1999 Poetry


all poems are copyright by me


Still Life with Colored Acrylics

Twisting through synaptic noise
memory
humid summer morning
thick air catches in his throat
ice
condensation on the mirror
crawling down the silvery
slick
surface
pooling in the center of his chest
like blood from a wound
Gasp a long, drawn breath
languishing
air swirls through lungs
and is forced back out again
into a room full of
paradoxical images
adjectives paired with nouns
and sleeping metaphors
all clash in his brain
going in different directions
a violet flame
like magenta ice
dissolving in the blanketing heat
mere trickles of red and blue
etching delicate paths on his skin
roads, rivers, and borders
each tributary returning to the source
without losing any of the cool
dry
life-essence
running from his eyes
soaked up through his skin
pooling at the nape of his neck
like blood from a wound.

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Mother's Day, 1999

I never really knew you as a person
Most of the time you were "mom"
sometimes "daughter" or "sister"
but those sides weren't very visible to me.
Four years have passed
and with every day comes more questions.
Every child reaches an age
a maturity
when they want to "know" their parents.
That time, for me, has come too late
I can't ask the questions of anyone now
but I have the mental souveniers
most of the photographs I have now are in my head
but the memories are good ones...
You were a good parent
and I try to lead by your example
It was hard at first to let you go
but time has begun to heal the wounds
and still I try to remind you that
I love you...
   Happy Mother's Day, Mom.

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The 10 Things I Hate About You

You bug me when you gulp your drink
I want to shove your head in the sink
And turn on the cold water until your whole head is wet.
It bothers me when I hear your nails go "tap tap"
And I sit there holding my tongue, like a sap,
Instead of getting my net and kicking you out of the house like a pet.
The way you sneeze really pisses me off,
Which is nothing compared to that annoying cough,
I wonder if anyone would notice if I plugged up your head?
Then you wouldn't torture me
With your jokes, they are such a bore to me,
Especially when you repeat, for the 400th time, something you've already said.
"We've all heard this story before!"
We shout,
"And don't let the door
Hit you in the ass on the way out!"
And you put that playful pout on your face
Which I hate so much I'd like to blast you off into space
Just to see that stupid mock-pout turn to a gasp
(because there's no air
out there)
The way you complain about the heat
While I'm shivering in my seat,
Then you turn around and bitch about the cold?
Here, you hold
On to one end of this rope, while I tie the other end to my car
And drive us both off a cliff, which is par
For the course.
Seems I'm always killing myself to avoid all these little quirks
But I think if I say anything, that would make _me_ the jerk,
And maybe I should just tolerate it, after all,
You call yourself a friend who'd never let me fall,
But then I realize the hidden truth,
That you're boring and rude,
Your snoring is crude,
You're ignorant to boot,
And I just don't like you.
This list was only supposed to go to ten things, not past,
But I got carried away,
Trying to list a few of your annoying habits,
And the lines in this poem multiplied like rabbits,
And I find myself more verbose than Shakespeare himself,
Which reminds me...
I hate all those magazines you read, too.
(but that must be item number 12th)

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Neg

You take
they take
I've given what's not in me
and there is
nothing from nothing
now all I hear is hollow laughter
with nothing inside
or behind.
Anger and frustration
both need a source of power
but you can only drain
nothing
when there's only nothing left.
Even lazy sorrow
needs the red coal of something
and I can't give any more of
my nothing
before I start taking
all the nothing
I see around me
until nothing is the only thing left
for no one.

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I Love Meijer!

My home away from home for almost eight years
Lots of laughter and plenty of tears
I miss those customers so much
I know I should see a shrink
But I just can't help this sickness
My brain has a few kinks...

Mr. Lublin, where have you gone
with your fear-inspiring cane?
Your distinctive waddle was every video clerk's bane.
My favorite greeting was "Hiya, Red!"
Then when he turned around
I'd be "crushing his head".
Just one of the millions to pass through our lives
We spent more time with them than with some of our wives
Immature bosses, throwing tantrums like kids,
Do-nothing clerks who'd sleep on the skids.
I miss all the hip lingo, like "end-cap" and "pallet",
Quick, someone strike me harshly with a mallet!
I want to go back, for the price changes and stocking
and mile after mile of pointless walking.
I'm wearing a lab coat, of COURSE I work in Hardware!
"I can help" with anything you dare!
Meijer is in my blood now,
like Hank and Fred,
I want to have my ashes scattered in the Purple Cow when I'm dead.
Or maybe in the printer-processor,
dissolved in the super-rinse,
Then I could STILL ruin everyone's prints!
Kevin would laugh at voices no one else heard,
from another clerk, you couldn't believe a single word,
Ray took some really sleazy pics,
and Rich wanted everyone to think he worked in flicks,
I had my theories of hidden conspiracies,
and Deana, Pam, and Pam all quit after one date with me.
Like an extended family, my home without fences,

Please send me back before I come to my senses!

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