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| STAND BY YOUR MAN by Greeboina PART 1 ”Sometimes it's hard to be a woman Giving all your love to just one man You'll have bad times, and he'll have good times” I was sitting in a pub in London. I sat in the corner with my fifth whiskey and were feeling sorry for myself. And had this aching pain in my heart. I thought I was over with this. We had parted as friends but then why did it hurt so much to see him with somebody else? Why am I feeling so fucking miserable? I should be happy for him. But deep inside I knew why I felt so miserably. ”Doin' things that you don't understand But if you love him, you'll forgive him Even though he's hard to understand” I met James through a competition where you could win a phone call from James at their official site http://www.manics.co.uk/ . I was very nervous as I waited for the call. I had met him once after a gig but there had been many other fans there and I only got his autograph and a little kiss on the cheek. But as the phone rang and we started to talk it all went super. We talked about why and when I became a fan and I ask him about favourite songs and gigs. Then suddenly as I was talking to James, my two ferrets named after Nicky and Richey started to fight. I yelled: “You fucking pop tarts!!! Nicky and Richey, what the hell are you doing?!!”, and had totally forgotten that James could hear it. “Wait a sec”, I said and stopped the two little bastards from ripping my couch apart. As I came back and picked up the phone I could hear James laughing and suddenly I remembered what I had said. I felt very embarrassed but James laughed and told me it was a very funny. When he calmed down a bit he asked me if I wanted to meet him in person and get something to eat with him, I said yes. I found my only dress and found my old high heels under the bed. I did my make up and hair and tried not to be too exited. He was a normal person and I didn’t want to scare him away. But the thought of meeting him in person and spend the evening with him was something which would only happen once in my life time. The cab came to pick me up as James had told me it would. When I were sitting in it, I realised I had no idea of where I was going. But then the cab stopped and I got out of it. I was standing in some posh area and in front of me was a building. But I forgot my uneasiness as a door was opened and James was standing in front of me. “Come on, love. You are at my apartment and dinner is ready.”, he said and took my hand and took my to his apartment. “I’m at his apartment “, I thought as we were walking up the stairs. James was still holding my hand and I was not the person to tell him to let go. As I got into the living room I saw Nicky Wire at the window and Sean on the couch. They both looked at me with a smile. I looked at James with a puzzled look in my eyes. He giggled and said: “Well, I thought you would be pleased to meet the others and as they were in London for once, I thought you would like to join us. If you can stand a nerd, a pop tart and a welsh smurf for a whole evening?” I blushed when he mentioned the word “pop tart” and Nicky looked at James with a puzzled look. “I can guess “pop tart” was meant for me, but why?”, he said with a smile and looked at James with a amused grin. He surely did have a killer smile, that Nicky!!! If it wasn’t for James holding my hand I would have fallen for Nicky in a second. “Well, you can thank this girl for that. Come on, tell him, love, about the “pop tart”- thing”, James said and tried to hide a smile as I looked at him with a threatening look. But as I looked into his eyes I started to feel as a complete idiot. If Nicky had a killer smile then James was slowly killing my brain cells and making my brain to mush. He was one hell of a man. James did let go of my hand and went into the kitchen to look after the dinner. I was left alone and Nicky looked at me and I told him about my two ferrets and what had happened as I was talking to James on the phone. Sean and Nicky laughed and I started to laugh too. It was a rather funny story. The rest of the evening went fine and we talked and ate and drank a lot. They were doing anything to make the evening special for me and especially James. As I waited for the cab to arrive, so I could get home, James was standing by my side and we were chattering about this and that. As the cab was there and I was sitting in it, he looked at me and said: “If I called you and asked you for dinner another time, would you do it?” “Yes. Very much indeed. This was a very funny evening”, I said and smiled. Then he took me by surprise as he kissed me on the cheek. I blushed and looked down shyly. As I drove away from him, he was still standing there and was looking after the cab. As I came home I was still thinking of James’ kiss. My flatmate Kristy tried to get through to me but then she gave up. I was talking nonsense. The next Wednesday as I came home from work I saw my answering machine was blinking and I pushed the button. “Hi. This is James. I was wondering if you would do me a favour? I am going to a party tonight and as you have to bring a partner with you, I thought of you. Call me at xxxxxxx and tell me if you want to join me. By the way, thanks for last time we saw each other. It was fun!” I could not stop myself from dancing around in the living room. He wants to see me again. He wants to see me again. Yeeeeppiieeee… It all stopped as I fell over a pillow on the floor and fell down on the couch. I tried to clear my mind so I would sound as a normal person and not a complete weirdo. Then I called him. “Hallo?” “Hi, it’s …” “Hey luv. Do you wanna join me?” “Yeah, I would love to!” “Great!”, James did sound very happy and then he continued, “Nicky will be there too. It is a friend’s party. We thought of going as a pair, me and Nicky, but then Caffy asked Nicky and then I thought of you. Did you arrive home safe?” “I did. Is there a dress code?” “Well, wear that dress you had on the last time. That should be okay.” “Okay.” “I’ll pick you up at 19.00 o’clock. It’ll be by cab.” “19.00 o’clock, I’ll be outside the building. But where do you know my address from?” “Sean found you on the Internet.” “Oh…” “I have to go. See ya.” “See ya.”. I sat on the couch and was smiling. I was going to see James again! The party was fun and I saw many of my favourite bands but somehow my eyes always lingered at James and every time I caught his eyes, my heart and pulse went crazy. As I was out dancing with Nicky , someone suddenly interfered and I was dancing face to face with James. We said nothing for awhile. I tried not to blush and tried not to look him in the eyes. My body reacted to the smell of him and to his body so close to me. His hand on my back was pressing me to him. Not in a improper way but just in a firmly way. As I was lost in my own thoughts, I heard him sigh and then he spoke. “I know this is not the right way to say this, but I, I really want to see you again. I think, you are a very smart and funny girl and I would really like to see you again”. He looked at me with his wonderful brown eyes. How could I resist that pleading look in them? I looked at him and could not stop my heart from going all nuts. Damn it! Could it really happen from one day to another? I was falling in love with a man I hardly knew, besides he was the lead singer in my favourite band? Then I realised he was still looking at me. “I would like to see you again, James. I would love to…”. The smile he gave me made me nearly faint. Then the music stopped and we went to the table where Nicky was sitting, looking very bored. As I sat down next to Nicky, James said he would bring us something to drink. As he walked away from the table Nicky looked at me with a big grin. “So, is there something going on between you and James? The way you looked at each other when you were dancing, made everybody go “Awwww“. You both looked like you were lost in your own little world!”. I blushed. Then he continued in a more serious way. “You two met each other last week and it looks like the lightning has hit you both. James has been acting more weird then he usually do, after you were at his little “dinner party“. I was hoping that you felt something for him too. I can see that now, no doubt about that!” Now I was all red in my face and when James came with our drinks, I had a difficult time not to look at him. As the party ended I got out to get my coat. As I got it, I felt James behind me and I heard him saying: “We are taking a cap home to me. I was thinking of, if you would join us for a drink?” I just smiled and then he took my hand. I felt like a stupid schoolgirl who had finally told her crush that she was in love with him. In the cap Nicky was chattering and he tried to hide his smile. James and I said nothing. James was still holding my hand. When we arrived Nicky said he was tired and would go to bed. It was late for poor Nicky. Nicky and James talked a bit with each other in the kitchen while I was in the living room. I looked around in his apartment. The first time I was here I had not noticed how it looked. It was nice. As I sat in James’ couch and him next to me, the silence felt like a sort of cocoon. But at the same time I could feel James next to me and I tried to find the courage to talk to him. Then he took my hand again and we kissed. That was all that happened that night but it felt like forever. I was in love… The next couple of days were all blurry and I had problems with concentrating. My co-workers laughed at me and asked me if something had happened to me and if it had something to do with love. I just smiled and blushed. James called me every evening and we talked. When I thought of our talks I could not remember anything about the subjects. I could only remember his voice. Over the weeks we got to learn each other better end better. I met Sean’s wife Rhian and Nicky’s wife Rachel and slowly our relationship developed into something deeper. Even though we were in love with each other, our relationship was not all pink and fluffy. We had both bit of a temper and therefore we were often fighting and screaming our heads off each other. But at the same time we were good at getting friends again after a hour and so. One day as I came home to my apartment I shared with my friend Kristy, I still lived on my own, even though I wanted to be with James all the time, I found James on my couch. He was sleeping and was looking so darn cute that I couldn’t resist. I kissed him on the mouth so sweet and lingering that he woke up. He smiled as he looked into my eyes. ”I missed you.” ”I missed you too, James.” ”I have a surprise for you but you have to close your eyes.” ”Can I get a shower first. I am all sweaty from work and from taking the Underground?” ”Nope, love. You have to wait for that. It is a part of my surprise y’know…” I looked at him suspiciously and he grinned. ”Come on. I dare you.” I sighed dramatically and then I closed my eyes. I heard him getting up from the couch and then I felt something blinding me. ”I forgot to tell you that you were going to be blindfolded. I would hate it if you saw your surprise before time.” Then I was led out of the apartment. As I heard him close the door and could hear the keys, I was wondering what he was up to. He often made small surprises for me and I loved it when he did it. But this time there was something nervous about him. This made me wonder. Then he took my hand and I was lead into a car. Somehow I knew it was Sean’s car and that it was Sean who was driving. What was Sean doing here? He always hated being in London and now he was driving me and James!!! James was holding my hand and he whispered small encouraging words in my ears. Now I was not nervous. Now I was bloody curious. Then the car stopped. I had no idea of where I was and I was happy that James was still holding my hand. He lead me into a house and helped me up the stairs. Then he stopped and then I heard Nicky’s amused voice. ”You are finally here. We were starting to get worried.” As I was lead inside I suddenly realised that it was James’ apartment. What was going on here? As I was lead into the living room I heard James, Nicky and Rachel talk but I could not get what they were talking about. Then I heard Nicky and Rachel leave. Before Nicky went out the door he whispered to me. ”Enjoy, love”. Then they were gone. James removed the blindfold and I tied to get used to the light after being blindfolded for so long. As I could see again my mouth dropped to the floor. I looked around and looked like a surprised fish. All my stuff were in the living room. I hadn’t noticed that as I came into the living room in Kristy’s and my living room. I had only eyes for James sleeping on the couch. My books, my paintings, everything were in James’ living room. James looked at me with a nervous smile. ”I know we have not talked about moving in together but I thought it was about time. Kristy, Nicky and the others helped me get your stuff over here. Kristy made it look like everything were as it should, so you wouldn’t notice something was missing in your flat”. I looked at him and could not hide my happy smile. I ran to him and kissed him. After a while we stopped kissing and we looked into each other eyes. We were both smiling like a pair of idiots. I just loved this man! ”And if you love him, oh be proud of him 'Cause after all he's just a man.” As I woke up the next day, I watched James sleep. He looked so much younger when he was asleep. All his worry and problems would disappear from his face and he looked like a little boy sleeping. I stroked his hair and he mumbled something and pulled me closer to him. I kissed him on the nose and he opened up his eyes. He looked sleepily at me but his smile was genuine. ”Morning, my love”, I said and kissed him on his nose again. ”Morning to you too”, he said sleepily. I could feel his hands under the covers getting around my waist and then he pulled me closer into him. ”You're just too good to be true. You look wonderful when you hair is ruffled. You look like a little naughty troll…”, James mumbled as he started to kiss me. Then one thing lead to another and I was late for work. part 2 >>> <<< Greeboina's stories |