3-31-03
MARILYN: 10:25pm. I'm so screwed. I should be doing homework. in fact thats what i'll go do. i only have like 3 more hours... p.s. if you'd like to screw me, give me a ring, i'm bored as, well, fuck over hereand would really appreciate it if someone could alliviate this damn viginity problem for me.

3-30-03
MARILYN: 8:22pm. Nothing ever happens to me, but i thought i'd share that so you all know i'll still alive. sadly. well get back to me on that, at school tomorrow. boo.

3-saturday?-03
MARILYN: 5:35pm. I got some books at the library and bored and la la la. nothing ever happens in PL. will you hold me and love me and tell me i'm special? i didn't think so...
MARILYN: 11:09am. its near the end of march and the end of break. whih is lame. but i'm ready to be out of the god damn house. my parents decided i have to buy my own gas now, but they refuse to give me enough money to feed a dead bird. so i'm screwed. i guess i'll just keep using the gas card till they take it away. they are dumb, with any luck they'll forget. its too early to have done much else, yet somehow i've managed. i bought a shirt at Amvets. Its silky and blue with stripes and stuff. very cool. and i drove around a bit. i think that they must realize by giving me the equivolent of no gas i will be rather unmotivated to listen to them, or ome home occasionally like i do now. screw parents. yes, screw parents...

3-a day later-03
MARILYN: 10:41pm. Babs and I bought a 60s love songs CD and now its stuck in my head. The highlight, in my mind, is "You were made for me" by Freddie and the Dreamers. I love it. its cute. la la la la. we ate at the brewery. it was really good, and only a little out of the old budget. ya so i don't know what else to say besides we're a bunch of losers and you ust be one too, if your readin this anyways....

3-something-03 (i know its wednesday, asked the lady in longs)
MARILYN: 6:09pm. I've spent the last few days out. Poy had a shindig. then i did some library and la jolla with babs. we saw chicago. it was good, i mean i don't know if it was best picture of the year good, but i hear there wasn't alot of competition. i still want to see the hours. come on, virginia woolf, who would pass that up? not i! i have like a million notecards spread around my floor. most of them are useless, but i like to think that i'll use a few of them. i have to go back to the library and figure out how to use the micro film dealies and then i'll be mostly done researching, for now. i also have to read a book, that it seems no one but UCSD has. that makes me somewhat pissy. cause i am not a friend of the library, so i cannot check these things out, and i do not wish to read a 200 page book in a library, because that would cost me like 100000 dollars in meter money. i think i'm going to go do something, what, i'm not so sure...

3-23-03
MARILYN: 9:41pm. So that was kirst. i swear i wrote something earlier today, but it would seem not. uh, nothing has happened today. i had kind of a sucky day. i haven't left the house, and only my room once or twice. i' supposed to clean the car. i don't want to though, so i'm not going to. they treat me like i'm 12. and i hate it. chicago won best picture. now i have to go see it. i thik thats all. good night.
KIRSTEN: 2:05 PM. TX tomorrow!!!! I am so excited, going with my mom, it'll be fun, making a cd of all tx songs. Won't tell u where i'm going though. I'm gonna see if stalker wrote in the guest book again. Gotta pack and go to a YL dinner. annoying bro doing his snort half laugh on the phone next to me. TEXAS FOREVER!!!! now he's just snort laughing at me. ya marilyn said what we did yesterday. I love the name marilyn. Babs is dumb if she doesn't name her children after us. byebye.

3-22-03
MARILYN: 10:42pm. well its been a few days, sorry about that. Thursday i went to a peace thing downtown, which was a pretty big deal and stuff. i was there with a vietnam veteran and he was way into it. and then friday i didn't really have alot of shit during the day to do, which was weird since it was last day of third quarter. which means now is spring break!! woo!! so to celebrate, me and babs went out. it had been a while, so we had to stock up the car again with unhealthy food. i swear i haven't stopped eating since thursday afternoon. but anyways, we went to the mildly moronic concert, which isn't the name but ya know, gotta hide where we live for our darling stalker. by the way, kirst is going to your home land, keep an eye out for her. go texas! and so the concert was really good, but the first pening band was, uh, interesting. bargain music, was the name i think? they were, no my style? and Pepper was really good. and of course, mildly moronic, was awesome, but they brought out a rap group mid set so at that point we left, since, homies don't play that game. babs stayed here, and we didn't sleep together, which was of course a huge let down since i have a twin bed and with both of us in it its kinda tiny. though not as little as tree's bed, which is good i guess. so today we shopped and me, kirst and babs all have formal attire now. mine's different from theirs, which are similar, but we all look good. i guess i'm the least formal, but i've never looked good in anything nice so this way is cheaper. haha. we got frozen yogurt and then i went home, but got over that fast so i went back up to sancho's house. we watched the funny people on that funny channel. comedy central. and i thought about how much i want cable, and how unfair life is. ya. so now i'm watching a woman read the faces of the people nominated for oscars to tell which one is going to win. i'm like, okkk. and now i' like going to do something else. i'll be back tomorrow, as always.

3-19-03
MARILYN: 6:31pm. i have NO motivation. which isn't that weird, but i like don't even wanna get my back back out of the car. pathetic. theres just nothing to hand in tomorrow so i see no point. i mean reading, who does that? right... so instead i'm watching that 70s show. i had two dinners today. and nothing else, but thats not my point. one involved shortcake. the other was mexican. my music teacher bought an alto flute and i haven't gotten a chance to play it yet, since shes sick, but maybe tomorrow! woo... i can't find any music for it though, and its in a different key than normal flutes so its all pooy in terms of what have you and so on. right then. and here i sit. thinking about nothing. i take that back. now i'm thinking about the jr. questionairre. i don't know what to say in a few places. i'm like uh. yup. funny tv. funny. ok well i guess i'll go since theres little else to say. later dorks and dorkuses.

3-18-03
KIRSTEN: 7:58 pm. I'm back, life's been crazy. Latin convention was freakin fun. ROAD TRIP. Pia and i got hit on by hot lax boys, more ROadTrip. casa de choochoo. haha. nice hotel, scary movies. Sunday night pulled my first all nighter, literally never got in bed. Printed it out my parents said i had to go to school, showered and left. I was hallucinating and stuff. Got home at 5 last night. Fell asleep and never woke up again, till 2:30 in the morning. So haven't written in my diary for a long time, let alone this diary. SO planning my college trip to TX now. My stress at bishop's is done. No more major work ever again. I'm done. Blowing off HW. You'd think i was a sr, not a jr. I hear we have a stalker from TX that signed our guest book, maybe i'll see him there. If you're reading this then why were u awake at 6 in the morning? and are u a dirty old man looking for porn? haha, sorry if u r. bye.
MARILYN; 6:56pm. ya, i'm doing the damn outline. fuck bunnies its no fun at all. though i'm starting to become mildly interested in my topic. never a good sign. anyhoot, i'dwrite more but friends will be on in a sec and like i said i'm slaving away over this outline. later lovers.

3-17-03
MARILYN: 8:56pm. G. Dubs gave a little speech today. very cute. i didn't do my outline. guilt. i did some of my other homework though. go me? anyways, good night.

3-16-03
MARILYN: 1:02am. well its tomorrow if you're going to get all bitchy but i just realized something. were it not for my mother, kirst and i would be in DC having a good time at journalism camp. if only....
MARILYN: 9:30pm. if you're reading this, don't forget to wear green tomorrow. yup, its a dumb holiday in a dumb world where if you dont wear the right color on the right day you get pinched. i think its an extension of the government trying to make us conform. speaking of which, i'm thinking i might conform one of these days. its so much easier to say "freedom fries, what a good idea" and "wow, our president is so cool, i mean look, he chokes on pretzels" with out a hint of sarcasm. tell it to the man? i think not! tell it to the mindless drones like me who are too dumb to stand up for anything they tell me isn't the right thing. god damn i hate this. why couldn't we live in a world where its ok to be different, where theres not a department of homeland security spying on us every minute of everyday waiting till we slip up to send us to jail without fair trial. why why why. god the wrong decade i tells ya. somebody send me some pot or something, i need out of my head. in other news, my brother has the shower on, and it sounds like rain. pretty rain. wear green. conform. that was a summary for people who can focus for very long. i am so helpful. bye byes.

3-15-03
MARILYN: 12:27pm. i'm watching SNL. its funny, but it used to be better. like the old old ones on comedy central. god i hate having no cable. i saw madtv before this. i can't even remeber what i used to do on saturday nights, i mean what is there besides bad comedy stuff? ya... i drove all over my "ghetto" in search of girl scout cookies today. the third store is a charm i guess. i got up around 1. i'm gonna go to bed around 1. i didn't do any of the homework i was supposed to do today, so i guess it'll get done tomorrow, maybe. hehe. and i want to go out too. i'll just have a shitty outline. la la la. i mean, what does she want, 12 pages?? whatever. i'm gonna go now, cause the rain sounds pretty in the commercials.

3-14-03
MARILYN: 10:53pm. Twas a good night and not an awful day. i have decided that i must be a good bull shitter or something because i did alright on the new test test and i haven't read the bible yet this quarter. i didn't all last semester either. oh well. and i sure as hell passed that class!! i got an A- on the exam, thanks to the help of kirst the night before when she slept over. we have sucha work ethic. in a way. english just wasn't the same with out my comrades who were off at this latin thing. i'm in that mood. it seems as though its a good on though. la la la. i should record this, this "good mood" as it seems to be somewhat rare today. oh well, off to watch the 11 o'clock news as it seems someone died where i met eric for dinner tonight. a dude, a cop, and another dude, and all the people who were in the gas station had to leave their cars there for evidence or something and erics not legal to drive so he was all following the speed limit and stuff. we had good mexican, really good. well anyways, i gots to go...

3-13-03
MARILYN: 8:42pm. GOODL LUCK YOUNG KIRSTEN LYNN!!! You and a bunch of sex nymphs. or something like that. it says so on the sweatshirts. no i swear... well right then. i'm watching tv. and doing english at the same time! I NEED CHOCOLATE. woops sorry. so anyways, even though i gave up bras for lent, i just put one on. i have no self esteem. you see, i've missplaced my boobs. they used to be like bigger. right? so anyways, i was feeling all sad, so i put on a push up padded thing and i feel a little better. i blew off sailing again today. so i haven't sailed all week, goodridence. i'm too fat anyways. god i hate that. fuck fuck fuck. i'm going to go eat or something. comfort food. damn damn damn. well right, i should go "work". loves and hugs and kisses.
KIRSTEN: 7:04 PM. I've been gone again. HW and stuff and last night due to a lax game at 7:30 at night which started late. Babs and i like barely played but it was fun anyway. We got wooped 14-3. But it was TP and they had 400 people try out for the team, one of them was a man. under the circumstances we did pretty good. Rinz and Pea are comin over later cause we're off to the wonderful world of latin tomorrow. I got my own credit card in the mail today and activated it. yay! It says my name and everything. We have cool latin sweatshirts. Don't have to go to school tomorrow cause we're going to latin!!! We're gonna have a road trip and multiple latin parties. Wow we're dorks, someone's here, probably my dad with my dinner. Gotta do research for the paper, ya my dad. byebye.

3-12-03
MARILYN: 11:03pm. i feel sick. i was going to type about something mildly relevent, but the promptly forgot what it was. somehow i was inspired you see. perchance i'll go work on my new bio, which is still in progress so i'm not going to give you the link. or my song of the week thing, which you can find on my current bio page thingie. its at the bottom. right well i'm gonna sit here and do bible and try not to throw up. and then fall asleep in the waiting arms of the nearest prince, who will wisk me away to a castle in the sky. perchance made of sand, with the waves beating down upon the shore, but none the less, i sit and wait.
MARILYN: 5:11pm. Kirst and babs and co have lacrosse. thats like my entire group of friends, so i've been a little bored. i need to go do some work though, so maybe i'll come back later. later.

3-11-03
KIRSTEN: 6:26 PM. Dood marilyn if u weigh 90 pounds i will kill you, o wait i won't have to, u'll probably be dead already. No more comments cause i know its a control issue or whatever so i'll let you have your control but coudn't you control something that's good for yourself or good for others instead of just freaking everyone out and hurting yourself. Well sorry i've been absent everyone else but its been end of 3rd quarter hell. I realized though that in like a week my paper will be done and i can coast through the rest of bishops. Just 4th quarter and senior year. This week is probably the worst part of my HS career. 3rd quarter jr. yr at the hell hole. Well its not that bad though. I mean i'm really tired but that was kinda from the dance and babs' house and then staying up till 4 in the mornin at lana's house. Well shower than paper. I'm actually really good at getting stuff done when i'm forced into a corner like this. I feel like i'm on top of it. Well hopefully i am. bye.
MARILYN: 3:35pm. isnt it sad when you can remember back in the good old days when you were good at something and yet you're only 16? when did i get so bad at sailing. there were only 5 people today, so i left. i have better things to do than sit in a boat watching pillory and quincer sail. oh to weigh 90 lbs??

3-10-03
MARILYN: 7:14pm. i only got home from school an hour ago. i just never got around to leaving. thank god theres no flute tonight, we all need a break. a very very long break. anyways i've gotta go work or something. later.

3-9-03
MARILYN: 6:53pm. i just woke up frmo my nap. there was a surprise party for lahna so we all slept at her house, and well, sleep was the wrong word to describe that. when i got home, i turned on QVC and fell asleep. this was at 12:30. so i got a nice nap. before that i ate thin mints and rasberries. they are so good together. we got superior at the music thing. yay!! but regionals is the day after prom, so i guess i can't go. i guess it means the troop will do better. i'm still tired, so i'm gonna do home work. yuck. hurrah for school??

3-8-03
MARILYN: 1:34pm. yesterday was the tri school dance. it was alright, except for that they played shitty music the whole time and the refreshments were pretty good. we didn't manage to get any boys in our princess outfits, which was sad. oh well, at least we got to use the dresses again. a good sound $15 investment. well i've got to go play the flute for half an hour and then drive out to spring valley (YUCK) to be told just how bad at this "floot" thing i am. yay for competitions!!

3-6-03
MARILYN: 7:01pm. I am loving this me first and the gimme gimmes redo of I am A rock. orginally by simon and garfunkel. the second looks earily like a certain ex-boyfriend. strange i tell you. really nothing else ever hapens to me. Sailing sucks wth out rebak. i have to deal with pillory and quinter. a very un fun situation. i wish i could just let myself quit. i wish i could quit. oh well. i should go do home work so that i can go to bed tonight. g'night adoring fans.

3-5-03
MARILYN: 6:26pm. What does Edna do?? You gotta tell me. Like everyone else has already read the whole book and they were all like, Well, it'll make more sense later... and i was like ack! its not due yet, don't over achieve!!! they ignored me, i think. overachievers. fudge, parents home. well the point is that i'm sorry your stressed kirst, get better ok?? rinzy may was all bent out of shape too. she slept like all day. so i was pretty much alone in english. it was sad... i have recovered though, and now i'm pissy about this history test that we got like no time on and stuff. right. and shes dropping a quiz. the infamous BBB i mean. so she sent home an academic warning and i have an A in her class at the moment. she is a little pissed at me though, so maybe a B+. i will persever and survive however. if i get around to that test... i also have bible shit. and spanish i'm not gonna do. fun stuff i tell ya. well i guess i'm off for now then, as i should procrastinate in an other way, such as INSANAQUARIUM!!!! i am so pathetic...
KIRSTEN: 5:16 PM. I stayed home today and didn't go to lax yesterday. I was sick but i think it was mostly cause i'm stressed and tired and that made me sick. I feel better now. I read the entire The Awakening today. It was good. We're kinda like that in fact excepting all the love affairs and stuff. The whole trapped by societal conventions that we must live with our parents and those laws that say we can't disobey our parents or have our own property. Its like the rules against women a long time ago that said all that submit to ur husbands junk. That kinda goes with what marilyn says. We all want to move out but we can't. I hope no one does what Edna does at the end, she was doing so well and it was so sad. bye.

3-4-03
MARILYN: 5:00pm. it was a long day. and i ditched sailing. and so on. really theres not much to say. i hate my mother, father, and brother. i wish to die. ispelled that sie at first. fruedian slip (in a way) if you're in on that whole thing. which no one whose reading this is. well nevermind then i guess. i love josie and the pussycats. i need to move out. and things along those lines.

3-3-03
KIRSTEN: 8:47 pm. I used 3/4 of a tank of gas since saturday morning. That sux cause i have to pay for it. I did have to drive all the freakin way to el freakin cajon today. The reason i'm doin this now is cause i left my english essay in my school folder and didn't email it to myself so i cant work on it. I wonder how much she takes off for late work, it was a pile of crap before. Well at least i don't have to do it now and i'm tired. So ya got the sweathsirts in el cajon and then went to phizbeths for a little latin club. We ate trader joes cheese puffies that said unburied treasure on the bag. We talked. I'm ordering the sweatshirts tomorrow after schooler. We're having a mediterranean banquet so if u want to come buy tickets in a couple weeks. I went to practice at school too and they divided us up funny, i dunno what they're doing. I missed babs and don't know what i'd do if they actually put us on seperate teams, although that is very unlikely. I had a fight with my mom over cleaning up clothes. I wasn't allowed to leave before i cleaned stuff up and then i did and then she called and said i left my lax clothes there so i went back and then she told me i couldn't leave again till i cleaned up the stuff SHE put on my chair. arghhh!! I kinda screamed and actually cussed and stuff, i was so angry cause i was already late and SHE PUT IT THERE!! SO then when i called to tell her i was coming home she said that my sweatshirts were on top of my shoe shelf in my closet instead of hung up and if i couldn't take care of my simple responsiblities then they were gonna park my car until i can. I knew that would happen and i told her that. That's exactly y i didn't want them buying the car and that's exactly y they did buy it. They can control me with it. Its not like i need controlling. I never do anything seriously bad. I mean how important can moving my darn sweaters from the shelf to being hung up be. Its such a dumb thing. The principle makes me so mad. I hate nitpicky people who just find something to obsess over and be annoying about and then just run with it. I swear she just makes me do stuff because she thinks it will break me or something, like if she forces me to clean my stuff up i've finally submitted to authority and that's our goal here. She doesn't understand she can't change me anymore. I was done being taught by her about 5 or 6 years ago and now she's just making my life hell. At least if my life's hell they aren't spoiling me. That's another thing. They think they spoiled me as a child so now they need to make me miserable to make up for it. That's not the greatest parenting method. DArn it she's home. My dad's out of town. Driving the bro to school tomorrow. bye.
MARILYN: 5:12pm. Wicked cool date. right. anyways, i had the day off because the staff needed a day of developement. props to them!! mommy was gone most of the day so i got little done, but my draft paper is almost done. go me!! i haven't done a whole lot else. i mean i looked at my math that was due a long time ago, but i didn't really get it. and i've been thinking about my long overdue scarlet letter fixer upper, but again, no luck. and i was supposed to organize my music, since its in a "heap" in my back seat, but i didn't really get around to it. i wish only had to do this paper. its turning out half way decent, in my opinion. which might translate into a B- for monkeytwits. woo!! i also looked at the course catalogue for next year. i don't know what to take. for english mostly. and whether i should just blow my parents off and not take physics. i guess we'll see. since i will major in the liberal arts (haha, or so say the parents) who realy needs physics?? i mean if i was gonna do physics, i could see it, but i don't even like physics from my limited experience with it. blah, i'd rather have an easy senior year. and take classes i'm interested in. i'd have 6 classes both semesters if i took physics. taht would blow goat nuts. and that lab!! oh horrid lab!! i would rather take genetics and say screw you ivy leagues!! haha, i'm a freak... so what was i saying?? go draft!! er i mean, well who really knows. its so hard to have opinions. i found a really funny quote. its something along these lines: "if theres a war they'll put it between the superbowl and baseball season." i thought it was so funny that someone else thought it was all just shits and giggles for the congressmen who it doesn't afect. anyhow, my op-ed is over, have a good noche.

3-2-03
MARILYN: 10:16pm. I'd just like to say that yesterday was the 1st of March, not the 29th of feb. its only got 28 days ya see. right then. so i haven't been home in a pretty long time, as i've been oot and aboot among other things. I had a floot competition. we got exellent, on a scale of poor to superior. so we got one below superior and all the other kids were bummed out and i was kinda happy we even got exellent since i'm so bad at the flute. now may backseat looks like the backseat of a musician, since theres music EVERYWHERE. it was cause we had a program that night, and i didn't know where any of my stuff was so i had to search for like a long time. and i shared a stand with twizzlebeth since she lost all her music, but it was ok. we were at this art thing. there were alot of old people and the piano was way flat. they had good food though. earlier i had gone to boomers with babs. and afterwards i went to the girls waterpolo game in hopes that one of our friends would ge put in. they did not. it was a close game and at the end we lost. everyone was crying. it was kinda funny in a really sadistic way. i've had my contacts in for 3 days straight, so i'm gonna go take them out. all in all, it was a good weekend and i still have one more day. it most def beats the last three day weekend, which sucked if i hadn't mentioned that. i wore a blink 182 shirt today. and i really padded bra. it was a bit out of character. and underwear that doesn't belong to me. long day. comfy undies though... i was gonna do something wasn't i? well maybe i'll go do that. i'm trying to think of other mundane (or mundain, i can't think how to spell it) details to fill you heads with. i went to view point several times this week end. now i'm a pro at getting there. hehe, me and babs AND kirst. it was a wild wild time. so good and so fun and so on. kirst spilled oj on my pants though. or coke, i can't remember which. i oughta wash those, as i have another floot deal next weekend. woo? not at this moment. i have like 2 weeks of english to make up, and math, and bible, and spanish, and chem. i'm SCREWED. and not even in the pleasent way. so sad. right, i'm off, leaveing you with the image of BBB and Blama doing it. hahaha, sweet dreams.... (HAHAHAHA)