"Picture"

/(Kid Rock)

Livin' my life in a slow hell
Different girl every night at the hotel
I ain’t seen the sun shine in 3 damn days
Been fuelin' up on cocaine and whisky
Wish I had a good girl to miss me
Lord I wonder if I'll ever change my ways
I put your picture away
Sat down and cried the day
I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to her
I put your picture away, sat down and cried today
I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to her/

(Shane)

Has it been only six months since you left me Matt?

It feels so much longer than that.

When the officials told me they couldn’t find your body after you and Hunter went through that French door and onto the rocks below, I didn’t want to believe it until Leo handed me the ring they had found on one of the rocks nearby. The one confirmation I needed to believe you were gone.

I’m sitting here in my office in Atlanta, having moved here after you died, unable to live in the home you and I had shared. It’s well past midnight and I should’ve gone home hours ago but I can’t, see because the pictures of you and I are there and I can’t look at them and think about what we had and what we had lost. Damnit Matt what the hell were you thinking when you went after Hunter like that?

Why do I even bother asking questions I know I’ll never get the answer to?

You’re the only person I know with the answers and you’re not here.

But the bottle I’ve been drinking from here is.

My anesthesia against losing you.

/(Sheryl Crow)
I called you last night in the hotel
Everyone knows but they wont tell
But their half hearted smiles tell me
Somethin' just ain't right
I been waitin' on you for a long time
Fuelin' up on heartaches and cheap wine
I ain't heard from you in 3 damn nights
I put your picture away
I wonder where you been
I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to him
I put your picture away
I wonder where you been
I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to him
I saw ya yesterday with an old friend /

(Matt)

I don’t even watch wrestling anymore.

The one thing that had been my salvation was now my curse.

On the rare times I do watch, it hurts, knowing what I gave up to put my past behind me and to save you and everyone else from the pain I’ve not only caused but could cause again.

I see Adam and I think of things that might have been and then I see you and the guilt returns as I remember what you told me about how I made you feel about feeling second best to my feelings for Adam.

/(Kid Rock)
It was the same ole same "how have you been"

(Both)
Since you been gone my world’s been dark & gray

(Kid Rock)
You reminded me of brighter days

(Sheryl Crow)
I hoped you were comin' home to stay
I was heading off to church

(Kid Rock)
I was off to drink you away/

(Shane)

God what I wouldn’t give to see you again.

Despite your admission to me about your feelings for Adam, I still love you.

Don’t you get it Matt?

I. Still. Love. You.

Maybe I’m a masochist for feeling this way for you, but I don’t care.

It’s like I told you so long ago, you gave me a reason for living when I had none, but without you I again have no reason to live.

But I do have another reason for another drink.

(Matt)

I wish I had some reminder of our life together Shane.

A photo or something like that but I gave all that up when I left you.

I look at the calendar over my desk and I see the date.

January fifteenth.

Your birthday.

Happy birthday Boy Wonder.

I’m sorry I couldn’t be there to celebrate it with you.

(Shane)

See it’s my birthday today and I’m missing Matt more than anything. I think back on previous birthdays and realize none of them were very happy ones until Matt came along. The ones we spent when we were married were the best I ever had.

And now they’re just memories. Like my life with Matt.

I’d almost believe that part of my life was some sort of dream if it weren’t for the pictures.

Like the one on my desk of he and me.

If someone placed a cake in front of me and asked me to make a wish and then have it come true, I wouldn’t bother, since what I wish for would never come true.

I raise my glass to the photo in front of me before downing its contents.

Happy birthday to me?

Not without my Dark Angel it isn’t.

And it never will be.

/(Both)

I thought about you for a long time
Can't seem to get you off my mind
I can't understand why we're living life this way
I found your picture today
I swear I'll change my ways
I just called to say I want you to come back home
I found your picture today
I swear I'll change my ways
I just called to say I want you to come back home
I just called to say, I love you come back home/