13 October 2000 Hihiz,         How u all doing? Tell u what lah, I really don't know which colour text should I use for this kind of background, just hope you guys can all seee my words clearly lor.         So, the important subjects are over, I mean exam mah, left with Art and CME, should be quite okayz lor. About other subjects arh, I really don't know about it, it's tough but I did my best....         Besides her, what else could I really think about when I free? NONE at all! But, the problem is nobody can really share with me.....pothetic meh? Yar, sometimes it is really like a hell leh...so, I thought: Life is not that difficult, trying to be brave, even sometimes I was crying on my own, but everythiing will be okayz! Arh.....so literaturally huh?? hehe.... =)          Dream about her yesterday, godness! that's the sweetest but a terribly faked dream in my life.....anyway, in the dream...... I was walked pass by a table which ruizhen was sitting there with her friends. And I of coz dun wan to look at her, but too bad, there is no other table for me to sit..i mean chair also.. So, no choice I have to sit down, but i dun wan. However, my friends all like want me to sit down, sit beside ruizhen!!!! So embarassing, but have to sit lah. Then, I just move a chair to the edge of table. ANd I looked at ruizhen and told her that: sorry leh, I dun mean to sit down here, but no choice. I was thinking that ruizhen willl just ignored me, but wht she did is she moved her chair inside a bit, so there is more space for me to put my chair......arh..unbeliveable rit? (ha, tell u it's a dream mah) SO, with surprise I sat down. I expecting the silence between me and her, however, she FIRST start to talk to me. I forgot wht we tok about , bt it's really heart-warming...u noe, she is so sweet, and not as 'cold' as that RC in the real life. ANd after that, we walked together, and we joke with each other, I mean just like good friends. When I asked her that why she is so cold to me last time, she answered somthing like : she has her own problems that I won't understand.... Weird...But anyway, I love this dream, so imaginative. But it is virtual after all mah....great memories lor.            Then today, I was going to 4e3 find someone, and I saw RC juz walked back...sux leh(I dun realli mean it)...as usual she walked by lor...that's the her of the real world!             So, I should end this NEWs! here coz I am tired. WIsh me gd luck in my exam results and Have A chance to make friend with ruizhen lor.              Best wishes, Jet 13-10-00