I choose to lose
To lose myself
Than to lose you
Oh, my bones break
The sky shakes
And the falling stars
Set fire to our souls
Hold on
Let go
All my life
I've been alone
But you, you changed it all
yes, you changed it all
And now nothing will be the same again
i don't want to be the same
To waste my youthful days
And reel in wheels of pain
So you must stay the night
Stay in my life
I'll wrap my soul around your skin
And make you free
To set your soul within
I wrap my warmth
In you...
And if i must choose
I choose...
-Mauricio Sandoval(c)2002.
My mind is confused
The more I try to win
The more I fucking lose
I lose myself
And I lose you
You look at me
And you see right through
And i never thought i'd say this:
I hate you
I hate that you act fucking immature
I hate the fact that i don't come first
I hate when i ask for the truth
And you ignore and leave me thinking of how you feel
I send you letters
I send you my poetry
But all I do
Seems to cause me misery
'cause you don't care
How can you be my best friend
When you have a wall
And on the other side, I am dead
And i never thought i'd say this:
I hate you when you ignore
I hate it when you stay shut up
And when i look for comfort
You are always with your love
I'm losing you
You've let go
i'm losing you
I'm losing my soul
You were my world
But today is the end
Goodbye, my love
my beautiful friend
For thru our eyes
I am dead.
-Mauricio Sandoval(c)2002.
This lust for more
It pounds at my mind
Leaves my thougts so sore
I want it
But too lazy to try
Always fail
Always die
Will I die alone?
Was I meant to live this way?
I need something to fill this hole
i hate you all, get away
I run into streets
Streets of darkness
Everyday it seems
I'm losing patience
Left with the echo
IN MY MIND
I AM SCARRED
AND LEFT TO DIE
I will die alone
I will die alone
everyone dies alone
i won't be different
I find comfort
In the thought that one day
I'll find something to rid this pain
and if I can't find a cure, this pain
will burn, it'll burny my soul, and leave me dull and leave me scarred, yes leave me far, far away from me, far, far, fuck it's just too hard, it's just too hard, it's just that...
i'll die, i'll die, i'll die alone
i'll die, i'll die inside my soul
if i lose you
i lose my soul
you are my soul
you are my world
if i lose you
I lose my soul
You are my soul
If I let you go
I am dull
And full of nothing but empty dreams of you
everyone dies
everyone dies alone...
-Mauricio Sandoval(c)2002.
Inside my mind
I'm too lazy
To lazy to try
I've lost hope
In you
Because i try
but my efforts never get thru
Why am i living?
Living this life
I make myself feel this every lonely night
The Ghosts
They haunt your minds
The Ghosts
Oh, Haunt your lives
Burn your soul
Inside my heart
Warm you, never cold
Never be apart
I am your star
Burning in my sun
Fuck it's just too hard
To give you what you want
Because i do not know
You keep it all within
And as the night fades
My patience grows dim
-Mauricio Sandoval(C)2002.
Is a tragedy
To dream of love and recieve pain
Love is fantasy
Feed me a lozenge of love
To fill my veins with hope
And if I lose faith in our love
I might as well let everything else go
So look into my eyes
As I take your hand
You make me want to change
You make me want to be a better man.
--Mauricio Sandoval(c)2002.