the baby. Telling Victor was going to be the first thing she did. A decision made, she headed upstairs to change her clothes before going to see him.

A knock on the door stopped her.

When she opened it, she was beyond shocked to see Kevin standing there.

"What are you doing here?"

"Can I come in for a minute?"

Without saying anything, she stepped back so he could walk past her.

"It’s been over a month. I’ve been waiting to hear from you. I wanted to know how you are."

Standing a few feet away from him, she stared at him. "Better. How did you find me?"

"Small town. Asked around." The way she was standing a distance from him, and the way she was staring at him told him she wasn’t convinced who he was. That hurt.

"Lucy, how can I convince you I’m Kevin?"

She shrugged. "I’m not sure you can. To be honest, I’m not sure it matters. Good twin, bad twin. You both took your turn at me. Who hurt me worst? One of you may want me dead. The other one sure as hell made me wish I were. You both took my feelings, what was going on in my head, and used it against me. You both hurt me where you both knew I was the most vulnerable."

Lucy knew right then that he was Kevin, and she’d hurt him more than she’d ever thought she was capable. The pain on his face made her realize it. Comparing him to Ryan on that level was absolute worst thing she could do to him. But she didn’t say anything. It was the truth.

When he finally spoke, his voice was strained. "I was worried about you. I didn’t come here to upset you."

"And just what did you think seeing either one of you would do to me?"

At that moment, she wanted him to leave. Because what she really wanted to do was tell him she was pregnant, and that she wished it was his. The only thing that stopped her was the fact that it wouldn’t accomplish anything.

He knew where the attack on him was coming from, but it didn’t stop him from feeling like she was ripping his heart out. The last thing he’d ever wanted was for her to hate him. Much less think he was the same to her as Ryan.

"I guess I’ll go. I’m sorry. I didn’t come here to hurt you."

After his car backed out of the driveway, Lucy sat on the stairs and put her face in her hands. Eventually, she’d have to tell him she was pregnant. But then, he was a bright man sooner or later, he could just figure it out for himself.


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