Does It Matter?

Does it matter that I can't make sense of you.
That I can never figure you out?
Does it matter that I once envied you,
I used to watch you from a distance.
Does it matter that I never stopped caring about you,
Even though I said I had?
Does it matter that when I hold you,
I believe I'm holding someone else?
Does it matter that when you said "I love you,"
I almost started to cry?
Does it matter that when you're not around,
I get a sense of loneliness, and a fear
That I may never be able to see you again?
Does it matter that I think you don't love me?
When you're not with me?
Does it matter that when I hold you
I never want to let go?
Does it matter that just being near you,
Keeps me from being afraid?
Does it matter when you say you'll never leave me,
I never believe you?
Does it matter that I love you?

Written: 070898

Dedicated to: Adam Wayne Koehler