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    To say the A-levels forced me into contemplating "higher things" would be too over-the-top. Well, around prelim time, I came across H2G2 - a guide to Life, the Universe and Everything. Had a sense of deja vu when I read the entry titled "How to be pretentious"- seemed like I was a linen suit and two Havanian cigars away from the description. Then I saw Michelle's weblog- now here was a gal who was secure in her identity and never let it bother her. There was a quote on her blog- I'll paraphrase- 
"which is worse- to think that everyone else thinks the same way as you or to think that you think differently compared with everyone else"
which is a mouthful, but otherwise forced me into an avenue I shy away from. 

    I would have liked to use my circumstances to account for what I am- having an overindulgent family, being in an elitist education programme for 7 years of my life (and spending the rest of them in preppy schools), getting myself involved with the most self-indulgent people around- writers-, having good friends who protect and shelter me, having a father who stifles my self-perception by proportioning love and affection with the achievement of his standards. But it's ... uggh, so un-burdensome .... (by the way I take comfort in the knowledge that nobody except for Gabriel and Peich have seen my website, and that few people ever will. It's a personal journal that none of my relatives will ever peek at =p ). 

    Back to the subject. I know absolutely nothing about art history, architecture, film (outside of the 90's Hollywood era. I've realized I'm largely ignorant about the workings of the latter since the advent of Movies that Mock Mahathir and Teen movies about high school that Teens can't watch). Others: Philosophy, economics, political theory and social theory, History (don't try pointing out primary/secondary school), English and World literature, computing and cooking. Does claiming superficial interest in any of these fields qualify as being pretentious? (Claiming deep interest in any of them qualifies as academia). 

    Uggh. That last paragraph stank of self-pity, pretension (isn't that the point?), angst. 

 

Will write when I can.

 

 

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