Nine

Your comfort doesn't mean a thing to me
You words are just lies to me
And now I finally see
How much my life really is a tragedy

I'm so sick of trying to please everyone
All my attempts failed and undone
I'm writing to you for one last time
Just to show you not everything's fine

I can no longer show my face to you
I'm stained within, lost and confused
I don't know what to do
I'm so far gone

So here, I say my final goodbye
I smile for you one last time
All that's good has died in me
I guess I was never meant to be

A forbidden life lived through hate
It seems to me I've come to my senses a bit too late
I'm a disgrace to all those I hold dear
I want so badly to get away from here

I need to escape my pain and ruin
Another feeling boiling in the pot I threw in
Too much emotion to let it fade
And my life, won't be forgave

Three six five, nine
A Devil to live, a God to die
Finally time, to take on mine
I've now found my place to hide