4-28-03
MARILYN: 9:50pm. My computer hates me. i tryed to post yesterday, but ti seems to have not exactly worked. i'm so sorry, but i'm pretty sure there was nothing insightful or worth knowing anyways. i've been having a buised boob problem lately, today was rather uncomodious. it was in the junior lot,and scoot just comes up and like twists my boob off. well that gathered some remarks, as you may imagine, especially as i was driving kirsten's car at the time. or sitting in it waiting for the lot to be unblocked so i could move her car. whatever. i'm a little behind in school work, but i'm gonna get ti all doen adn then write a beautiful 15 page paper for BBB by monday. cute eh? its 3 days, this weekend, so i think it will turn out all right. 5 pages a day man. she hated my first "draft". its in quotes cause it was 4 and a half pages long with no end notes and it was all narrative and now that i've narrowed my topic sufficeintly, it needs to be broadened. go figure. and monkey twits accused me of plagarism. that upsetme. and i didn't d any homework all weekend so i was generally unprepared for class today. in spanish i got so sick of those sophmores, or as i like to call them, shmores. the shomores were all like "yay learning for fun!" and me and the shmen were like, "Uh no, lets find some easy vocab." then they got all pissy that we didn't want to "learn" extra and peah was giving me death looks for not having read. i hate shmores. but the shmen is pretty cool, for once. god these over achieving types. reason enough to be in regular classes. none of this above and beyond bull shit. ok i've typed like 10 pages before this today so my arms are getting tired and i'm going to stop. love me anyways??

4-24-03
MARILYN: 7:55pm. well i decided that since i've been so negligent, i'm going to babble on a bit today. theres a bra and underwear sale at robinsons may. if i get a break from my homework this weekend then i'll be checking that out. tomorrow i'm going somewhere for sushi, cause ever since moo's restaurant closed, i've just been so sad with out it. i really don't want to work this weekend. i mean its so dumb. the lon form for monkey twits, and i really need to work on the BBB paper, and the bible paper. ugh. i'm going to come out of this weekend having written like 30 pages. ugh. its time for the sabrina finale though, so i'll be back later, i promise, and write enough to make you all cry. i mean not ause its sad but because its alot. to read. all at once. right.

4-22-03
MARILYN: 6:07pm. more than 20 minutes with my mother drives me insane. it seems she thinks she is a better drive than me. this is SOOOO not true. i can park and steer and not hit the gas/brakes too hard and a bunch of other things that she can't. grrr. shes such a bitch. at least they are going out to dinner without me so i'll get a break from this, this woman. AHHHH!!

4-21-03
MARILYN: 10:35pm. I haven't started my homework yet. its not good. i'm kinda going to start around now though, so i guess i'll get to it. Sorry to dissapoint. nice rant kirst.
KIRSTEN: 12:25 PM. Well i'm in the library. i am the biggest slacker i know. As i was failing the chem test i just didn't feel like studying for i was thinking maybe i should just give up my spot at this hell school to someone who really wants to learn and likes to work 24 hours a day to get into a better college. Its amazing though how many people here are slackers. it really doesn't matter though. I mean don't they always say that money isn't important?? then why is college prep crap so important?? i hate it. People should be happy no matter what college or job or whatever, and i think more people are depressed in office jobs than anywhere else, y would u want to spend ur days doing all this hw just so u can one day spend all ur days making money in a humongous house and humongous office making sure that everyone else has less than you. I don't get it, is it just a vicious cycle?? It seems like its pretty selfish of me to stay here. I mean i won't amount to anything and i'm just using up a space and lots of people's resources. I mean it would be really sad to drop out senior year, i don't know. I don't think i deserve financial aid here and if i ever got a scholarship i wouldn't deserve that either. I just want it to be summer and i'm sick of internships and all these "good jobs" and doing community service to get into college and everything. Anyone can survive on minimum wage and be happy, if they can't money won't help. The grass is always greener.

4-20-03 (easter) (or 3 days after passover if you swing that way)
MARILYN: 7:17pm. i am procrastinating. i played 50s housewife all day cooking and washing dishes by and hand and wearing a sweater set and khakis. and now i have to do some homework. BLAH. theres this take home essay i didn't even know about until last night, and well i don't really want to do it, though i think i might have to in order to pass my english class. you're supposed to do it like you would an in class essay, but well i don't think anyone else is, so i'll only get screwed if i do. she expects us not to refer to our notes while we do it. i'm like, uh, right... passage analysis SUCKS MY BUM!! and i have a history test with essays i have yet to even glance at. so bascially i'm screwed. and i didn't read my book this weekend so i have to do it all next weekend while i'm sad about not going to san fran. at least pillory won't do it well or something and i can derive satifaction from that. so sad to be me. but theres good news too. the lap top, that broke when it was spilled upon, only has one thing wrong with it, the power supply, which although its 300 bucks to replace, thats better than not ever getting any of my stuff back. i am very very happy. but now i am going to go work, so i'll get to that and be back later.
MARILYN: 10:51am. Is today Bob Marley Day? well whatever. i'm not sure what my story on last night is yet, so i'll get back to you on that. i can tell you that Wok on precious stone was very very good, as always, and we got coffee at the end so it was all good. babs is a sex god. really that all i've got i guess. kirst, you and chill shoulda come it was lots of fun and we got to ride the tilt a whirl. woo. ok i have to go back to work. yay.
KIRSTEN: 9:15 pm. Well i would've come if my mom didn't decide last minute that we had company so i wasn't allowed to go anywhere. I'm sure i missed out, i can't speak for chill. So ya my easter weekend was pretty cool except the missing out last night part. ON thursday night went to a movie. When coy was drivin me and lana and cartwheels to dinner and we were rocking out in her convertible this cop came up behind us and started making funny faces at us when we tried to look like law abiding citizens. Then he drove passed us and yelled out his window, 'omigod its a cop!!" we laughed sooo hard!!! So then we had dinner with lots of people and it was funny, although i didn't eat cause i had icecream before with coy and lana. So then we went to the theatre and there was a little fiasco cause i told chill to go to the wrong theatre but his dad was cool and went and got him and everything. so ya then we got more icecream after the movie but i didn't. We saw these girls umm sucking the cows utters, and then having sex with the cow while they took pictures. tourists these days... so ya then sneric took chill home and then me home, i was 15 minutes late for curfew but my mom got over it kinda quick after warning me. Does anyone know how the parents know about pal's thing?? Cause my mom knows and i deffinitely did not tell her. Hmmm. so ya anyway then my cousins came after all and they were here when i woke up friday morning. i went to the DMV and now officially have a real license and i'm a female and everything. so then came home and i took my cousin noey shopping in o'side where we found the dress i wanted at christmas break still there even though the shop changed names. Its not like its hideous either and its a small and it fit me, it was the only one left. some random people we asked directions from gave us a book about 'everything teens need to know about sex, drugs, parents" we were like, 'uh thanx.' So ya then we bought my cousin an easter outfit and headed down to UTC to meet Beeky who drove stick even though she peeled out in front of fichus and his mom. hehe. We had fun, beeky found a pretty dress and put it on hold, she also bought 2 pairs of shoes that were really cool and then her and my cousin called me a party pooper cause i didn't buy anything. This extremely hot shoe salesman asked me if i needed assistance and i was kinda like, "uhhh no, i'm just wandering around" ya i'm smooth. o well. So ya then came home, and some guys were traffic flirting with us (must be my cousin's red hair) and hung with the cousins and stuff. my little cousin's getting old. She's 8 already, that's how old i was when she was born. i can't believe my mom and aunt let me drive my cousins around illegally, very uncharacteristic, but they didn't want to drive us around. i got my car back by the way, it just ran out of gas, stupid me, they fixed the squeeking though. saw HOles with the fam that night, it was pretty good. I've seen way too many movies lately. like everyone bailed out on bible study as usual so i went along. So ya then saturday we went to ross like marilyn and babs. i found pretty flower shoes that were way more inmy budget then the nordstroms ones and prettier anyway, i've been practicing walking in them, its kinda scary. my mom decided she does want to pay for my prom ticket now that someone else would, AND just to be an even cooler mom she gave me 150 dollars to spend on clothing, hehe. I've only spent like 120, still need a bra, haha. then me and the cuz got lost going to the beach... don't ask how, but our parents were later. We both like burned our butts trying to tan. i think i won the easter egg hunt today. my mean uncle told me there was a 20 dollar bill in one. I got to take my brother and cousins to the cool church service this morning, while the adults went in the old, stuffy one. my little cousin is so adorable. i traded her peeps for cream savers. she's obsessive about peeps. i love my aunt and uncle, they are so sweet to me, i wish they were my parents, i think they're my godparents or something. they're so freakin sweet to each other too and the funniest people ever. maybe i can go stay with them this summer again, that was fun. i got to go live in vegas without my family and hang with these awesome people for a week. they know how obnoxious my parents are too and pity me for it and try to help. to church my mom wore this little sailor girl outfit with her hair up in this perfectly done high ponytail and curled with some pearls in it and a little cardigan over her shoulders. We couldn't decide between prep barbie or sailor barbie. wow i wrote like a novel. my cousins and aunt and uncle are gone now. one gramma left a bit ago, i found out she lives really close to babs, scary huh. My other gramma's still here, in fact she needs to go to bed in here. o well. I just went on my mandatory lax HW run. i ran to the elementary school as usual and did my usual stargazing for like 15 minutes from the field. I kinda fell asleep. When i woke up my doggy was gone. I called him and he came running, with a peice of leather in his mouth. i turned on my flashlight and discovered he chewed his leash into like 20 peices all around me. Stupid dog, o well, at least he ran home with me, even though another dog was on the way, java doesn't like other dogs. ok gramma wants to go to bed. Its 9:45 now. shower and real diary and sleepy time. bye.

4-19-03
MARILYN: 1:29pm. Sorry i'm such a space out with the nicknames. i got 15 hours of sleep thrusday night. and i guess about 10 or 11 last night. after a certain KIRSTEN ditched us. sniffle. my shirt says what part of NO don't you unerstand. only its spelled right. and green. and VERY glittery. i love Ross. cause you can dress for less or whatever. we also bought underwear, and we would have gotten kirst some but we didn't know the color of her dress and well it could have been so ugly and all if we had gotten a black thong and garter belt and she was wearing a white dress. right. i also got a bouncy ball. its green and doesn't bounce well, but i think its cute anyways. we rented drumline and found inner peace through origami. kirst, you shoulda come dood. i'll have babs bring the origami so we can have fun with that after we ditch the losers. i made them a chicken. its pink and deformed. and has no crown. the bunny i made was cute. and the elephant and the duck and the penguin and the others. but not the flowers. but the butterfly i made for william is cute. if he'd call me back... so i can pick him up for his thing with me and babs and kirst and jose and axle. jose and axle are the names i just made up for the arcade boys. cute eh? ya i thought so. well kirst just called and canceled, and babs' phone is busy, so i guess i'm up shit creek. hehe, the blues brothers. maybe i'll watch that... later

4-16-03
KIRSTEN: 9:03 pm. Marilyn and I have been slacking on our nicknames, babs might be in danger, o well. haha. but ya babs got this nice pretty (how do u spell bokay?) of flowers and a very expensive ring and then she turned marilyn down, how sad. love em. i changed the names in mine and marilyn's. did no hw tongight even though i was supposed to do journals. I read on the bus. my car's better and we have to pick it up tomorrow, supposedly it just ran out of gas, how embarrassing is that. I swear according to my gage it had like 3 gallons left, that's like 60 miles on my little, cute car. i hate the bus, its so hard to go back once u can drive and i have a close personal bond with my car, i miss it, its like a part of me is missing. we have to take the BUS in the Morning tomorrow too. I'm gonna hang with coy and people tomorrow, not at coffee house. I'm gonna go cheap shopping with marilyn and babs friday (very very good friday), they have to buy bootilicious shirts and i need a prom dress. That's after i go to the DMV to actually get my license, now that i'm really a female and all. On saturday i'm accompanying the girls to their free meal grubbing. DO i look like marilyn?? I didn't think so. I could say they messed up doing plastic surgery and i ended up looking worse, haha. sunday's easter. I wonder if we get an easter egg hunt (besides the cool customary lax one of course) because my cousins backed out of coming like they do every year at the last minute. My aunt and uncle are too lazy to drive from vegas. I miss my noey (that's my cousin, and she's like my bestest cousin in the whole world, which is saying a lot) and it won't be easter without them. byebye.
MARILYN: 8:00pm. I'm watching that 70s show. KELSO IS HOTNESS!! i'm on the old hunk o junk computer. today i "asked (babs) to prom" as a joke thing we set up, and someone thought i was gay. haha. well whatever. i'm tired, and i have work, but something tells me its not gonna get anywhere near done. so sad. english journals, bah. bah bah black sheep, have YOU any wool? ya thats what i thought. i have to decide tonight about 500 bucks worth of sailing, or at least going to san fran. fuck what should i do? help...

4-15-03
KIRSTEN: 9:51 PM. my life's been weird lately, marilyn's has been weirder. that's probably it, my dad's trying to do my math and i'm waiting till he's done so i can do some. I'm not doing monkeytwit crap and it turns out i didn't get the ernie pyle packet so i'm kinda screwed, sorry marilyn i'll do it during ap reg or free period or something. stupid take home math assignment. i just suddenly have like a buttload of HW to do and i'm not even doing half of it and supposedly i always give up, i hate math. I wouldn't give up if it wasn't so completely useless. my brother was just wearing my nordstrom pajama pants babs gave me, i almost broke his stupid door in half, the little creep. He wouldn't take them off. He's such a jerk sometimes. He always wears my clothing. I can't stand when he takes my stuff, especially when its stuff people gave me, i love those pants. Here comes the little freak now. ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! He's all nice for a few hours and then becomes the little creep again. my car died on the freeway today. Its looking suspiciously like i run out of gas. We think there's a leak in the tank though but its still a little embarrassing. ok calm myself. He just does this crap to make me mad, it freaking works!! and then there's my mother. She picks me up from my dead car on the side of the freeway to take me to school and decides once again that its prime time to talk about how i'll never get into college because i didn't turn in my community service hours this year. I have like 200 already anyway and i think its a little creepy to do community service to get into college, kinda like NCL. Wait exactly like it. I was watching this movie of the sr. presents thing last year and they have to like wear a wedding dress and walk down an aisle with their father. Someone reads stuff about them over the microphone and they fake smile a lot. It looks so dumb, hope i don't have to do that. I have to watch this year. Hope bubblebut and sniz are coming. my mom and dad we're interogating me about what a ghetto-booty is. Hmm. my mom asked if it was like J.LO, haha. my stupid brother's throwing more paper airplanes in the shape of a tube at me. he needs to brush his teeth says my dad. he just like tackled him, he was mad. my mom's decided because i'm annoye with her its "anti-mom time" and that means that something is wrong with me, I must have some hormonal imbalance if she's pissing me off, naturally. Well at least i'm not taking estrogen pills. bye.
MARILYN: 8:45pm. so it turns out that the techies in texas think that teh "coke" i spilled ruined the "motherboard" which is like 600 bucks to replace. with any luck thats all thats bad. and since the hard drive has some sort of protective thing on it, most likely i can get to my stuff on there, which is a huge giant relief cause my freaking long from is on there. and history paper stuffles. and so on and so forth. i mean the first 5 or 6 pages of my romance novel too!! dangit, i have alot of stuff on that darn thing. i am so dumb. i am so sorry. its tuesday, so i only have two more days of this school thing till a 3 day weekend. WOO HOO! sorry bout your mommy turning off beauty and the beast kirst, be our guest is the best part, in my opinion, cause after that it gets all love story like and stuff. that was definately the last good animated disney movie they made. it came out after little mermaid right? well if not, that was the last good one. so now i've gotta do like 1000000 journals for a certain person called monkey twits. kirst almost called her that today. funny. teehee. right so bye bye bye, baby bye bye bye (i'm as hot as N'Sync).

4-13-03
KIRSTEN: 8:37 pm. I'm pissed, i was at wok on pearl with beeky, fichus, and coy, if that answers ur question. I don't hate u marilyn. I'm pissed at my stupid mom though. In the middle of Beauty and the Beast she decides i can't watch it because she thinks its dishonest that i didn't finish my author project book and i was supposed to last week. In the middle of be our guest!! I mean really!! and then she said it was a stupid movie, that really pissed me off. I'm not letting her blackmail me into reading the dumb book because she doesn't want me doing anything except school work because i might get some awful idea that school is not the reason for existence, and then slack off. So here i am and i'm gonna work on the online tower deal. My report's due tomorrow. I was supposed to do an article but i don't think that's the best way to do it. did catacombs come out friday?? I didn't see it, if it didn't it'll be there tomorrow. If anyone reads this remember that its late start tomorrow. I know from experience that it sux if u forget. bye.
MARILYN: 6:55pm. so i didn't have soup, i had pizza and berries and milk. and promptly lost it. sad. it was yummy though. i've got no gas in my car, so next study break i go to the filling station. woo hoo. i wonder where my cell phone is. ok right back to the women, or so they say.
MARILYN: 5:08pm. now were you at wok on pearl with your boyfriend? he hates me. so do other people it would seem. i feel bad, but don't know what to do. so far i have an intro to my paper. i'm screwed. i'm so screwed. it think i'm gonna go eat, i haven't yet since my tummy has been so upset. something like soup might be nice. yummy soup.
KIRSTEN: 1:18 PM. Marilyn that sux, i hope it started working again!! I am not dignifying anything else with a response except to say that country does not suck, love in the 60s is good though. Weird weekend, i got sunburned. My phone vibrated in a strategic place and i like jumped in the air at Wok on Pearl. It was freakin hilarious, and then everyone was embarrassed cause i was so loud. I did see monkeytwits, scaryness. Gotta write an article and make some cds and do latin at some point. Poopy uniform tomorrow. I hope ur computer fixes marilyn.
MARILYN: 12:22pm. i am in so much trouble. the other computer, on which my entire research paper so far is stored, is no longer working as a result of some poor decision making on my part. i would just like to say that i'm going to cry and if you know anything about hard drives and how i can get to that one if the stupid thing won't even turn on then you should totally tell me how and i'll even drive to your house and give you money. PLEASE!!

4-12-03
MARILYN: 7:50pm. ok i got a really good idea for an essay if i ever get up the balls to write it. I thought of it while i was blowdrying my hair, after i had put on some perfume. You know how you squirt your wrists and then smudge on where ever else? that just got my thinking about how its hiding something. sure literally its your aroma, but i mean it could be something else like your social class, your upbringing, and your past. and so the reason i wouldn't be able to write it anytime soon would be the location of the application and my own specific "past" and so on. i dunno seems like it could go either way, corny or good. its just an idea anyways, so whatever, i just wanted to write it down. today i wrote almost 4 pages of the paper, so i only really really need about 4 more. 6 or 7 would be nice, but i'm not gonna push it. tonight hay una fiesta, and it will be good to unwind since i had the ACT this morning so i'm just a mess of nerves and something else along those lines. i did get to take a bubble bath, which i enjoyed greatly. really thats about it, oh and mother's home from wisconsin. woo? but tongiht they have a fnacy dress up dinner so i'm gonna get home about the same time as them provided i don't encounter any issues with that. right i gotta go get dressed. later my loves.

4-11-03
MARILYN: 10:39pm. i was a few minutes late, though my sleeping father seemed to not care much. i get to take the ACT tomorrow. kirst saw monkey twits on the way home from chill's, i think, but she can tell you about that. kirst and chill didn't make out in the car, and were even reluctant to hug after their date, but it was cute none the less and i'm sure that some day they'll get married and love and love and love. i even played love in the 60s for them. so cute. nice sandals, lets screw. or so says the sanch. i had to be bitter for babs today cause she was out with a fever. its hard, but i managed to be bitter or at least cold to nearly everyone. she was proud. i failed some tests and stuff today, generally it was better than yesterday. country sucks. i'm all about love in the 60s, even if it involves sandal sex. peace out dude, and remember to put your flowers in the guns....
MARILYN: 622pm. kirst and chill have a date. chill thinks i'm jealous. but i'm not. ha take that! we did pretty bad in air band, the sophmores were really funny. i'm gonna go now.

4-10-03
KIRSTEN: 8:23 PM. WEll dood today I woke up pretty darn happy and it was a pretty good day. Thursday's are my favorite day of the week, friday's really suck and thursday's are much cooler. I woke up to my country radio and just listened and then started dancing at like 6 in the morning, it must be a good day, or i just sucked the energy out of babs who was like dying today. I interviewed my buddy for the paper not-so-bacherlorette of the month, her boyfriend was really annoying and wouldn't let her talk to me or me interview her. He said something like I'll leave you alone if you promise to give me an interview, what a dork. Hope he doesn't read this, i don't think he will. Actually i hope he does. Powderpuff tied supposedly, i wasn't really watching, i was busy interviewing and now i have to write the story, more crappy long form crap too. We won our game 14-3 again. I didn't play much. Lana was kinda not happy about us not playing, i don't blame her. I'm not too happy either. Ya i do have a date, none of that blind date crap for me, that works out well. So I was driving home today and I was admiring this humongous jacked-up truck with all these stickers on it saying like "texas longhorns" and "misplaced texan" and stuff. Then when they were next to me they started flirting with me in the traffic. TEXAS GUYS IN A HUGE TRUCK!! yay! They were pretty cute too except it is a little weird that they try to pick girls up in traffic on the coast highway. HAHA. SO ya before i was on the coast highway i was going faster than my speedometer shows on the freeway (that's above 85 haha) and then i slowed down and was going like 75 and all of a sudden the traffic stopped. Well i slammed on my breaks and screeched, really loud for like 10 seconds down the road and didn't hit the car in front of me but a definate cloud od smoke with the stench of burning rubber enveloped me and I almost skidded into the other lane. I got off the freeway then cause i was embarrassed to drive next to the people that saw me do that, hehe. I tried to act natural. Well ya procrastinating on my long form and article. I heard about an interesting pair going to prom. We were all a little suprised, i mean fichus and gnarly? Well whatever. Pal was moving marilyn's car today and hit monique's bumper, she has a huge scratch/dent but she was very reasonable about it. She didn't get mad and even said she'd take the blame, very admirable i'd say. I hit a pole pulling out but i didn't care, marilyn thought i should but my car's beyond caring about that stuff. I love my car and i love being able to hit it on poles and stuff and not care. I love driving and just having a car at all even more. You know what would be cool after after-prom. If we all brought sleeping bags and like slept in our cars for awhile so we could drive home safe and hang at the beach or something. I mean it ends at like 4 in the morning. byebye.
MARILYN: 7:31pm. today SUCKED. my poor car. kirst has a prom date. and a cop pulled into a 7-11 on my way home. really theres nothing else to talk about? bye.

4-8-03
MARILYN: 8:47pm. well i don't know what to say. how are you? i never ask you people how your day was. why don't you all e-mail me? tell me about your day. tell me about the good parts, the bad parts, and everything that just happened. what are you proud of that happened today? what do you wish you could do over? tell me...

4-7-03
MARILYN: 7:48pm. i thought it was the 8th, and said that to people all day. and its the 7th, or so says the computer. goddamn. the yellow dart is on the phone again. thats a good nick name. he wants to subscribe to the gazette. so cool. one subscriber. so i'm not in the mood so i'm gonna go "work". later.

4-6-03
MARILYN: 1:33am. so what if its tomorrow. i don't wanna do a new date. formal was formal. my hair had volume, i had no boy date. isn't kirst so cute you just wanna rub your nose on her? anyways, long forms bite my butt. i'm sad and tired. i'm not sure why i signed on just to say that. oh well. oh, and go to www.homestarrunner.com. its real nifty. i drive bad and have no gas. night night.
KIRSTEN: 9:14. ya we went to formal, it wasn't all that great but at least my date only ditched me like twice, haha. So friday night i played with varsity and then watched the JV game. Then i went to smellen's house and gave her her birthday chocolate strawberries which i made. Balex liked them too. We had bible study but i was a little too tired from a week of sitting through chem classes and doing chem HW so i was kinda incoherent and don't really remember what i said. I thought i hit a car leaving her apartment and didn't see a scratch so i left but then felt guilty and went back. I didn't hit it. Glad i went back or i would've been guilty for like the rest of my life cause i'm like that. So then went home, slept. Went to the beach in the morning for a run. I ran like an eighth of a mile and then plopped down and read my english book, which is really good. I found this place where you can park by the beach and noone's there, its my new spot. SO then i went home and washed my car. I realized it was 3:30 and i hadn't done the windows yet or cleaned my room or packed a bag or taken a shower. Did all that and ended up at babs' at 5:30 with a dress, some fake perfume, some shoes, a huge random shaped sunburn on my back and a strapless bra. babs did my makeup and we were all good, better than my last mascara fiasco at least. So ya then to pick up the chill who took like a half hour to put on his makeup and then hated our awesome barenaked ladies music. food court wasn't that great but i didn't have to buy me or marilyn dinner and we got to pee and watch ice skaters. So then off to formal and ya i wasn't really in the mood but whatever. Somebody got in a fight and four people were wearing the same dress and like everyone else was wearing the dresses i almost bought or dresses like ours. Weird. Its just not as much fun when you actually spend money on a dress and then it like falls off all the time. I vow to never go strapless again. Not to mention i don't go a single day without several dumb cleavage comments from the marilyn-babs gallery. So ya then had to hitch a ride to babs' house and the waited for marilyn to come with babs and they went out to dinner with chill!! dorks. SO ya i though they like got in a car crash and died and they were eating without me, o well. So ya then slept on the floor, which is good because they started up with they "don't u just want to rub your nose on her" stuff again. weird. So then woke up and realized it was daylights savings time and there's no way i'd make church. called home they had the same problem and so i went home. I ate and read book more then went to Rinz's house and we did our great gatsby movie and some latin. Funny stuff. So then went home cause mom was mad, she hung up on me. I did some HW and then mom left for her meeting and i went to church alone for the first time. It was cool, i met some nice people and it was a lot better than having my family around me. I was all independent too, it was great. Then after church i had like ten minutes till it was supposed to end at 8 and so i went to my new little spot on the beach which is really close to church and sat and looked at it, the moon and stars were really clear and it still wasn't completely dark yet thanx to daylights savings time. I've decided i'm not loving enough. I'm a christian, i'm supposed to love people, that's what we do. bye.

4-4-03
MARILYN: 5:55pm. The dog is flipping out cause he has to stay in my room abd he just fucked up the computer but i think i fixed it. never press F11 cause it screws with the windows and things. uh... nothing ever happens in my life, so i'll get back to you when something does.

4-3-02
KIRSTEN: 8:56 PM. What do u mean maybe my date?? u better be my date!! Well sorry i've been off in texas and just generally lazy. Texas was fun and so is school now that 3rd quarter's over, just like i thought it would be. There was a fiasco about where my brother drank his milk earlier and then because my dad assumed my mom said that her food gave her diarhea when she didn't and then because my dad put rice down the disposal. My life is quite funny and that means everyone's life is funny. Actually excited about formal this time around. We're all single for the first time in forever. YAY!! And i have my first official date for formal. HEHE.bye.
MARILYN: 7:09pm. where has that kirsten gone? shes my date for formal, i think. I've had an alright day. even sailng wasn't so bad. but my father is an absolute ass. he does not want me to go to nationals for sailing. my junior year. and i may not be able to go to nationals. that would make the rest of this year a waste. i could have gotten better grades and been happier, but it was all building up to this where i'd go and win and YAY. that kind of thing. well right now i'm not sure if will happen, if we even make it. right now i'm hating him so much. my mother is crying in the kitchen cause we couldn't get along on her last night in town. serves her right for bringing it up. i'm in a bad mood and have to go do alot of home work anyways.

4-2-03
MARILYN: 6:23pm. I just have one thought for today. i wonder if this has happened to anyone else. has anyone ever tried to help, to make up for past actions, and made it worse? pulled you ffrom your dream world where it was enver an issue, you were just too dumb and no one cared? it sucks when things manage to feel even worse.

4-1-03
MARILYN: 9:08pm. today was good. except for the parts that sucked. oh wait... i went to sailing for the 1st time in 3 weeks. they got 10th (YESSSSS) at the regatta that i chose not to attend. the coach is a dick. i didn't see a point to me and brendak doing tack master with frank and myrtle and said so. he got all pissy and wouldn't coahc me. i think that if i have to pay a way high fee for his god damn advice he should be such an ass. i sincerely hate that team. the little fleet boy IS AN ASS HOLE. i wish i could make them feel fat ugly and useless like they do to me. i seriously wish i could cry... and i can't because i have flute this weekend. and formal, with an ugly dress and dateless. at least i didn't get turned down by 2 girls!! HAHA!! lalex would rather go on a blind date!!! and pillory said she had SATs. brendak and i decided she must have waaaaaay extended time to be still taking SATs at 8 at night. its the same as saying she had to wash her hair. i almost died. laughing. a departure. i guess school was dull, though igot to make more fun of dingus for the whole "bullshit" or "booger" problem. hehe. no free eriods on tuesday SUCKS. ok i'm done...