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| SOMEONE SOMEWHERE SOON WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU by Enola PART 4 About a week later, you and Shane are at Cindy’s for dinner and the other friends of you are there too. Having eaten you go out through the back door and you sit down on the doorstep. After some minutes you are there, you hear the door open behind you. You turn and see James, “Do you mind if I join you?” he asks you, “Not at all! Sit.” You reply kindly. You know that Shane talked to him, so you aren’t worried at all. He shuts the door and sits next to you, then he takes his fags from his pocket jacket, “Do you mind if I smoke?” “If you can’t help it…but you should give up!” “I know!” he laughs. “So…why don’t you do that?” “Because I like it!” Having put a cigarette between his lips, he lights it and once he has breathed in it, he takes it between his fingers and moves his hand taking care of the fact the smoke doesn’t bother you. You both keep silent while you stare at the sky totally absorbed in its unbelievable beauty. Before you moved to London you often asked yourself if you would have the chance to do it, for the simple fact that you were aware that it’s almost always cloudy there, but it’s not now. The sky is utterly clear, every single star shines intensely, the half-moon lights the sky up slightly so that it seems to succumb in front of their brightness. “Why did you come here?” he asks you a while later, “Look above you!” you reply after a deep sigh, He rises his head and he asks, “Ehm, what or where have I to look at?” “Look at the stars! Look how they shine…” you reply with a smile in your face, “Do you fancy that song?” he smiles back “Yeah, like every song that talks about stars!” You pause for a little while and still staring at the sky you add, “Isn’t it a wonderful sky? Do you manage to imagine it without any stars?” “Ehm, no I don’t!” he replies shaking his head “Neither do I. I adore the stars, I think I could spend ages staring at them.” “Yeah, they are beautiful!” “Y’know, I even wrote a sonnet about the stars in Spanish when I was at university.” “Really? What did it say?” “Mmm, I didn’t remember it quite well, but it was quite stupid…I wrote that the stars are angels’ eyes that watch over us, they know our all secrets and they keep them…then I wrote the stars shine like diamonds…are more precious than pearls…just silly things” you smile, “I don’t think they were silly at all! I don’t manage to write anything in English and you did it in another language!” “Do you think angels exist?” you ask him “Ehm, no!” “So you didn’t either think that aliens exist” “Oh God no!” He laughs, “Don’t tell me you think they exist!!” “I just like thinking that there’s someone up there…sometimes I feel like I came from another planet…and I realise that the others as well think that…I just like thinking that there’s someone up there who can understand me…I feel so alone” you say turning suddenly sad, “But you aren’t! You have a lot of friends who loves you, then the children are mad about you…and y’know, there’s nothing bad in being homosexual…” he says kindly, “Homosexual? Hang on, you think I’m gay?” you reply amazed, “Why? You are not?” he looks at you puzzled, “No, I’m not a lesbian!” you laugh, then you add, “What the hell did Shane tell you?” “Ehm...well, he said that I didn’t have any chances with you, I mean, any chances to have…” he titters for a while, “ehm, I think I don’t need to say it…it’s something quite obvious, so I thought…” “So you thought I were a lesbian!” you cut him off “Yeah, I’m confused now!” “Why did you think I were a lesbian? Why didn’t you think I could be a virgin, for instance?” “Dunno! Maybe ‘cos Shane’s gay, so I thought you were too!” he replies shrugging his shoulders, “Or maybe because you think it’s impossible being still a virgin if you are 25?” “No, it’s not that. It depends on the person…” “Do you think I could be a virgin?” “You? Ehm…I…don’t kn…!” “Yes or no?” you ask cutting him off abruptly looking at him. He looks at you and keeps staring at you for several moments in silence, then he smiles and you understand he’s a bit embarrassed, “You are…” “Yes! Shocked?” “Ehm…no, I’m not shocked…” he replies shaking his head, then looking at you sweetly he goes on, “there’s nothing bad in being a virgin as well…I mean you don’t have to feel like you came from another planet just because you have never slept with a man, you probably have your reasons…and nobody can say if you are doing the right or wrong thing…” “Yes, I have my reasons…and I don’t give a fuck about the other people’s thoughts” “Well said hon!” he smiles, then he puts his arm over your shoulders and adds, “As long as you think it’s the right thing for you, that’s all that matters” “Thank you, the things you said are really nice!” “That’s just what I think!” he smiles, then he kisses your forehead and you stay there for several minutes looking at the stars, looking how they shine for you… PART 5 >>> <<< Enola's stories |