Paul & I
Our Story
How does one ever tell how a childhood crush changes into a hot and steamy relationship and then to a even hotter and steamier engagement? I guess it would only make sense if I started when we met and go from there.It all started when I was only nine years old. I was at my parents when this guy named Paul came to visit my brother. My parents went on vacation the day before and would be gone till the end of the month. Well my brother was suppose to watch me, but as most brothers he didn't want to. He left me alone at home. When Paul came to the door I asked him what he needed. He told me that he was looking for Howard. I told him Howard was gone. He then told me that he was Howard's friend Paul and that he wanted to know if he could please come in and wait for Howard. I told him sure and that if he would like I would give him some coffee or tea which ever he drank. Paul told me he drank coffee and that he said he would make it. I stepped aside and allowed him in. As Paul walked by I looked at his outlined ass in his black jeans (Yes, I was a early bird on liking guys due to being sexually abused at the age of seven by the neighbors father.) Anyhow Paul then got his coffee and I then sat at the table next to him and talked. I found out he was fifteen a age younger then my brother. I told him how I was sexually abused by the neighbors dad and that being so that I liked guys already. Paul only smiled and asked if I had a little boyfriend. I told him no, but I wouldn't mind HIM as my boyfriend. Paul looked at me and asked how old I was. I told him nine and he smiled and said that he was fifteen and that if he was younger or I older he would love to, but that being of our age differents we couldn't. I was heartbroken to say the least. I looked down at the floor and tears rolled out of my eyes. Paul got up lifted my head and said, "hey kid, I'm sorry I hurt your feeling...really I am, but I am not legally allowed to" and I still cried. Paul then looked me in the eye and said, "I would other wise believe me." I looked back at him and said, "But I told you...I was touched onced...so why not you. After all no-one would know." Paul looked down then back up and said, "I would...I couldn't live with myself if I did something like that! I would keep thinking of how wrong it was, but I tell you what if when you get older and you still feel the same then I will...OK?" I looked at him. "REALLY?" I asked him. "Yes, REALLY!" He smiled at me and gave me a peck on the cheek. "What age will I need to be before you will agree?" I asked. Paul smiled and said, "Lets set it at eighteen OK?" "OK...don't forget!" I said all happy. "I won't how could I forget you?" Paul said flirting just to make me feel better. We spent the rest of the time talking on different topics like; school, my brother Howard, and other things like that until my brother came home.
I saw Paul after that hanging with my brother for the rest of age nine to age twelve. When I was twelve and Paul eighteen he graduated high school and I never saw him again for quite some time. Howard went into the Air Force by then and Paul I heard went to another state, but never seen him or heard from him. I wasn't upset because I remembered what he said about nothing between us till I was eighteen. I kept thinking he will be back around when I hit eighteen...he said he would!
My birthday is in March my brother Howard's is in August and I was a little upset, but not much when March rolled around and I hit eighteen. I still thought of Paul and his promise to me. On my birthday in March everyone was there; friends and family. I asked my brother Howard how come Paul isn't here. Howard looked confused. I told him that I thought he would be here being all my friends and his friends where here along with our family. Howard nodded and said, "He didn't leave me his address to so I couldn't invite him." I nodded. I was hurt and upset, but like I said not much because I then thought. Why worry...he hasn't forgot...he will be here after I graduate I bet. I kept thinking that Paul wanted to make sure I finished school before we hooked up. Then the next thing I knew it was graduation day. Paul never did show up, but I did however receive a postcard that was sent to me by him that read the following:
Dear Melissa, I didn't forget you. I still think on how you liked me...I know things may have changed by now...but just wanted to say you're still on my mind and wish I could still hold that special place in your heart. 4-ever flattered, you liked me...Paul
Needless to say I was in tears. Paul gave up all because he thought I moved on with out him! Paul didn't enclose a return address, so I had no way of telling him he was wrong...so once again I was heart broken, but this time I didn't have him there to lift my chin and stop the tears.
I never seen or heard from Paul until February 25, 2000 which made me twenty-three and him twenty-nine. I still remember how we ran into each other again. I was arranging a family reunion and told all my relatives to bring one guest not in our family. My brother Howard said he knew who wanted to come, but wasn't sure if it was a good idea being what they told him. I asked him who and what did they tell him. Howard only smiled and said, "PAUL...Sis, he told me what was said when you was nine...he also mentioned his postcard." I was shocked! I thought I was over him...I found out I wasn't REAL quick, because as soon as I heard his name my heart skipped a beat and tears came to my eyes. "Sis, Is it not a good idea? If so I will tell him no." Howard said. "No, PLEASE have him come...I need to see him...I need to talk to him." I whispered. "Are you sure?" Howard asked. "Yeah...I am!" I replied. When the reunion happened on February 25, 2000 I was in knots just knowing I would see Paul, yet angry for the hurt he caused me. When Howard and Paul showed up I walked up to my brothers Howard & Nelson & My sis Mary and hugged them. "So, glad you made it!" I told him. "Of course I told you I would sis...by the way...here is Paul. I looked at Paul (STILL HOT AS EVER). I then walked up to him and stood in front of him. "Hi, Paul." I say in a calm voice. "Hi, You grew into a very sexy looking women...to bad I missed it." he replied sadly, but just then all the hurt and pain came to me and before I could stop myself I walked closer to him and slapped his face Hard! Howard only stood there SHOCKED! "How dare you hurt me like that! I hope you are happy! I loved you PAUL...part of me still does...why I don't know!" I replied as I ran away crying. I ran all the way to my bedroom. I then threw myself on the bed and cried into my pillow. After about ten minutes rolled around Paul came to my room and sat on the bed. (DAMN I LEFT MY BEDROOM DOOR OPEN) I thought. "Melissa...dear god...I am so sorry! I really am...I never meant for you to be so hurt. I never meant to hurt you. GOD...if only you knew how many nights I layed in my bed looking up at the ceiling thinking about you...wondering what you looked like...wondering if you loved me like I did you...Melissa...please look at me...I never thought you would really wait...I thought you would find someone to take my place...then when you ran off just now...Howard told me how you have never dated anyone, because you was always waiting for me...and how even after you graduated that you didn't cause you was so heart broken...MELISSA PLEASE LOOK AT ME!" Paul said as he sat on the bed next to me. I lifted up my head. "Howard is right...on everything." I replied. Paul looked at the floor and it was then that I noticed he had a tear rolling down his face. "Melissa...I know I messed up...I know...I know it is most likely to late, but my offer still stands...if you want to trade in your little boyfriend I will become your husband...cause I loved you for so long...I never dated either...never found anyone like you." I looked at him. Paul reached into his jacket and took out a small box and got on one knew. "Melissa...I came here and wanted to come here today to ask you if you would marry me." I had tears come down my face like a rolling waterfall as I said "YES...YES PAUL I WILL!" we then started kissing and one thing lead to another...needles to say I ran from the reunion a virgin and came back not one! By the time everyone left they knew I was engaged cause I had to show off my ring.
That night Paul stayed at my place and we got two hours of sleep if we were lucky.(I think you know why)!!!
But we never set a date due to that we wanted to make sure we worked out. Now we do have a wedding date and it is set for July 27th 2003.
I'm so glad to be
to Paul...can't wait till 
day!
I
you Paul!
So far believe it or not...I have a colors chose. It's Dodger blue and black. The guys will where black & bridesmaid, ECT where dodger blue. I know we have "Have I Told You Lately, That I Love You" By Rod Stewart as our song...which always was anyhow.
I know some of the guest, but still not all. I know who the wedding party is, but really that's about ALL the plans we have. It so over welming sometimes that I need a break from plans....but in the end it for a GREAT cause
I still can't get over how much I love Paul!
He is like the only guy I know that actually made me get butterflies in my belly!
Cartoon Dolls Of Paul & I
