| she thought this was good She sets down her pen and stares at the ground. She knows it's the last time that she will be found. It scares her to think that no one else cares. She knows how to end all the talking and stares. She's dying to have someone burst through that door. And find her before she falls to the floor. But no one is coming to find her this time. She wishes to put her life in rewind. The not that she's written says all her goodbyes. She's reading it through and begining to cry. "I'm sorry, dear Justin, please know I love you. You're the best baby brother that I ever knew. I'm sorry, dear Mother, but you saw all the signs. I couldn't have you taking away what was mine. I'm sorry, dear Daddy, but I'm no little girl. You missed so many chances to see this lady unfurl. I'm sorry, dear Becca, you were truly my best, But I had many things I couldn't get off my chest. I'm sorry, dear Ryan, who I loved most of all, But you were too distant, never returning my calls. And lastly, dear baby, your life was too short, But news of you I could never report. I really want you, but Ryan does not. He's making us lose the battle we've fought. I'm sorry, dear child, but I feel this is right. I'm tucking us in and saying good night. To everyone I have ever loved in my days, Do not be sad for how this all plays." As the last tears fall down to her cheeks, She picked up the pills she's been hiding for weeks. She downed the whole bottle with slightly closed eyes, She felt her whole slef dying inside. She hears voices, but she knows it's too late. She thinks them finding her this time is fate. Her body, so lifeless, is what they do find. So many thought constantly run through their mind. They don't know how they feel or even what they should. So goodbye to this girl, who thought this was good. |
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