Crystal writing in her diary right before bed.

Dear Diary,
I don't know when Matt's gonna find out??? But i hope it's soon. I mean, if he doesn't have a Valentine on Valentines day I ask him to be my Valentine. Every Friday if he doesn't have plans i ask him to go out somewhere like the movies or something. When is he gonna find out??? Does he not get the clues i'm giving him??? I love him so mich i'm so close to crying. Is that bad to cry over a boy??? Does it mean i'm desperate??? Cause i don't wanna be desperate!!! I've never been desperate. Ever!!! I mean, with one of my other bestfriend Dying just last month . I just needed a shoulder to cry on. He was there for me. I just need to be glad he's my bestfriend right??? I always watched him when he was a model. He always brings me to his sets. And he always buys me great birthday gifts. But why do I want more??? He's a great friend already. But every year for my birthday I don't ask for gifts. Espeshally the beautiful gifts he Gives me. No. I ask for him. Matthew Joseph O'Leary. Is that to much to ask for??? I know it is for all his fans but... I don't know. So far all the girls he went out with were using him. I think Jenny is one of them. I wouldn't use him. I wouldn't hurt him like all his other girlriends did. I'll love him, always and forever. Diary just one more question. When is it time???