Now, as I look at your photo ...I remember you.
I wouldnīt say that I donīt remember you otherwise.
On the contrary... I remember you even very often.
Well, right now I remember the day... The day, we saw us for the
last time.
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"What a feeling is that ... I feel... No...I donīt feel
anything...am I dreaming? ... am I unconscious? What the h..."
Jeff touched his body carefully . "My body... I canīt feel
... My HEART! ... I canīt feel my heartbeat! ... Where I am,
what happened? ... Is that a dream? ... Who I am? ... " Jeff
screamed desperate, but without a tone.
"What...?" He looked around, shocked. His eyes fixed on
a body, that lay next to him. "No!" It was only a
whisper, but then he screamed with tears in his emerald eyes.
"No... No ... No!!! ...Please, oh god no, not yet..."
Jeffīs words broken, he felt on his knees and cried loud: "Why
... Why now?!" He shook his head
confused. Then he turned his head, as he heard footsteps in the
snow.
Matt, oh thanx god, itīs Matt. His brother.
"Jeff!" Matt began to run, as he saw his little brother
in the white snow.
He felt on his knees next to him. "No Jeff. No. It canīt be
true, it canīt be..." Tears ran over his face. Jeff wanted
to comfort him, wanted to show him everything is ok and so he
tried to touch his brother, but he hadnīt a feeling in his hands.
"Oh god, what happened to me?" Jeff asked slowly.
His hands went through Mattīs skin, through his face so as if he
wasnīt even there. Jeffīs eyes looked incredulous to the body
in snow.
Blood, everywhere blood. A pale face, stare eyes... his eyes.
"Aahhh noooo!" Jeff screamed nearly unconscious by his
supposition.
Mattīs fingers grazed over the stare eyes, with his thumb and
forefinger he closed the eyes gently. "Why Jeff? Why now?
First mum than dad and now you. Why? Oh god, why? Please, come
back!" He took his brother in his arms and embraced the cold
body. Salty, warm tears fell of Jeffīs face. They left a wet
trace on Jeffīs cold skin.
Jeff couldnīt believe his eyes. "Matt? Matty! Canīt you
see me? I am here. I alieve... am I?" He looked at his hands,
which were nearly transparent. "NO!" He touched his
body, but he couldnīt feel it. "I has to be a dream..."
He turned and saw a bike, his Honda CBR600. All chrashed and
destroyed. Then he heard the
sirene of the ambulance and the police. "I...I am dead?...no..."
Jeff breathed.
"Come Jeffrey, come to me." A low and pleasant whisper.
Jeff stood up automatically and went some steps back. He couldnīt
believe what his eyes saw.
The ambulance took his body of a stretcher into the car. Matt
still crying had to be stopped by the police.
"Come Jeffrey, it is time to go." He heard the
whistper again.
Jeff nodded, turned around and left his brother crying in the
snow.
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