Now & Forever

I listen to the voice on the other end of the phone, still not believing the words that I'm hearing. It was only an hour ago you were saying love me now and forever. Your kiss was one of love, not of goodbye.

I hail a cub and head to the morgue still in disbelief, waiting to wake up from this nightmare. The sheet is pulled back, the tears began to fall as I nod. Only hours ago you were telling me that you loved me.

Now I'm sitting in the pew where she is grieving openly for you while I have to hide it. It's time for me to give the eulogy. Wanting so desperately to scream out how we loved each other, yet keeping the silence.

Standing beside your grave holding in the tears as she weeps freely. Thinking back to that night when you admitted your love for me. She promised me that she would see to your grave.

It has almost been a year. I only stayed in wrestling to fulfill your dream. Wishing only to be where you were.

'Somewhere in time I know, darling you'll come back to me.

Roses will bloom again, but spring feels like eternity.

In your kiss it wasn't goodbye

You are sill the reason why.

I can hear you whispering in the silence of my room

My heart still surrenders like the sun to the moon.

I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly

"Love me now, forever" were the last words you said to me.'

I get out of the car asking to be left alone for a few moments. As I come up to your grave, I see her promise was an empty one. Removing the weeds that are growing around your grave, I let the tears flow, wishing for your arms wrapping around me, telling me it’s alright.

'And when the morning comes, my hands still reach out for you.

Some things remain the same.

There is nothing I can do.

I can barely get through the day ever since you went away.

I can hear you whispering in the silence of my room.

My heart still surrenders like the sun to the moon.

I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly.

"Love me now, forever." were your last words to me.'

I place the belt on the ground in front of your headstone. "I did it for you." I say.

"Jason we need to head to the arena." Matt tells me.

The arena is the last place that I want to be right now, but after tonight it will be done.

I will be retiring as the heavyweight champion in honor of you.

For since you left nothing has been the same. This was your dream, not mine. Mine was to be near you, to love you, in hopes of someday you loving me.

The night ends as it began, with the cheering of the fans.

I stare out the window of the car as we head back to the hotel. Yearning for you, your smile, your touch, just to hear your voice one more time. Suddenly I can hear Matt screaming. Looking to the road I see the headlights coming towards us. Swerving in the same direction as we do.

'Heaven help us cross this endless sea with starlight above to guide me to you.

Waves crashing over distant shores.

They're calling our names forevermore.

And I still hear you whispering in the silence of my room.

My heart still surrenders like the sun to the moon.

I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly.

"Love me now, forever" were the last words you said to me.'

"Jason" I hear you calling. Opening my eyes I see you again. "Love me now, forever," you say. I look down and see Matt and Jeff standing over my body. "I will be alright, now and forever," I say as the last breath leaves my body. Taking your hand, we walk into the light.

Now there is a new headstone that mysteriously has roses wrapping around it, reading,

Jason Reso & Adam Copeland

Now & Forever.

The end.