2-29-03
KIRSTEN: 11:22 AM. Well even though marilyn ditched me to go out on her "date" last night I found something to do. After practice i went to beeky's house, i drove, hehe. Then we drove to Wok on Pearl and ate lots of stuff cause we were really hungry. I did the worst parking job i have ever seen in my life. Like if i was walking by i'd start laughin. My front wheels wer right on the curb and my back wheels didn't even go over the corner of the curb. haha. Beeky says i'll eventually get better at it. So then we went on to school for the jazz band concert after she decided to ditch out on her art award ceremony in balboa park. Good decision we agreed. So anyway i was parking there and the security gaurd had to knock on my window to tell me i was gonna hit this car. I kinda knew that but it made it more embarrassing. Then they were talking to beeky about how i almost hit the custodian's car and stuff and who the heck is that girl? So ya then they told me to park in this other spot right next to brand new firebird or something of the sort with stancey's dad in it and stancey standing next to it. I got really close and had to repark like 3 times, really kinda embarrassing. He was really nice about it though. haha. Then when i left i pulled out too soon (out of the entrance instead of exit, don't ask me why) and this speeding car whipped around the corner and almost killed me. Well ya i need to practice some parking skills at least. So the jazz band was really good, especially the part when they played down the hallway for mardis gras. Beeky and i got the last 2 tickets. Rinz was there too and snalex (but she left early) the horn players were funny cause they danced and stuff. byebye.

2-28-03
MARILYN (AGAIN): 11:11pm. Knock on wood... right so i went out tonight, it was fun. sushi, all at a very reduced price because i won a bet (ex post facto, but still). life is good, though my tummy seems to gurgle when i eat. i'll have to give that up... life seems good... wierd...
MARILYN: 12:25pm. I'm in chem. theres not alot else to say, besides that he putting off giving back our tests tiull after lunch. i guess its so we're awake for as little time as possible after we find out, so he can keep track of where we are for that time and keep us from killing ourselves. i know i'll have when i find out how badly i did. i have the hiccups. and i have for a while. I read in my free period. World's Fair by E.L. Doctorow. Its a good book. i like it and cannot wait to start the other one by him, Ragtime. Its supposed to be really good. My dad the almost illiterate man. well not really, j=he just never reads. more of a math and science man. i failed my chem test, so needless to say i have my mother's knack for not understanding anything at all. i just wish i knew how much i failed. AHH!!!!! uh oh, dr. furry creature killer had returned. must go....
MARILYN: 1:22am. yes its a mite early. i'm a little sleepyish so i jsut wanted to check in. i had another not so great not awfully horrible day. mundane. or mundain. which ever one is a word. go josie and the pussycats!! i've been listening to that. sad, yes. catchy, yes! worst part: first date with frank we saw that movie. useless i tell ya, useless.

2-27-03
KIRSTEN: 7:52 PM. No i'm not gonna be the sturgismobile 2 although my car could be if it belonged to the sturgismobile or then it would be the sturgismobilemobile, wow. So i've driven to school 2 days in a row now. Yesterday i had a little mini chatastrophy although it worked out fine. My friends are awesome. I left the lights on in the kirstenmobile all day and when i took everyone out to see it, the battery was dead. So babs and marilyn found jumper cables while sneric and lana hung with me and admired my beautiful car. Sneric and marilyn and i pushed my car out while babs sat in the driver seat. Then we used marilyn's car to connect to it and although sneric kinda knew how to do it, marilyn didn't trust him with her car. She tried calling sancho and then triple a to just ask if they knew how to do it, they didn't. Then the guy we were blocking in his spot with our 2 cars helped us. how nice. So we got it to work and then marilyn drove it around for like 40 minutes with sneric to charge the battery. Wow how nice although everyone said it was fun and we all know how to do it now. In case u need help, u connect the reds to the same ends of the battery, same with blacks, then start the working car, then start the dead car, babs had to try mine a few times before it started. So ya then i went to park marilyn's car for her and supposedly i used my blinker when turning into the last spot in the parking lot. Erin said it was cute and a lax guy yelled out "I saw that" then lana made fun of me and then the same lax guy made fun of me in advisory again. Geeze its not all that funny, ok maybe it is. SO then i thought marilyn said she parked it in the jr lot and i went out there with lindsey and it wasn't there. I started like hyperventilating thinking my car got stolen on the first day and lindsey told me to calm down. I didn't until i thought maybe its in cuvier. So we went there, it was there. Yesterday i left at 6:20 and got to school at like 7:23 and today i left at 6:20 and got to school at 6:50. I was the first person in the jr lot and parked in the back, i guess i just like the back and it seemed like the least inconveniencing. The chapel skit today was really good. It was funny and i thought the acting was pretty good for sophmores and freshmen. It was a pretty good idea too. it was about all these people auditioning for the part of jesus in this movie and one actually was jesus. It was called "will the real jesus christ please stand up." Ok so now i have to do an english essay. I took the coast home today cause its pretty and i wanted my windows open, i love that, windows closed make me claustrephobic. byebye.

2-26-03
MARILYN: 9:53pm. I'm procrastinating. rare, i say, rare. floppy boobs is a bitch. i swear. she gave me anacademic warning for fun. seriously. i have a good grade and everything, and the grades its based on don't count worth a shit. i'm gonna like cry. my parents are mad and talking to her didn't help at all and i'm just sad and depressed and so on. i have plans for friday after floot practice. go me!! god i don't wanna do this english "outline" because i have no idea what order to put my damn points in. so i'm like making a list of things i might chose to include. for monkeytwits to tear apart tomorrow period 7. when i should be doing my chem lab report. or studying for my history quiz (FUCK HER). we only got one days notice on this one. i'm a little pissed. so sick of it. i would love to drop school right now. and go and live in a hut somewhere. somewehere nice. somewhere no one knows what a verb is and why you should conjugate it. fuck humanity... so useless...

2-25-03
MARILYN: 11:41pm. i'm about to go shower so this will be quick. yes a quicky for my fans. hahaha. i got pants today. ya, after flute. and soap too. i was such a big spender. anyways, the real reason i'm here is to clarify. it says i broke up with him though its the one that said "this isn't going to work anymore, call me if you want" and i must admit i didn't call but its the one that brought it up. i'm done reliving that awful night for now. did i tell you about the weird thing though?? candy, a pal of mine from sailing and stuffle, and her boy, michelle (yes i know its girl's name, just be creative), broke up the same weekend. the big diff though, michelle promptly started going out with a chica from floot troop and frank the tank (HAHA, oh my od see old school (its a movie) if you haven't yet), as far as i know, is still single. though he flirts constantly with the girl population iof the sailing team, though it seems only when i'm around after talking to them. they are way out of his league too. so i hope to see him crushed soon. hehehe. oh well, nothing on the love front for me. sniffle. maybe i should have an affair with randy the kirstenmobile. just one thing, are you gonna be like the sturgismobile?? please say no....
KIRSTEN: 7:58 PM. I thought u broke up with it, no matter... So anyway ya i did pass my license test!!! I got to drive down to la jolla for dinner with my young life camp buddies! It was so fun!! finally after like 4 years of waiting and wishing and hoping and that hope being the only thing that kept me relatively sane. I remember babs telling me just another few months, and so on, when i was having my nervous break downs. It was a few more months than anticipated and although i did waste a lot of my life in that range of no freedom i'm sure it wasn't entirely wasted and this is no time to complain about the past. Everyone's been so sweet and happy for me. I luv my friends. Baylor and Berry called last night to ask if i passed and low and behold yes i did!!! They were so great. Baylor's sister got my brother sick though. I get to drive to school in my hotrod tomorrow now that i'm actually insured (don't tell anyone i drove 50 miles without insurance). Dingus ran up and gave me a hug after advisoy and so did berry and fichus luckily just told me congratulations. So did like everyone else. Baylor was all excited coming into latin today. Marilyn was very excited for me. My dad just farted like 10 times and said i'm teaching him bad habits, i resent that. I get to show off my superstudly car tomorrow!! yay! Well luv u all and thanks for being supportive (if u were, haha jk). O i'll tell u about the dream last night cause u really care. I drove (see my subconcious here) somewhere far away (don't know where) and was hanging out with my buddies. There was an earthquake (see it here too) and then when it was all clear somebody brought this little baby in. It was so adorable. It was this little black baby but for some reason i was astonished at how the face looked old. It looked like all wrinkly and wise and stuff but still a baby. I wanted to adopt it and was thinking i could if i married my boyfriend (no idea who that's supposed to be either) but then i'd be a housewife and married with a child at age 16. I couldn't decide. Weird. It wasn't my child, i had no idea who i was marrying and i would be like cleaning house and diaper changing from now on and i still couldn't decide. I still can't decide. Wow that was enlightening. OK anyway, i'll see ya tomorrow probably (i dunno who reads this if they don't go to our school) and i'll show u the kirstenmobile. It's name is Randy. byebye
MARILYN: 5:43pm. There was no sailing today!! woo hoo!! so i got some time to sit around and think about doing homework. it was pretty cool. in a bit i have 2 hours of flute, which will, be, uh, fun? kirst definately passed her license test. we are all so very proud. little, kirsten, all grown up and driving around now. sniffle. they grow up so fast.... it rained today. that was weird. all wet and things. my socks got muddy. and there was no sailing. even though there was wind. i think frank just wanted to sail around and have his way with pillory. hahaha. if he does go for the big dubs. ugh its nasty to see him in the gene pool. hahaha. god i'm a bitch. well it is. i mean think of th children. eweweweweww. and i dated it. until it broke up with me. god i'd love a boy right now.... something to hold me. ahhhh. i should go read or something prodictive. later.

2-24-03
MARILYN: 8:21pm. i got home last night. our flight was delayed and we almost missed the SD curfew of 11:30. almost but not quite, sadly. So i was forced to just skip school on my own. i've been keeping a diary, since saturday, and s far its pretty random. i'm writing it in the 3rd person so i can try to be objective about everything, but so far ti sounds like one of those books you give up reading halfway through because its too depressing. i'm way behind on school work, so i'm gonna go fake doing that. great to be home.... i wish.

2-23-03
KIRSTEN: 8:44 PM. I read them marilyn. SOrry i've been gone so long, not that u really care, but stuff's been happening. Getting my license monday. I got a car. My dad officially paid my grampa for his '90 mercury sable on saturday. I'm getting attached to it. i just finally gave up on my dream car and decided to just get a car. It's not the greatest or prettiest but it has a bench seat and we've been doin' some bonding. I just like laid down on the bench seat and talked to it. It's name is Randy. Don't get topo scared and Don't take that wrong. My brother said i cracked. So hopefully i'll be able to drive around together (me and randy that is, haha) but my worst nightmares are coming true (well maybe not worst but bad). I always said that i was gonna buy my own car because if the rents were allowed to buy me one they'd use it against me to blackmail me and stuff. Well its happening. "maybe if you aren't mature enough to see your chem teacher ur not mature enough to have a car" and "if you don't do it in the next 3 days we'll see if you get to keep the car."(that sounds pretty funny) ARGHHH!!!!!! I was crying for a bit cause i was trying so hard to escape that. I hate that but i love my car, no matter how boring it is. I bought a bumper sticker that says "its all good" (my dad like had a hissy fit cause he wants to sell the car again later and stuff even though no one would buy this hunkacrap and said i wasn't allowed to get bumper stickers but then gave in) and a steering wheel cover made of those funky wooden beads cause the steering wheel was shedding on me and have the little cowboy hat marilyn gave me hanging on the mirror (I took the air freshener out cause it was too strong for me) and a little spur and keychain that says "super pilot" tied on with my soccer ribbon. I have a tape adapter for my diskman that's shoved between the armrests to keep it in place. I went to lax practice on saturday. Coy took me there from her house and back to her house, we got to ride with the top down!! yay!!! Babs like tripped me 3 times during practice, she's vicious i tell u. Carrsky is coachin varsity this year!!! this will most likely be my first varsity sport!!! I miss soccer though, this is actually competitive and stuff and i kinda miss everyone from soccer and just goofin around at practice. I won musical sticks though. I saw coach p and mr. Blotis walking out of the yellow house on friday night together, me and my bro talked to them a bit. We saw the play, it was a depressing afternoon. Dad lied to me i still think and then i hung around depressed. Chill had to tell me to take the size sticker off my pants i'd been walking around with. I did nothing for like 4 hours and then ate dinner with the fam very grumpily and then bro called his girl (if u know what i mean) cause she was sick and couldn't come. The play was really funny. Barrie sat next to me just cause they assigned her there, isn't that funny. Dad really liked the play, it was really good, especially since somebody who works on campus wrote it. I miss marilyn and erin actually, haven't seen either in a long time. O i was gonna try to explain the vapor verse marilyn was confused about. Its saying that you shouldn't get all finicky and worried about the little details of your life because it is nothing in the scope of eternity and to live your life as part of eternity. Kinda his way of saying: look at the big picture. byebye.

2-20-03
MARILYN: 9:12pm. i'm at home. woo. but not for so very long, as this weekend i will make a journey to san jose. woo? it won't be bad... i'm going to miss chilling with my home crew though. so i'll leave you this to make due and so on. in order to best simulate me actually being at home, i will proceed to whine and whine and whine. and then be a bitch. and whine. so i hate life and people and everything sucks and i'm so sad and depressed and you all hate me and i don't blame you. i'm sorry. i'm fat too, have i mentioned that? and ugly, and you should all hate me. now isn't that life-like? now theres no reason at all to miss a silly little bitch like me. i wonder if anyone even reads these anymore?? get back to me, i'll be home late late sunday.
MARILYN: 11:37am. I'm in the library. it is good fun, i think. actually, i'm bored stiff without kirsten lynn around to comfort me. i've done all my work thats due today, and i'm not about to like get ahead or whatever. BORING! i started my spanish presentation today. so far it seems like sr. mayonaisse likes my poems. i mean i got an A on the project, and when ever i space out and go uh, i don't know the word... hes been helping me. you just wonder whats up with that man. hes weird in a way, i don't know, nevermind. so the first 3 minutes went well, though it seems i am just too too deep for the sophmores i am surrounded by. they don't get my simple poem. they have no hope for the thanatopsis. hehehehehehe. although, i guess neither of the poems are horribly simple, but i mean still. i have chem next, so this is just warming up for my nap. i ache all over. i "worked out" yesterday. in bed that is. thats whats up with the "quotes" that are just "cutesy" and monkeytwits would not approve of. leg lifts are hurty. ouchy. walking is bad.... now kirst is here!! yay!! she doesn't understnad math. good for her. she is taking the ACT in june. i want to do it in April. and be done with standardized testing on June 7 when i might have to take the SAT or SAT IIs. but hopefully not. hehehehehe. i'm boreddddddddd. on ward then, and to chem!!

2-19-03
MARILYN: 7:36pm. I feel really sick after eating at that place. the quesadilla was really greasy. i was like ready to barf the whole drive home. right now i'm studying. woo. i have some shit to do for tomorrow. its real fun. i swear. today was interesting, though i'm not sure what i should and should not say. schwabbicus must think i am chronically very ill because i always pop off in his class to go to the nurse. today was not exception. history is dull. very very dull. more dull than the bible, which i just read. freak shit eh? today at class meeting kirst read something about us being quick little vapors. i'm not sure i understood. you know that god and his conciets. (extended metaphors). i'll never really get that guy. too freaky. history sucks, if i hadn't mentioned that. nernernernernerner. its froma song. i'm gonna put stoopid back in for tomorrow. woo. i've missed those boys. ah to be slightly stoopid. er wait....
MARILYN: 5:45pm. I have to go to Rubios for dinner. ya i thought it was cute too. well, i'm off, but i'll be back.
MARILYN: 10:28am. I'm in chem. i don't understand any of it so instead i'm doing this. chill is looking over my shoulder. he has to take PE, poor boy. also his computer does not work. poor poor chill. we love him though. chem is chemmy. chill says wow. i speak good english. i have that soon. poo on monkeytwits butt. i'm sleepy. and i ache all over. bah, i'm off....

2-18-03
MARILYN: 9:21pm. well here i am muse, what now? i should do english, but i'm going to see if i can't get out of it. however that works. 3rd triemster sports start next week. i can't decide if i wanna do lacrosse. i'll be the only girl not doing it, again. but i'm trying to be as much of an annoyance as possible at sailing, and so far it seems to be working. woo. i had a really shitty time at sailing today. who knows why. i'm ready for anything, except school, sports, and the flute competition. its all my fault we're going to get exellent instead of superior. i feel really bad. and the damn thing hasn't even happened yet. well all they have to do is ask me to bow out. and i will. i hadn't eaten alot, until i got to the yacht club. then i had like three redvines. and at flute i had like a million m and ms. so i failed, again. i wanna be a supermodel... and so on. also, enlightening lyrics from a rap song. "Its not real to me, therefore it doesn't exist, so poof, vamoose son of a bitch." who knows how it fits or if it even makes sense to anyone but me. its like how you hear a song and you're like, wow, i've been there a few times myself. and you start to assiciate the song with the feelings then. its bad. i don't think this is one of the cases, but i've been saying how things shizzo my nizzo alot more. that might count. i hate rap.

2-17-03
KIRSTEN: 10:23 PM. Not to be annoying or anything but i am still insanely happy. I don't know exactly why. Maybe i'm just happy, wouldn't that be cool, that's what church was about yesterday. Unconditional joy. How you can be happy no matter what. Are you the kind of person who isn't just nice on nice days but on awful days? That's what everyone should aim for. The nicer you are, the happier you are too i think. I mean if you're being a beotch u generally feel like one and that's not happy. DOod i got a haircut today and did my toenails the other day, i thought i swore off nail polish o well. Sorry marilyn that ur pissed and everyone's being pissy around there, here too "there's books under your bed, u didn't clean ur room!" "yes i did" "it's not done, there's books everywhere" "there's not that many and i'm done" no your not done, u lied to me" "no i didn't" "well i want under ur bed cleaned out" "half the stuff under there's yours" "well that's in closed boxes, u need to put that stuff away" "well that's where it goes" "no its not" "sigh/eyeroll" Well i will be happy and nice despite it all, well kind of. Well i'll try. Our matching class rings idea died. Due tomorrow. Didn't study for latin and now its late and i'm making a cd. Love cds. Love everything. Happy happy happy, no i'm not on anything, except life, haha. Happy happy. Byebye.
MARILYN: 6:00pm. Long dumb weekend. Long dumb day. Sure, i had some fun this weekend, but i spent an awful lot more time in pain and agony and hating everything. fun eh? i have floot in an hour. i practiced the piece till my hands hurt and then did the hard parts again. i'm stupid. haha. i'm also bad at the floot. and hungry. and sore. and tired. not like sleepy, tired of this bull shit and life and stuff. if only i could sleep...
MARILYN: 10:30am. What the fuck am i doing awake at this ungodly hour?? the truth is i've been up since like 8:30. creepy. so i was doing leg lifts, but my tummy started hurting so i'm i'm icing it. i've also been reading, not the assigned reading or the e.l. doctorow reading though. You Remind Me of You. its from push, which is a very cool publisher of not huge authors and so on. i've liked all the books of theirs i've read. including this one. ths internet is being a poo ball. fuck. ok well then i gotta go.

2-16-03
MARILYN: 11:12pm. i hate my family. they ate my chocolate, they took my cordials (yes they did, i'm pissed), and they just generally don' appreciate me at all. i wish i could ditch town with kirst and her relatives. that might be fun. i'm really thirsty. that cause i'm eating pretzels (yes again). they are very salty and i love them that way. but i do get thirsty. i went to the bookstore. and spent like 2 hours there. my parents called my cell phone like 10 times (it was in the car) asking where i was and who i was screwing now and that sort of thing. i hate them. i did buy some books though. and my dad even footed the bill like they always say they will for once. i was happy. i think they felt bad about not trusting me at all and taking away any freedom i may have at one time had. basically i con't drive except to and from school. and i hate them. of course. mmmmm. if only there were something to draw my attention away from my horrible life that i loath ever so much. if only.
KIRSTEN: 5:09 PM. Well i went to church, i wonder if marilyn did like she said she was gonna. Well whatever. We had this guy who liked to jerk and lift his leg like he was gonna pee when he played the guitar, kinda like Elwood. Marilyn forgot to tell you what we did yesterday. We sat and jacuzzid and then met steeny half way to arizona (or so they said) and got our soccer sweathshirts, marilyn's a good chaeffeur, she even opened the door for me. Then the army surplus store, marilyn almost got a sailor hat, well kind of, and we looked at some weird bumper stickers about eating cats and so forth. Then to krispy kreme where marilyn bought a dozen donuts for the 4 of us and forced 2 down my throat, not literaly though. Then we had to pee after we took steeny home and so we drove towards pee and sancho and discovered we couldn't make it that far so we went to the mobil station where it was out of order so then we decided we just had to make it to babs' house, i was kinda pissed (no pun intended) and yelled about the golf traffic. They told me to shut up and we just missed the traffic and made it to her house in like 10 minutes so we could pee and she could go to her hair appointment and marilyn had to leave me on the sidewalk to get picked up. Rinz came over to my house last night and we watched Simone and Crossroads (she had to leave before crossroads was over but it is my new favorite movie) I decided i was gonna make Crossroads 2: The KirstenWitch project (my brother's idea for the name) This will consist of me and my brother in my truck with my video camera going on a road trip to vegas to pick up my cousin and then onto salt lake to see my other cousin who is being like jailed by her mother (her dad died a bit ago). Her mom decided that she was gonna be homeschooled, isn't allowed to see her step mom or like anyone and she's lying to everyone. We have to go rescue her. my mom says i'm too young but we'll sneak off in the middle of the night like britney spears, it'll be real authentic. My mom says i could at least go for valedictorian like her. I said well then should i plan to have sex with my lab partner too?? That would be bear so probably not. So i get to be the cool pregnant punk (except the whole punk and pregnant part, but at least i have punky hair) noey gets to be the popular biotch (although she's not that bad), my bro gets to be the annoying guy (except its my car and he's a little younger and uglier and well) Chels is britney (she's blond and sweet but not doing anything with her cousin, i hope, and not doing that whole karaoke scene, well...) My brother's going out with a certain baylor's relative. I am very excited, we've been planning this forever, i'm so bad at keeping secrets but its not exactly a secret and i haven't broken my promise not to tell mom. It makes me so happy. You'd think i was the one in love, but no, i like my brother's love life better anyway, partly cause he has one. So anyway I've been really happy since friday, everything's perfect and bright. Went for a walk with mom today for like an hour with our doggie. We actually talked and stuff, it was like real mother-daughter bonding. She listened to me and i listened to her and no one yelled and everyone was nice and she told me about the jobs she's had and her childhood and stuff and tried to give me advice although advice very rarely affects me, but she was at least being really nice. Maybe our relationship's turning around, she really is getting better after her "vacation". Yay, my life is good. Looking at colleges, trying to convince dad to buy me that truck. byebye.
MARILYN: 12:15pm. The sailing today thing died. I'll survive. If we were ll crazy we would go insane. thats jimmy buffet for you. love that man. now hes searching for his lost shaker of salt. ahhh.... i'm in that mood. one of those moods where i am so lost and s on. no direction that works. no option that i want. ugh, gotta go make plans.

2-15-03
MARILYN: 10:46pm. I saw Guru. like the movie. it was alot better than i had thought it would be. i mean seriously, it sounds really dumb, and it was only kinda dumb, and they broke into song alot, which i like in a movie. i just wish it happened in real life. ahhhh. i've been thinking, should i get a spot on the stunning singles list?? or am i just not stunning?? i'd believe it. we ate at great khan's or something. it was like do it your self stir fry. and i used chopsticks. poorly, but is that the point? it was really good though, if that counts for anything. where should i sleep?? i have to get up at 7, so the couch maybe, though its harder to get out ofthe couch since it like eats you as you sleep. i wonder where my pretzels got to. maybe mommy came in a nd took them. that would be like her. hmph. and my chocolate from my stunning valentines!!! uh oh, well i'm gonna go find that stuff while you uh, do you thing, right, word, cool....
MARILYN: 4:05pm. V-day was fun. my dates were beyond stunning. joe tryed to make plans with us like the day of, and i was like, uh, no thats not gonna work, you see, we make plans in advance... and so on. i mean seriously. why would i even want to go out with him and his pedifile brother on v-day instead of kirst. that is what the man who will someday be in my life (i hope) should know. make plans in advance or i will be snapped up by babs and kirst. so we went to a nice place that i chose (freaky huh? even i thought it was weird i found a nice one). the interesting thing about the place was the lamentable lack of couples. there were actually a number of threesomes and so on. when babs went to sign us in or whatever, they thought she had come with her parrents. hahahah,. i think that kirst and i do not lok that old, but to each his own. they won their soccer game too. it was the lst one, so now i can occupy more of their time, until lacrosse starts in about a week. woo. i might do that, isn't it sad? ya i think i won't though, because if i'm pissing so many people off by sailing on the damn team then i an't ive up a good thing like that. i wonder if they have the results from midwinters (where frank is) up yet? i'd like to know if he won, so i can avoid him like the plague to avoid his huge and menacing ego. hahahaha. right so i'm gonna go do some thing, whos knows what....

2-13-03
KIRSTEN: 9:10 PM. Just found a beattle haters website, i put it in our links section. I don't know what my persuasive essay will be. Maybe why we should be able to download music online, well no i'm not really sure i believe that, wherehouse is going out of business and my only music is their really cheap used cds. It'll be gone this weekend, i'll have to buy them out before that happens. I was informed that something me and baylor have been planning forever actually is gonna happen. Can't say anything else. YL today, dragged Pal along, he was kinda scared but not really. It was actually really boring and like no one came this time ever since mr. tittyman decided that no outside people are allowed on campus for lunch because those christian organizations are brainwashing us, haha. Some people are so funny. They're like paranoid about going to anything religous. It's not like we're gonna eat you alive or kill you if you don't know your catechism or something. By the way, what exactly is a catechism?? OUr latin shirts are gonna be so cool. We have 6 (sex)nymphs with incredible bodies who don't solvit their pudor. YAY!! would u wear that around campus, hmmm. I don't think it would get approved. Maybe i'll do why drugs should be legal, i mean less people would get hurt and probably less people would do them. Screwy society we have. I know why i can't do a persuasive essay, because no argument has only two sides. Its like what the sturgismobile was saying about 1 main stream and 4 concurrences and 2 dissents and 3 dissent concurrences, not that anyone understands that. I have lots of opinions but they're my own, not on sides, i don't believe in choosing sides. Can i write an essay on the danger of choosing sides?? I hate this assignment. There's too much grey area for that kinda assignment. None of my opinions can be really said in a sentence, or a paper. They're all just part of my morals. It's one big moral actually. I just know whats right and know whats wrong and so does everyone else, although sometimes they hide it from themselves and everyone else. if its something that is trivial and there is no right or wrong answer then i don't feel comfortable arguing one side. I can't argue if i don't believe it and no one cares or would understand what i believe, not that i could attempt to write it in any kind of formal essay. I can write it, just not like she wants us too. It would be cool if we could just make a persuasive argument about anything in any way and then get graded on how persuasive we are, screw the dumb evidence and all that. Maybe i can do my paper on why i can't do this paper, haha, seriously. Is my view of the world that much different? i suppose its supposed to be, according to that one verse about how you are not of this world anymore and anyone of this world will not understand you, or something like that. Is that what it means?? O now i'm confused. I write too much, was i persuasive about anything?? I thought of a deffinition for morals and ethics, did she already say this: Morals are what you believe in the abstract and ethics is how you've interpreted and applied morals. that works good. byebye.
MARILYN: 8:33pm. I haven't started the homework yet. its not gonna happen soon either, i think. i'm really not into it. i'm pathetic. haha. and my belly is aching. and i'm in a pissy mood for no real reason. bah. well maybe i'll go do something mildly productive. hahahahahha.

2-12-03
MARILYN: 6:43pm. long dull day. fun, right? ya. i'm not so talkative right now. i'll get back to you or whatever. oh, ps, we're eating at La Bruschetta in La Lalla. at 6:30. woo. the guy was totally looking at me funny when i said i wanted a table for 3. haha. right so its nice sounding. like the food sounds really good, and its not horribly expensive. its al under $20, unless kirsten orders the steak and lobster on a bed of caviar. ahaha, we'll kill you kirst. don't worry, j/k. but you'll get to pay for that. haha. right so we've got reservations!! woo, it only took like 3 hours!! damn that george's. hmph.

2-11-03
MARILYN: 9:03pm. i had a good day till sailing. funny how that works. oh screw it, i'm just gonna go do something else.

2-10-03
KIRSTEN: 8:01 PM. Had a game and then Babs' dad took me to their house and i chilled while my dad finished his meeting and came to get me. I got home like an hour ago and have been milling around, procrastinatong so i don't have to write my way overdue and underresearched asian stalker article. I just remembered i think i have a meeting with the school computer people tomorrow and mr. brown too. My shins hurt like freakin hell. I had to sit out like the entire first half just to stretch and rest them and then still couldn't really run. I'm icing them now, it doesn't really help but probably cause the little baggie is like a quarter the size of my shin. Some people are really annoying, especially in a group where they're convinced everyone is watching them closely and thinks that its cool to be annoying and especially when they're showing off and think people enjoy watching them be annoying and envy them for it or something. Ok i don't know what else so i guess that means i should start on my asian stalker stuff. I hate having to write and underresearched article in like an hour at most when i'm all stressed out. Howework's not so bad cause if you don't do it you only mess up yourself. If i don't do this article then they have to redo the layout and put either exeter math or a very large picture in the cover story spot. It won't be good and they told me to make it good. Why did i volunteer for this?? Never again!!! So i have 2 gorgeous dates for valentines also. All of which are single. COincidence...? bye
MARILYN: 4:26pm. I'm standing next to bed bed where the computer is typing this. i'm trying to stretch out these ballet shoes so i wo't have to buy new ones. it would seem my feet have grown a wee mite since the 7th grade when mommy gave me her old shoes. god she used to be skinny. she was telling me (in between yelling bout of course) about how these were too big on her because of how wide they are. i would beg to differ on the wide thing. these are itsy bitsy. i hope they get bigger or my feet shrink. its not going well so far. i think i need a tylenol already. grow shoes grow!!! args. the worst part is the heels. like i think i'm getting a blister just standing here, this would be hell for a dance or something. i could obiviously fix that if the rest of the shoe fit, but right now i feel like cinderella's sisters who had giant feet and it was a joke that they even try on the shoe. well i'm gonna go "work" get back to me.

2-9-03
MARILYN: 5:11pm. I'm a wee bit screwed. My parents seem to not trust me at all, and so i found out that catch me if you can, as in the movie, was not shown on friday night at around 8. woops. so now i have to be home by 3:00pm every day unless i make plans ahead of time. I guess i better tell them about my v-day extravaganza with my two gorgeous dates. i'm a little too mad to say much else, i mean i wasted the day with boring people who live in vista. i think thats a vague enough place, there are like 1000000 vistas just in this city. i should go do homework anyways. later....

2-8-03
MARILYN: 11:31pm. I had a nine o'clock curfew tonite. it was pretty lame. though i guess babs and i were done having our fun more or less at that point so it didn't really matter. i've been doing nothing ever since, though i said i was going to do my homework. oh well, i'll do it tomorrow up near where kirst lives. but unfortunately not there. a bit further north. where she took her drivers test. ya fun. relatives. it'll be a treat i'm sure. there used to be a cute nice 2nd cousin up there, but he graduated as most people do, so hes at college now leaving me with the young ones. and the old ones. a real fucking treat. i went out with babs today. we were supposed to have dates, but they bailed on us last minute. i even shaved my legs (poorly mind you) and everything. not to say i shaved everything, but i did my legs. which takes forever and seems to have broke the water heater. right so i'm in bed typing and sad. hows the world of kirsten lynn henderson??? teehee.

2-7-02
MARILYN: 11:33pm. I got in a few mintues ago. my mommy was barfing on the floor of the kitchen. cute i tell you. she really didn't notice i was late, so life goes on. i was at dinner and stuff with All, Sancho, and his unusual uncle. we were at the pizza place where All works, so every one knew him and stuff. cute. i'm verging on tired, so i think i'll wander towards bed if theres nothing else you require of me. also, i've noticed we've built up quite a readership. thank you and we love you!!!

2-5-03
MARILYN: 7:42pm. its a little earlier. just wanted to say i'm alive, so far. sadly. i just don't think i'm good enough to do this shit. i'd cry, but i can't seem to force the tears, again. i need to go. who knows why. 2-4-03
MARILYN: 11:19pm. I'm so tired. but not like sleepy tired, just sick of it all. and we;re two days into school. i have this gigantic english thing, and no motivation. except to get a B in the damn class for the semester. i think i'll do better this time. i hope at least. the author project sounds cool, and i've already read the yellow wall paper so i have a tiny advantage. i loved it. i didn't really get it all at first, but its so cool. i could just take a sicky for english, but then i'd have to do it tomorrow with the new test shit and the spanish that seems never ending. and so on. i still don't know for sure how i did in chem. funny. i hope i for an A. Cross your fingers. funny how it works, life i mean. i've finally been sad enough for long enough to be ok (kinda) with that. like ok, so i'm depressed, its the norm. we had this college night thing today. thats why i'm up so late. cause i had sailing till then. i finally got up the balls to tell robertito i'm not gonna skipper. yay. i also officially declared my intention to quit club. he didn't seem torn up about it, somehow. is there nothing i'm good at?? ok i take it back. is there nothing i'm good at and enjoy?? (that was a math and science reference). well about now i have to choose. stay up for another hour or two doing english or put it off?? so many distractions and so little time. i think i'd like to sit and cry. still. last night i fell asleep doing my english. i was lying in bed reading and suddenly it was 3 in the morning and the lights were on and my shoulder hurt from lying on it funny. that was another late night, but its ok. i don't need sleep, i just like it. or thats how i figure. i'm coughing still. my throat hurts like a mo fo. and my whole head throbs with ever move i make. and i find my self closing my eyes to the brightness of the screen. whats wrong in this damn world? now i'm goign through college things i got while i was gone. and saying good bye. right now, i think my best hope is Texas Christian University. AHH!!!! heres one in oregon. i'd never get into a school in oregon. woah, the date is from my half birthday. coolness. Heres one from minnesota. I think i could to that. after reading it, i think it will be a reach school. they have people who go onto grad school. a little to prestigious for my grades. And heres seattle university. well, although seattle sounds hard to get in to, i bet they have a great coffee scene, and the envelope is nice. it is jesuit, and i'm not sure if that kosher. oooo, they must like me, they sent a booklet. wow, maybe if the jesuit thing isn't what its all about i could go there. a summer school offer from UCSD. i should do it just to suck up. the next is a girls college. the thing just says they aren't a finishing school. i suppose thats a good thing, though i do think i could use some finishing. you can major in dance. that is so cool. i wanna do that. major in dance!! St. Mary's of CA. they have a nice stamp. this one got amiled on the day i was legal to drive people. coolness. i think i might have gotten thisone already. like a while ago though, before i started saving them. the next was an SAT prep course thing. that i don't want to waste money on. OH OH OH OH!! i got something else from university of chicago. oh, its just the summer session info. that i'm not gonna deal with, yet anyways. i want to be able to feel summer before i decide what to do to it. poor summer. i got a really big one from ithaca. thats near where joe is from. thats arcade boy, by the way. ithaca has a newspaper. oooo. the copy in this one is 32 pages, and free. very cool. ok tuition is too much. 21,000 as tuition, room, board, and insurance are extra. fuck thats pricy. i could beat the midrange SAT scores though. woo. and its not too huge. they really aren't giving me a GPA though. silly people in New York. they have a music education major. thats what i want now. i'll be a double then. dance and music education. YAY! you can also major in PE. but then i'd be like dotty. ugh. and the last is a huge thing from manoa. uinversity of hawaii at manoa. sorry. it was founded the same year as the destroyer (my current school). meant to be i tell you. they also hve hawaiian as a major. i like the sound of that! i did like that campus. and the WARM WATER!!!! well, i think i'm just gonna go to bed, screw english. i'll do it at some point. i'd love to stay home tomorrow. ah... but no, i have school, no time for the sick and tire. good night.

2-3-03
KIRSTEN: 6:49PM. Well good for marilyn and babs, picking up guys in the arcade, haha. I do have to say it is pretty impressive he called an hour later. OK so anyway today was back to school. Latin i got an A for the sem. English we got assigned 2 huge projects and I got a C on the final and a B- for the sem. Marilyn got a B- B- C C. Kinda dumb grading if you ask me. We had a presentation on skin cancer and Poy had this perpetual look of fright and disgust on her face. Everyone was all of a sudden freaking out that they were gonna die of skin cancer. Geeze if they're gonna die, they could die from anything. So then journalism. We got some new people and it was my first day as an editor. I tried to leave with the non-editors when they yelled at me to come back, haha. I"M AN EDITOR!!! I am one of the elite powerful journalism oligarchy. ONline editor, how appropriate, except i can do like 2 things with html. I've been waiting for this for like a year. Marilyn is my unofficial co-editor. The staff box and top ten are freaking hilarious this issue, its gonna be the best one, coming out on valentines day, i can't tell you what they are though. So then Chem I got my usual B. He said the Chemistry gods were smiling on us. We did a weird lab, our entire lab table is like demented. I guess dumb people gravitate towards the edges. We have fun though. SO ya did i mention i found out yesterday afternoon that our research paper rough draft is due next monday. Ya kinda scary, but the Sturgismobile explained it wasn't as bad as we thought. Guess what i got in that class. I got an A- for the sem!! It was like unheard of. B- A- A A-. Holy crap. Poy didn't understand why i was so excited. I got a 100% on the scantron and a 92 on the essay!! I thought she forgot to grade my scantron cause there were no marks at all. haha. As you can see i like broadcasting my grades, the sturgismobile would hate me. My mom was home for the weekend and went to my soccer game and brought these cute hippy cups and snacks, circus animals and goldfish, my favorite. Babs was awesome today even though she claimed that woman comes before abs. She took my pos but i got center mid. I had a break away but messed up cause i was confused by the complete silence, well and i just screw up like that. I'm dropping photo 2 cause i have no time. My mom's staying till tomorrow. Babs said in the bathroom, "If we had cups I'd take like 6 advil" Well we thought she meant like jock strap kinda cups, haha. Mommy and i are getting along great now, its great, i even am respecting her and stuff. I sent an email to my friends from palm desert. byebye.
MARILYN: 1:44am. i'm still up. sadly one might say. but do you know what he said to me today? the frank. he said i had given him more sleepless nights than the navy. why does it all come at once. i think i'm gonna cry for the next 4 and a half hours. wondering what decision brought me here, and why i can't ever make them anymore. its like i have no Id. sorry, i've been reading the psychology book for the novel i'm writing. and i'm just like Id-less. The Id is the pleasure center. its the thing that says i need food and sex and i want more toys and candy. all i want is friends. and needless to say my superego is ok with that. the superego is your morals and social responsibility. the ego supposedly balances them. maybe my ego died. egoless idless and alone. just my damn superego. telling me to do my home work and not stay up late and not to swear and not to write on strangers. right now it doesn't seem fair. ID!! there you are my precious Id. i love you never leave me again. seems like that won't work. i need to get into school. a school where i can party and stay out late. 4 id-less years in exchange for 4 years of Id central. well, my song set is almost over. and i said i'd go to bed at the end of it. i talked t sancho for a while. it was nice, just talking and not thinking right away. i haven't bathed in a while. i'll do that in the morning. so i gotta get up at 6. thats only 4 hours from now, so maybe i'll try to nap breifly. its just one of those up late nights i'd generally do that thing i do. i won't, so don't spaz, but its like that. the last one where i freaked out. i oughta get a treadmill for nights like this. to soothe myself into sleep with running. woo? well the songs are over so i think i'll crash. and burn. maybe thats not appropriate given current events and all. well to damn bad. good night! or morning i guess.

2-2-03
MARILYN: 11:52pm. i'm up late and i have school. woo fucking hoo.
MARILYN: 9:08pm. Went to the arcade with babs and found that i suck at basketball. my life is over. but something funny happened at the arcade. babs and i were just fucking around, as we generally do, when i boy walked up and started talking to us. this was not displeasing, as both of us currently lack members of the opposite sex to lead around by the nose. at the end of this exchange, we ended up with his number and he ended up with ours. like both mine and babs, of course. so about an hour later we're eating dinner and he calls. like woah, ok that was fast. we after putting him off for a bit to pickat our food we called him back and we got ourselves dates for next saturday. Kinda funny, i'm like jumping form one boy to the next. woo, i suppose. woo indeed. also today, we are slightly more than halfway towards the tea set (with a case) in the arcade. that is somehting to woo about. WOO!!!!
MARILYN: 12:20pm. I think i just found the meaning of life. cutting, weaving and dribbling. i may also take up basketball. we shall see. does anyone play basketball? i think you cut and weave in that. or maybe that was soccer. oh fuck. i wasn't any good at soccer. perhaps i shall go for a run and ponder this.
MARILYN: 11:41am. i woke up at 8. i've been sitting in bed doing nothing since then. i'm going to enjoy the fudge out of this last day of vacation. by sitting in bed whining about how theres nothing to do it would seem. like 12 days til valetines. woo. ya right. frankie leaves for florida soon i think. we broke up a while ago, if i didn't say that already, cause i don't remember if i did. i've been sad, but its nice being single too. none of that intimacy bull shit. no one you have to tell everything to. its nice keeping somethings to yourself. no its not, who do i kid. yesterday was nice. i had a day/night out on the town. the caddy was making funny noises so daddy made me take the van, which was fun. i guess. if you call fun driving a huge van that can't go around corners and takes every bump and hole like a huge thingie deal then ya. so i drove kirst around alot. and treked through north county. and got my babs too. then dropped them off at various places and hung out at a super market with the sanch. click here to make a lonely little girl like me happy. teehee. there isn't alot else to say. i think i'll go shower (all the while thinking of you) and do some laundry so i have underwear. you follow? good....

2-1-02
KIRSTEN: 12:24 PM. Wow i've been gone a long time. I was in palm desert and I had some fun although it wasn't exactly a pleasure trip. I met some really nice, cool people and they had southern accents that started to rub off on me. ya my hair is blond on the ends too but not nearly as cool as marilyn's. At the really nice hotel where we were staying there were these ducks that would jump in the pool and swim around and then jump out and beg for food by quacking and bobbing their little heads, it was adorable. I want a pet duck, no i want 2. Did u know that ducks mate for life?? They're so cute too, they walk around together and quack at each other. My mom's home for the weekend. I feel kinda guilty cause my dad said he was feeling hurt that i wasn't staying home today (i'm going shopping with marilyn and babs and then somewhere with lindsey) but i mean i've been with the fam all week and I'll see them all tomorrow, i've never felt guilty about going out before, it must be all the family crap they taught us. I did miss my mom though and i gave her this little palm tree with a frog looking at it, its so cute. I still haven't gotten babs and b-day present from november, i feel bad cause they got me stuff in Hawaii, including a muumuu it sounds like. I miss my palm desert group and i miss the ducks and the crickets and not being at home but when i was there i missed having my own room and all my friends. ok enough writing. Human beings are worth a lot more than we give them credit. byebye.
MARILYN: 10:56am. Its still morning. bah. its nice to be in your own home and all, with a comfy comfy bed, but my morning has not gone exactly as planned. i tryed to get up early to see of frank and pillory. but i didn't here the alarm go off. i was gonna give him all the stuff i got him in hawaii and a note wishing him luck in all his regattas and stuff. you know what i mean? well, i guess now i have more time to write the note. somewhere i read that no one you love will make you cry and if they do then they aren't "the one". i wonder.... anyways, i'd like to go shower the last of the hawaiian water and salt out of my hair (i went swimming right before we got on the plane). well, not that i want to, but it seems i'd like to go out this afternoon and evening, and i'm hoping old man river will agree with me. he is the nicer parent, so i guess i have some chance. well, i don't know what else to say. i mean, i could tell you about The Fruit Connection, but then someone might take our idea. and i could tell you about the coconut dropping, but then babs would look very very strange. and i could tell you about our plans for a return trip to hawaii, but babs' groom doesn't yet know that it is his calling to do that, and the rest don't need to see how pathetic we are trying to teach babs' children how to surf. but we get to wear muumuus, young kirsten lynn and i, so i figure thats enough, and i'm going to shower. right then.
MARILYN: 11:06am. Oh fuck, its feb. i'll change it later ok? good boy. god this month will suck monkey ass. or blow fatty goat nuts. or something of the sort. ugh.
MARILYN: 10:50pm. WannaGoWeee: "i believe the expresion you were looking for was lick red donkey balls." i agree. v-day sucks. feb sucks. life sucks. suck suck suck. and i don't even have a cock. hmph.