Lost in a heartbeat

Lost in a heartbeat

It only took a moment to throw it all away,
Something to be treasured on a special day.
He said that he loved me but that was just a lie,
And now that we're over I feel that I could die.

My trust was given without a second thought,
Now I realise that a lesson I was taught.
He said he was a virgin or was that just a line,
Was it just a story to make me lose mine.

Guilt is like a plague eating me from inside,
A feeling of betrayal from which I cannot hide.
I need to find a reason why this happened to me,
A feeling of hopelessness of which I need to be free.

Why was I so stupid what about Aids and HIV,
Without any protection what could happen to me.
Even an unplanned child could be on its way,
All these thoughts fill me later in the day.

He was not worth it that is plain to see,
Next time I will wait for the one for me.
I bet he tells his friends about his latest feat.
I am the one to suffer all lost in a heartbeat.

Lord can you forgive me for what I have done,
I made a mistake as could any other one.
I beg your forgiveness help me heal my heart,
I broke my promise help me make a new start.