| "Im sorry Matt, but it has to be this way." I said starting to cry. I reached down and opened my suitcase. I was at my house starting to pack my bags. Matt, my boyfriend since 8th grade and I graduated college a week ago, and I was leaving to achieve my dreams. Matt on the other hand, was staying in Cameron. "I can't stay in Cameron my whole life. My career is far, far away from here. I'm leaving and not looking back." I said shoving miscellaneous things into a suitcase. Matt just sat on my bed with his head in his hands. He felt not saying anything at all was easier than arguing with her. I looked at him. I knew he was hurting, and I couldn't stand it. I loved this man since I was 12 years old, and I knew since that day that no matter what I would love him forever. I kneeled in front of him. "You could come to New York with me. We could get a place. I can start off singing in bars until I get a contract, and maybe you can find a wrestling school, or an independent company to join." I said picking his chin up. "Cyan, you know I can't leave. This is where my life is. My family. I cant just up and leave my father, or Jeff. They count on me," Matt said as a tear fell from his eye. "I don't know why you can't stay here and just sing in Charlotte or in Fayetteville, until you are discovered. Why New York?" Matt said suddenly yelling, which made me angry. "Ever since my parents died, I have wanted out of this town, I'm not happy here Matt! I wake up and look out the window, and get sick to my stomach, I can't stand the site of it." I yelled back standing up and walking towards the corner of the room. "Its best this way. You have a dream of Wrestling; I have a dream of singing. The difference between us is I'm willing to go for my dream, and you want to sit in this shithole and rot. Well I'm sure as hell not sticking around to see it," I said. I walked over to the door and opened it. I looked and Matt and pointed outside. "I need to finish packing, "Im leaving in 2 hours." I said crying. Matt stood up. "This hurts me more than you will ever know Cyan. If you ever cared about me, cared about us, you wouldn't do this. I love you more than anything on this earth, but if you leave, don't come back, and don't expect me to be waiting for you either." He said hiding his emotions from me. "If that's the way you want it Matt, and if that's the way you think, then fine. It was nice knowing you," I said sucking in my broken heart and acting tough. With that he grabbed his car keys and left, without saying goodbye. I slammed the door and slid down onto the floor crying uncontrollably. |
