Subject: Book 3 Chapter 4.. a tear jerker
Author: marta I (205.188.198.26)
Date: 10-09-1999 22:21
Juan is leaving walking rapidly. PN tries to catch up with him but
he cannot so he complains that Juan wants to 'kill' him.
-Eres como el mendigo ciego, lo bastante loco para echar a palos al
perro que le sirve de lazarillo.
-No soy ningun mendigo!
-Ni yo ningun perro!
-..No me atormente mas.
...
-Me dijiste que tenias que hacerle una pregunta, de la que dependia
tu vida futura... Llegaste a hacerla?
-No, Noel. Para que? Todo me dio la respuesta. Queria invitarla a un
viaje, llevarmela esta misma noche, arrancarla de aqui, sacarla de
esa tumba
donde agoniza por un amor que es imposible para ella, mirar sus ojos
bajo otra luz, bajo otros cielos, arrancarle como a un idolo las mil
tunicas falsas en que su alma se envuelve, y volver a sentir su
corazon entre mis manos... Escuchar el latido de su sangre bajo las
estrellas, y entonces, solo entonces, preguntarle si el amor de Juan
del Diablo es algo para ella... De otro modo, no lo hare, no lo hare
aunque me muera...'
Colibri is still hanging out at the convent. Monica spots him and is
moved by the fact that he is still there. 'Y con el muchachuelo de
ojos ingenuos, aparece llegar de nuevo hasta Monica una oleada de
aquel mundo distinto, extrano, con el que inutilmente se ha
propuesto romper.'
Monica tells Colibri that it was maybe God that made him wait for
her. Colibri asks her if she will always receive him and she says
that she is glad he is there now. She will write a letter for Juan
but Colibri must wait until Juan is alone, maybe even far away,
before he gets the letter. She writes it and gives it to Colibri.
M: 'No quiso escucharme. Supongo que fue culpa mia, pues lo
exaspere, lo enfureci, le hice perder la paciencia. En realidad, no
tengo derecho a forzar
sus confidencias, a asomarme al fondo de su corazon. El nunca dijo
que su corazon era mio... Hablo tonterias. No pretendo que
entiendas, Colibri,
pero tengo que decirlo, porque los sentimientos aqui dentro, llegan
a podrirse cuando se calla y se calla.'
Colibri takes the letter to Juan, but he cannot wait very long. Juan
is still at a cafetin by the dock drinking. Juan is angry that
Colibri goes there to look for him, since he has told Colibri not to
go there. But Colibri explains that he had to wait until Juan was
alone to give him the letter. Juan virtually rips it off Colibri's
hands as soon as Colibri tells him about it. Then he reads, getting
gradually more and more angry and indignant as he reads.
The letter (and Juan's comments):
Al Senor Juan del Diablo, a bordo del Luzbel (Menos mal que ya no
soy Juan de Dios para ella!) Mi apreciado Juan.. (Menos mal que me
aprecia...) Cuando esta llegue a tu poder, ya estaras lejos...(Pues
no, Senorita Molnar, estoy cerca, demasiado cerca..) Confio en tu
promesa de que te alejaras, de que seguramente no volveremos a
vernos... (Es gracioso como arregla todo a su gusto) ... y te doy
las gracias por la generosidad que ese alejamiento representa...
(Estas oyendo, Colibri? Me da las gracias por el favor de no
volverme a ver. El tribunal me absolvio
pero ella me condena al eterno destierro. C:El ama estaba llorando
cuando me dio esa carta, patron. Y me abrazo, y me beso muchas
veces, y hablo bien de usted, patron.. Dijo que Usted era generoso y
bueno.) Perdoname si ayer no supe hablarte con la serenidad que
hubiera querido, y decirte que solo gratitud guardo para ti,
(Gratitud! Que palabra mas socorrida es esa!!) Adios, Juan... Que
seas feliz como yo te lo deseo .. Que en otras tierras encuentres la
felicidad que mereces, y qaue la triste sombra que pude ser en tu
vida se borre totalmente, ya que pronto van a romperse las cadenas
con que otros nos ataron. Nunca olvidare la bondad que te debo,
aunque yo si te suplico que la olvides totalmente, evitandote hasta
el esfuerzo de compadecerme... (Lindas palabras para despacharme
contento!)
'Ha ido hacia la puerta del cafetin, congestionado el rostro,
turbios los ojos, estrujando en su puno cerrado aquella carta, cuya
helada cortesia le hiere,
y le punza como la peor de las ofensas...'
Juan leaves very angry pacing very fast. Colibri tries to follow
him.. Then they hear the bells of the convent. Juan doesn't know
what the noise is, but Colibri tells him it's the bells announcing
the early mass. Juan thinks it's the mass that the most faithful,
like Santa Monica, would attend. I'll see her there!!
He was right. As Monica is leaving with the nuns, Juan spots her. He
does not even need to call her, she can 'feel' his presence and
turns and spots him herself.
Juan needs to speak to her, she is uncomfortable but lets him. He
says that people like him would be nuts to try to see her there, but
he is not crazy. In
Juan's world, those rights are exercised naturally. And he still has
the right to force her to see him and to listen to him. Juan says
it's about the letter, but
for her to not get scared. She concludes Colibri gave him the letter
in a bad moment, maybe when he was back from a 'juerga' , after
gambling, drinking, maybe while in the arms of a s____. Juan reacts
in disbelief 'Que estas diciendo?'
He is upset because her letter made him very bitter. She is upset
because he had already promised her he would leave. She thought he
was leaving to put some
distance between him and Renato so they could avoid an encounter
that caused her horror to think about. He says that she is afraid
for HIM, Renato. She still cannot think but to protect HIM, to help
HIM. Now Juan won't leave. He has as much right to stay as HIM. What
do you want?? she says. Only one thing, he responds. To show that I
am the stronger one, that I do not depend on the charity of one of
your smiles or on your gratitude, that I take and give as I wish,
with these hands. Right now I could drag you back to the ship
against your will, make you mine completely and now I would not feel
pity for your pain or your fever. I would make you MINE completely,
by force, submitting you like a slave...
Monica finally puts 2 and 2 together.. 'Quieres decir que...'
'Te respete como un imbecil!! Ahora seria diferente! Pero no lo
hare.. Y sabes porque? Porque no me importas, porque no me
interesas, porque hay cien mujeres en el puerto aguardando por Juan
del Diablo...
M: Cien mujerzuelas! Vete con ellas!
J: Podria llevarte a ti, aunque no quisieras.
M: Tendrias que matarme antes!! .. Comete esa infamia aqui mismo, a
las puertas de la casa de Dios...
J: Seria muy facil. Podria hacerlo sin que se cayeran las torres de
la iglesia. Pero ya te lo dije antes.. No quiero nada que se consiga
de esa forma.. De ti no quiero nada... .. me quedare para pelear,
para luchar contra ese protegido de la suerte que me lo usurpo todo
al nacer, para arrancarle uno a uno los dones que le dieron. Dile
que se cuide, que se defienda, que se apreste, porque juan sin
nombre esta en pie de guerra....
M: Pero porque?
J: Porque tu le quieres! No vayas a decir que no le quieres, para
alejar de mi ese odio...
M: Le odiarias tu por eso?
J: Le odio desde que tengo consciencia! Solo una cosa quiero
decirte.. No salgas de ese convento, que no te vea jamas junto a
el... Esta es la ultima vez que hablamos... siempre que al romperse
esa cadena, de la que tanto deseas librarte, no sea para burlarte
otra vez de mi otra vez. Vuelve a tu convento, Santa Monica. El
salvaje que soy, no te llevara por la fuerza...
M: Y si yo quisiera seguirte?
J: Ya veo que sigues siendo capaz de todo. Tienes el mismo temple de
esos cristianos, que, segun cuentan, iban cantando hacia las fieras.
No es necesario tanto... Si algun dia quieres venir a mi, que no sea
bajo la presion de una amenaza, como seria en este momento... Asi no
me interesa...
Le ha vuelto la espalda bruscamente, ha echado a andar calle abajo,
como arrepentido de haber hablado mas de la cuenta, creyendo haber
desnudado hasta el fondo de su alma tormentosa. Tal vez se aleja
esperando una palabra, un gesto de ella, su nombre dicho en otro
tono por aquellos labios enflor.. pero la voz no llega, y Juan se
pierde entre las callejuelas que van al muelle.
Renato, Sofia and Aimee return to Campo Real. Bautista is riding a
horse that Sofia had given to Aimee as a wedding present. Aimee has
a tantrum about that, even though she is not a good rider. Renato
says that horse is too rough for her and that Bautista is doing her
a favor by riding it. You should not ride in it. Aimee is still in
the tantrum and tells Bautista to not ride it again.
Sofia comes out in defense of Aimee. It IS HERS horse. Renato is
angry at Aimee's tantrum. Sofia says they should be a little more
tolerating with her.
Sofia tells Bautista: 'En Campo Real nacera mi nieto, y en Campo
Real lo educare a mi modo y manera. No se ira lejos, para volver
distinto. Ese si sera mio totalmente!!
Yanina notices the opportunity and tries to make a pass at Renato,
who only shows a lot of discomfort and indignation at the scene.
Yanina says he is living tormented. He denies it. She tells him that
most of the hacienda owners had a 'place' where they felt more
comfortable.. Renato is infuriated at the idea...
Renato notices a noise. Yanina says it's the feasts of the workers.
IT's a great big party for all the farm people.
Ana and Aimee notice that Yanina and Renato are heading for the
celebration, but Aimee tells Ana that they have something to do that
cannot wait and that she needs to do as soon as possible, even
better now that Renato is around. They are going to see the witch,
the herb lady. According to Aimee she is the one that can get her
out of the spot, the one that can liberate her from the situation
(about the faked pregnancy). Ana shows a lot of supersticious
beliefs and tells Aimee that when one goes to see the witch on a
night like this, someone dies and there is blood all over. Aimee
says that tomorrow there will be tears from Sofia, 'Se acabo el
heredero D'Autremont!! We'll get away from the farse, easily and
happily, and I will be the one that laughs at the end, laughs at
everyone else and the hardest... ' they go toward's the witch's
house... Everyone else is at the big pawaw....