9/8/01:
I took a home pregnancy test. A second line is there but it is faint. I called Jim into the bathroom and showed him. He was instanly happy but wanted to know what I thought. I couldn't let him know I was excited so I played it off. After a few minutes, I started to jump up and down.
I checked what my due date should be. According to a site on the net, the baby is due May 14, 2002. I am having another May baby. I guess I won't have to change my e-mail address. I just hope that tha baby arrives early enough so it and Nate don't have to share the same special day.
When we went to bed, Jim started to sing the song "Your having my baby" to me. I started to laugh at him. He's so excited and that makes me even more excited. WE ARE HAVING A BABY!!!!
9/10/01:
Today I woke up with some staining when I went to the bathoom. Fearing the worst, I called the doctor. He sent me for a blood test at the hospital. Wanting to know the results fast, the wrote STAT on the lab form.
The results showed that my hCG levels are only 48. Either I am very early in the pregnancy or I am losing the baby. I have to wait 72 hours and get the test done again. The nurse told me that if I start to bleed, get to the hospital ASAP. This doesn't sound good.
I started hurting on my side. Fearing the worst, we head to the ER. Luckily, they were very busy and I decided to go back home. I promised Jim I will take it easy and he can go to work without worrying about me.
I just want Thursday to come. The waiting will kill me. I want this pregnancy and baby to be fine. I will be saying some heavy prayers!
9/13/01:
I went first thing in the morning to get my blood drawn again. It has been a nerve racking week. Between thinking about the pregnancy and the horriable events of Tuesday, I have been worrying no-stop.
I kept calling home to see if the doctors office left a message. They didn't so I called them. The WONDERFUL news is the levels almost tripled. They are now 118. That is a great sign and I am so relieved.
When I asked about my Prozac, I was told I have to stop taking it. I am scared at how I will be without the medicine. What if I start to have a panic attack or what if I go into a deep depression.
When I meantion this, the nurse decided to make me an appointment. So the first time I see the doctor is on Tuesday at 2:30. I'm not sure what will happen then but Nate and Jim will go with me. I'm so excited and keeping my fingers crossed that everything goes smoothly!!!
9/16/01:
I started to bleed last night. I freaked out and called Jim at work. After we hung up, I called the hospital. They told me to just lay down and relax. Jim came home and I decided that I would do what the hospital said and see if the bleeding slows down. When I woke up today, it didn't. So off to the ER I went.
Everything turned out fine. I was told some woman bleed the first few months. As long as I wasn't cramping or going through two pads in an hour, everything was fine.
I was ordered to rest as much as possiable. I took full advantage of the rest. I was able to get a two hour nap and the bleeding slowed way down. I just hope that the hospital was right and nothing is wrong.
9/18/01:
At 4:30 this morning I was back to the ER. The bleeding is still going on. Wouldn't you know it, it stopped at the hospital. Everything is fine and my hCG levels are now 1921. Wonderful news!!! Again they don't know what the bleeding is from but it's nothing to worry about.
I had my ob appointment today to discuss my medicine. Since I'm not sleeping, he put me back on them. Birth defects are small and I pray that the baby is fine. Like the doctor said, I have to feel good in order to be a good mom.
On another note, we told Nate about the baby. I keep calling it his baby. I hope that he will be wonderful about the baby. I know he will make a great big brother and I hope that starts as soon as the baby is born.
9/26/01:
While out to lunch with a friend, I went to the bathroom. A gush of blood came out of me. When I got home, there were a few blood clots. I had never had this happen before. So I called the doctor. They told me to go to the ER.
At the ER, I was totally made to feel like dirt by the doctor. He acted like I made the whole thing up. The bleeding had stopped and he didn't know why this keeps happening.
When I was discharged, the nurse told me I had a UTI. I was put on Kelflex for a week. I really felt horriable leaving the hospital. Not knowing why I keep bleeding is really wearing thin on me. I want to believe that this pregnany and baby are going great. But when I start bleeding (something a pregnant woman is not suppose to do), I start thinking the worse.
9/28/01:
The bleeding started again. I called the doctor and they told me to go to the ER. I called the hospital and talked with an OB nurse. I told her how I was treated the other day and I don't want that to happen again. She talked me into coming to the hospital to get it check out.
God was looking out for me because the doctor I seen was wonderful. He talked with me and told me that he would do what ever possiable to find out the cause of the bleeding. I was so happy and relieved to know that soon I would know the problem.
After having tons of blood drawn and an exam done, the doctor finally said the words I wanted to hear. He was ordering an ultrasound to make sure everything was fine. By the time they wheeled me to the ultrasound, Jim had arrived.
Having a full bladder and not being able to do much, Jim decided to show me how much he "loves" me. He started to tickle my feet. All I could do was move my feet. I'll get him back.
I asked the tech to tell us if she seen an ultrasound. She said they are not allowed to tell the patients anything. She said sorry and so I mouthed to Jim to look for a heartbeat. He couldn't see anything and I was starting to ge nervous.
Then it was time to do the internal ultrasound. Suddenly the tech yelled Yippy and told me she had something she wanted to show us. She turned the moniter on and on the screen was a little heartbeat beating away.
It seems she seen something on my left ovary. On the external ultrasound, she couldn't find a heartbeat. So she was assuming that the pregnancy was etopic. When she seen the little heartbeat finally, she was so excited she couldn't help but do what she did.
I am so thankful that she did. She told us that the heartbeat was 120 and that according to the ultrasound, my due date is now May 22, 2002. When we left, I thanked her for now telling us anything.
Jim was so excited to see the heartbeat. He called my aunt and told her. When he came back in the room, he had a hugh smile on his face.
The doctor came back in the room. He said everything looked great. The bleeding and clots were from a really bad bladder infection. He told me to take the medicine prescribed from the other day and take it easy.
We left feeling so much better and being able to get excited about the baby. I really hope the bleeding stays gone and everything goes smoothly. Fingers crossed!!!