Poetry
I Guess What I Wanted Was
We Have Been Called
You Tell Me
Bukowsky's Widow
Dylan
I'm Writing To Tell You
Saved From Myself
Father Of A Deaf Girl
The Things You Fear
Miracle
Second Thoughts On Columbus, Ohio
Too Many Nights
Pretty
Bleary Eyed
Mercy
Sun Bathing
The Things You Fear
The things you fear
are undefeatable
not by their nature
but by your approach

We Have Been Called
We have been called
naïve
as if it were
a dirty word
We have been called
innocent
as though with shame
our cheeks should burn
So
We visited with
the careful idols
of cynicism
to learn to sneer
and pant and walk
so as not to feel the scales
of judgment rub wrongly
But we say
some things must
remain simple
some things must remain
untouched
and pure
lest we all forget
the legacy which begot us
the health of our origins
the poetry of our fundamental selves
And so
it is to
the longing hearts we sing
rise! spread
your wings!
Let no hand
nor ill will
keep you.

Dylan
I had a dream last night
that a little girl came to me.
Her hair was a halo of warm light
and color dripped off her tongue
She was your daughter
and in her I saw the fruit
of everything I'd ever fought for
or believed in, or dreamt of.

Bukowsky's Widow
My prince has slipped!
and his face has turned
to shadow
his tongue no longer strong
but gray (how sad!)
it used to be so full
of spit and roses
My prince the stars have
fallen from your crown
And I can not fathom
their fading-
some things should be forever!
You've taken your coal
and your seaward gaze-
You've taken your will
and your weakness and left
me with nothing but
words to keep me warm
But I don't want them!
Take them back!
I want Paris
I want you drunk on wine
I want to walk with you
and hold you up
and giggle and kiss
God how I miss
your smile and thick skin
At night
(Do you remember?)
How I'd worry
and you'd press me tight
against you. Extinguishing
the red flame
of my head against
your shoulder
Smooth as chalk dust you'd laugh
in the face of
death and uncertainty
Do you remember?
You'd say time knew nothing
well now you're gone
and time is all I have left

You Tell Me
It cannot be so
you say
simple hands
cannot change
the fate of humanity.
I say
Humanity is
a boundless,
absorbing heart
transcending
death & generations
and centuries
absorbing bullets
and stitches
and tear gas
enduring humiliation
and illegal abortions
and thankless jobs
I say to you
the heart of Humanity
has not
and will not
be broken
and let us raise ourselves
like lanterns
with the millions of others-
with the mad
and the forgotten
and the strong of heart
to shine

Too Many Nights
It's been
too many nights
of being with
to now be suddenly
without

Saved from Myself
How often I've cried out
in silent tongue
to be saved
from myself
in the middle of the night
too afraid
to move
horrified the answer
may be beyond the
capability of my
own two hands
so small
(no one should feel this alone)

Sun Bathing
I read a book
and the man thinks
I can not see
the wrinkled posture
of his son
as he is nudged.
He thinks
I can not sense
four eyes
upon my flesh
as the father tries
to bond with
his teenage boy
by ogling my breasts.

Second Thoughts in Columbus, Ohio
I find it strange that we search
our whole lives for love
as though it were the
final treasure
the solemn purpose of people
in movies and magazines.
Yet when it comes to your door
one morning with calm eyes to deliver itself
you realize it alone is not enough.
You are before me, sweet man,
and I am thinking
Aren't I supposed to give up
everything?
Aren't I supposed to be brave
and abandon
each dream and aspiration
and yield utterly to this
elusive beast love,
to your soft belly and companionship?
Aren't we supposed to
have a piece of land-and children!-
that look like you, and cook
soup and bread and sing
each other songs before sleep
and absentmindedly count the stars
from our front porch as we pray
for each other's keep
and pretend
forever is a word known
not only by the heart?

Father of a Deaf Girl
Every time her hands began to stutter he became
enraged. She threw these fits sometimes, and he
never took the time of understand what they meant.
Her words were wasted on him. Her hands useless
birds caged by their quietness, and he would
immobilize them, tying her wrists together so they'd
jump like awkward fish, gasping at the shock of air.
Un-heard they'd dance like that for hours, her eyes
full of silent desperation, on the other side of the
closet door. He never even knew what they were
saying.

Pretty
There is a pretty girl
on the
Face
of the magazine
And
all I can see
are my dirty
hands
turning the page

Bleary eyed
Bleary eyed
and sleepy still
I unwrapped you
of the morning
like careful fruit
with forbidden flesh
made sweeter by
the scorning
My hands still shaky
from kisses sweet
and the dark hours
of night's embrace
I checked to see
if fastened vines
my heart had left
in silv'ry trace
While you slept
I looked inside your chest
to see what there
was growing
I saw my heart
with quiet eyes
to your side its self
was gently sewing
I saw my heart
with quiet eyes
to your side its self
was gently sewing

Mercy
I'm leaving
You're done
Cut the cord
I will bare my heart
Make sure it's sharp
Make it quick
Flash your will against me
relieve this red smear
Smother the beating
dull the pulse
Show mercy
Spare it from your side
and I will rip
what was yours, what was living in me,
and return it to you.
Do it while our hearts
are still intact
before they rot in each other's care
before they become riddled with bitterness
choked by the stinking seeds
of resentment.

I Guess What I Wanted Was
I guess what I
wanted was
to hear
you'd stay with me always.
I guess what I
wanted was
to see
those hands vowing
never to leave my own.
I guess what
I wanted was
to know
I am not loving in vain.

I'm Writing to Tell You
I'm writing
this letter to tell you
I don't love you anymore.
I don't miss you.
I never have.
The truth is, I
tried, but never found
your adoration
anything other than arduous,
your niceties cliched,
your praise thoughtless,
and it has become
unbearably obvious
that you love me with
all the originality
of romance novels;
the manly man weakening
the luscious flower.
But do not be sad,
nothing is lost,
neither of us even loved
the other truly-
you only thought you did
and I only wanted to.

Miracle
Listen!
Do you hear it?
I do.
I can feel it.
I expect a miracle is coming.
It has set loose this restlessness
inside of me.
Expect it.
Dream about it.
Give birth to it in your being.
Know! Something good
is coming down the line.
Finding its way to you
like all things find their way
to god's children.
Listen!


