Sunday March 5th, 2000 @ 11:20 PM PST

I've had a good weekend, or an interesting one anyway. I was going to write more on Friday night (or Saturday morning) but was really tired, so I figured I'd continue later. So it's later..

My car is fine. The paint is chipped, but it's under the bumper, so until I get the car repainted, I'll have chipped paint, but it'll be unnoticable. I'm also fine, I probably should have mentioned that. No injuries, no physical problems, so don't worry.

I went to a party last night. It was a cast party for the play that I filled in for that sound guy last week. I don't know why they invited me, but I was glad to go. An excuse to drink? Hey, I'm game! So I get to this place, assuming it's going to be a dumpy house like all the other cast parties I've been to.. BOY WAS I WRONG! This house was amazing. It was HUGE. At first when we drove up, we thought it was 3 or 4 houses in a little complex, but infact it was just 1 big house. The front hallway was bigger than my entire house, it was just obscene. I don't know how else to describe it. The house itself was very nice, but when I thought about it, it was just WAY too much. The party was fun though. I got home at a decent time (4 am, not too early, not too late), and got some sleep. I forgot what sleep was actually like.. so it was nice to refresh my memory.

Friday night on the other hand.. wow.. what a disasterous night. I went for dinner with my mom, brothers and my moms boyfriend to a friend of her's house. The first couple of hours went well, nothing particularly interesting to mention, but the last hour.. yikes. Somehow I let it slip that I was planning on moving out. This would have been ok had I actually told my mom first.. but well, I didn't. I'm still trying to figure out how I managed to say something quite so stupid, but what's done is done.. My mother was less than thrilled with me, but things are ok now.

Wednesday March 8th, 2000 @ 12:44 AM PST

Well it's official, I have lost all faith in humanity. Today in California Proposition 22 was passed by the California voters. This marks an end for freedom of ANYTHING. For those of you who don't know what Prop 22 is, I will briefly explain it. Basically it means that Gay and Lesbian couples can not receive the same benefits as Straight couples. These benefits include the use of the partners Medical Insurance, wishes of the deceased partner being carried out by the surviving partner, social acceptance making gay partners who wish to adopt children easier, joint tax returns and the ability to have their marriage recognized (or atleast the benefits of married couples) if it was performed in another state or country. Those are the basics..

The fucking Proposition was passed (or as of this moment is projected to have passed and according to my friend Lil that means that it is going to pass) and that means that people have just been discriminated against for their sexual orientation. The arguments for this ridiculous law are based on hatred and fear. The fucking Religious Right has said that gay marriage is against Gods law and that homosexuality is "an abomination". Well excuse me, but who the fuck cares what God thinks? Believe in God all you fucking like, but don't bring God into politics, there is no room for religion in politics. Close-mindedness has just won another battle. How disgusting. This whole issue is not even about God, it's about Human Rights, and right now, HUMAN rights have been delt a serious fucking blow. This is no different than the way women, ethnic minorities and different religious groups have been treated in the past. Aren't we PAST this? Aren't we supposed to be living in the year 2000? Seems more like the year 1940.

The Religious Right has said that homosexuality is wrong, disgusting, sick, immoral, among many other things, so let me ask you something. How the fuck does someone ELSE'S sexual practices affect you? How does the gay couple living next door to you make YOUR life any different than it would be if you were living next door to a straight couple. How is LOVE wrong? It isn't. What does it matter if your neighbours are gay? If they love each other and have relationship which would be considered "normal" if it were a man and a woman, how is THAT wrong? Because God says so? Well you know what? God can keep his nose out of my fucking business. If I want to love a guy, then God can do one of two things. He can accept me, or he can get the fuck away from me. I don't need some fictional being to determine the way I should live my life. If I have lived a good life, then God can let me into Heaven. If God sees my lifestyle as wrong, sick, immoral, then he can send me down to Hell, because I wouldn't want to spend eternity in a place where LOVE can be wrong. Fucking hypocrisy. The Religious Right claims to love everyone, want everyone to find God, want people to live peaceful lives.. well you know what? That sounds just fucking fine to me. But you can't be gay, because that is wrong, so rather than loving me for who and what I am, they're going to hate me. Well then you know what? They're fucking hypocrites. I don't need to waste my time with that bullshit. God's love is unconditional, and if it's not, it should be. How the hell do any of you even know that God exists? What if he doesn't? Then you have just made life miserable for millions of people, because your faith was misplaced. If there is a God, he will do the final judging, YOU DO NOT.

So again, Human Rights have been fucked over in favor of religious intolerance and bigotry. Just disgusting. The funny thing is, these people who just voted away the rights of gay people because the Church told them to, would find some of the stuff the Religious Right opposed appalling. One such example is WOMEN'S RIGHTS. Giving women rights is the same to these fundamentalists as giving gay's rights, yet these women, many of whom are feminists would be the first to say that the Church is wrong, and that women are deserving of equality. Well ladies, you've just gone against the church because YOU didn't agree, yet you blindly follow the teachings of the Church because you are too close-minded and stupid to look BEYOND yourselves, and see that there are things worth fighting for. Even an intelligent selfish person knows that fighting for the rights of others insures that their rights will be preserved. One day it's gay rights that are taken away, next month it's refugee rights, then a week later immigrant rights, then minority rights, then women's rights. Well you say, "I'm a straight, white, Christian man, I have nothing to worry about", but you're wrong. People's rights are being infringed upon, taken away and basically outlawed because stupid people can't be bothered to see past themselves and place themselves into the position of others. How the hell would you like it if your rights were taken away? Fucking idiots!

Tonight, I was watching Will and Grace. I didn't really like the show when I first started watching, but it's grown on me. I really enjoy it. Tonight there was a really great part where Jack (Will's best friend) goes back to elementary school, and encounters a group of kids teasing a boy. The boy isn't able to defend himself, and Jack remembers back to his own childhood where he was teased because he was gay (the kids called him Jack MacFairyland). Jack stands up for him and gives the kid some needed self-esteem. GOOD message. I was thrilled by the message portrayed on this show, imagine my horror when I hear about Prop 22, less than half an hour after seeing this episode. Well, I hope someone's happy about this, because I'm certainly not.