It was right, they were on the news, well not really their faces but a picture of Nicole, drawn by a policemen. She was scared that she’d really looked that horrible.”Oh my god, I’m just happy that the guard is still alive” she said breathing deeply. Olli smiled ”Nicole, the friend of every human being”, she started to laugh and threw a pillow at Olli. Soon Head, Olli and Nicole were throwing pillows at each other, only Benny sat on the sofa, thinking about everything. He hadn’t expected that the first exercises would be so easy and he hadn’t expected her to be really helpful, but she was, she had been the key yesterday. His intention had only been to clear everything up, to let old feelings that were still alive live again, even if he’d told her that there would be no emotions. ”Olli was right” he thought ”I wanna protect both of us...” And exactly Olli was it who saw him sitting there with no expression in his face. ”Dude, what the hell is wrong?” he asked. Benny looked up and replied ”Nothin’, but can I talk to you for a minute?”, Olli nodded ”Sure”. They left and Head and Nicole started to joke about what they were doing alone, Nicole remembered pretty well that they went to the toilet together very often when they had been at school, of course that was stuff for a lotta jokes. Benny and Olli sat in the bedroom ”What do you want my dear” asked Olli. Benny shook his head ”I dunno... it’s just.... I didn’t expect it that way....” Olli knew immediately what he meant ”Oh, dude, you’re so stupid, you scored in your own goal! You thought that she’s too weak, that she can’t stand it, that everything would be more difficult and that she’d try EVERYTHING to get you back. You just forgot something, she LOVES the music we’ve to rescue, we only LIKE it, see the difference? You remember school, right? You remember the way she waited for the third Limp Bizkit album? I remember it pretty well. And do you remember that she can even...” Benny’s eyes started to burn ”Yeah, I remember that and I remember who told it to us, it was a boy, generally a nice boy, but they...” Olli shook his head and interrupted him ”and he went away with her for one and a half hour and nobody knows where they’d been, I remember YOUR version, but I know that they ate something with the teachers, there’s NEVER been anything between them, if you’re a normal human and love somebody that much then you can’t be together with another person. And she still loves you much... but I repeat myself, that’s tirsome. And she’s gonna wait for a long time, but not forever, remember something: Every time we’ll step further on our mission, we’ll be nearer to the second thing she loves desperatly, that’s the music, that’s Limp Bizkit, that’s Fred.” Benny wasn’t really convinced, concerning her he was just difficult ”You think she’s still so crazy about them? Naw, I can’t belive that!” Olli rolled his eyes ”You aren’t listening, what did you hear on her walkman?” Benny thought a moment and then answered ”Faith and Re-arranged” ”What was the first thing she asked Head?” asked Olli, Benny blushed ”She asked him to tell her more about the others and especially about... Fred” Olli smiled gloatingly ”One last question, what did Head say when she was in the bathroom?” Benny looked to the ground ”That Fred will like her and that they would make a pretty good couple, it’s all about chemistry and they both have the same... she’s just a little bit too shy” Olli acted like he was near clapping his hands ”Oh you quote it almost completly right, but he said something else, about match-making them, d’ya know what it means?” Olli wasn’t sure, but he thought to see a lonely tear in Benny’s left eye ”Yeah, I remember it, but I thought he has been... joking...” ”Oh dear, you need to learn a lot, and you’re older than me...” with this words Olli left. Benny’s body was aching, numb like not having used it for quiet some time. He closed his eyes and soon sleep was all around him, but it was no pleasure for him, his sleep was haunted with nightmares about failing their mission, but also about completing it. What would be if they’d ever make it to that misterious prision called Alcatraz where all the bands were. After sleeping for a few hours he felt even more tired than before. He rubbed his eyes and then went into the living room where Olli was sitting in front of the TV ”Damn english MTV, teeny boppers all the time... uh I forget they’re the leaders of our world. So Ben did you sleep good?” Benny shook his head ”No... where are the others?” ”She’s in the bedroom and Head is out, getting some food” Benny got furious ”DO YOU KNOW HOW DANGEROUS IT IS FOR HEAD TO BE ALONE IN THAT CITY?” he stopped for breathing when Head entered ”Woooh, dude, calm down, I was just at the hotel bar and if you’ll yell just a lil bit louder everyone will know that I’m here, because everyone in the hotel might could hear you then. Everything is cool right? Right! So what do you want?” Benny blushed, he was the one who tired with all his powers and strengths to avoid mistakes and that was the reason why he was nevertheless making them. ”Just wanted to tell you that we leave by dawn, our plane leaves at 8 am, please be ready in time” Head nodded and Benny left to tell Nicole the same, but he still heard what Head said more to himself than to Olli ”I dunno why she still likes him, I’d have dropped him a long time ago.” Benny felt again tears in his eyes and so he made a lil stop at the bathroom. She laid on the bed somewhere between sleep and being awake, her head felt like melting chocolate, thoughts were whirling around in her mind and she couldn’t get a clear vision. It was that kind of walking between the sweet, unreal but also filled with nightmares kingdom of dreams and the grey, real world with all the problems that was followed by sweat, tears and actions like beating the air. Eyes swung from one ”side” of her mind to the other, blue and brown eyes. They started to mix and finally there was just dirty pulp left. She wanted to run away, but her feet didn’t move, she wanted to scream, but she couldn’t open her mouth. She was just standing there with horrified eyes and an open mouth, feeling the sweat and the tears clearly on her body. Suddenly everything got light, she saw a girl, she’d long blonde hair and than another one, also with blonde long hair and some strange looking guys, they were abstract figures and she couldn’t see their faces, they seemed to consist only of a piece of flesh with hair. Again she tried to run, but her feet still didn’t move. Suddenly the scene changed, the pieces of flesh moved, they seemed to open their mouths, for a second she could see into a lots of dark holes which promised nothing good, they looked like a tunnel to the underworld. The air started to vibrate and then she tried to cover her ears, the figures started to sing ”Oohps I did it again I played with your heart gotta lost in the game...” She screamed and this time she could clearly hear her voice. The figures moved closer and almost touched her, still singing their horrible song that promised a more horrible thing than death. She could already feel their hands when somebody started to shake her. The figures disapeared and the pulp transformed back into the eyes and the she opened her eyes. ”Where am I?” she asked still feeling the horror of the dream. Benny smiled down at her and said ”You’re in London, with us... Olli, Head and me. And tomorrow we’ll go to Russia for getting back Fieldy in China... Did you’ve a nightmare, hun?” She nodded slowly, still not remembering everything. ”Oh, well nightmares are natural, had also some today, nothing to worry about. Just wanted to tell you that you should be ready by dawn, we’ll leave then. Okay, I go back to the others, hun, if you want you can join us.” She lifted her head and he was surprised by the anger in her eyes ”Oh, thank you soooooooo much for the permission to be with you, I feel sooooo honured. And by the way I’m NOT you’re hun. You want it the hard way? Okay, I’m gonna join you in your lil game. Here ARE my rules: Don’t call me hun as long as you prefere to be like an icecube, I once loved the real you, and I still love it and I know it’s still there but since I know who you are you seem to hide it behind a wall of lies and coolness. It’s your decision, but I’m not sure if I can and if I WANT to handle it much more longer, you need to decide what you want.” Benny looked at her, feeling a sudden pain slowly working its way from his toes to his hair ”Uh I’m pretty sure you’ve already decided what you want when we’ll be able to finish this thing, right” he answered bitterly, she looked confused at him and he went on speaking ”you want that fu*ker of Limp Bizkit, right? Since Head said that you’d make a pretty good couple you couldn’t stop thinking about f...” ”I can’t tell you what will happen if you go on, but I promise you, it won’t be too nice, so SHUT THE FU*K UP!” she said with a calm but also dangerous sounding voice. Benny felt tears again in his eyes and he tried to leave, but she held him back. ”Sit down!” she ordered softly ”I’m gonna make you a hot choclate to calm you down, don’t be asahmed of your tears, they are a good sign, you’re still able to feel.” She left the room and his tears started to stream down his face like waterfalls going to nowhere. But his throat was dry, he started to think about her last words and he knew that they had to talk about a lots of things. Head accompanied her making the hot chocolate. While she ran through the ”kitchen” Head sat down on a table and looked at her ”What happened this time?” She took out the instant chocolate and started to put it into the already cooking milk ”The same as usual” she sighted. ”Tell me!” ordered Head. She started and after a short summary of their arguement Head shook his head ”I don’t understand you, why do you still love that guy?” She smiled ”It’s a long story, I’m gonna tell you during our train journey through Russia, I think we share a compartment” Head nodded and then he smiled ”But you don’t have to fear me, I’m true to my one and only love” She started to laugh and replied ”That’s what I’ve expected from you” she opened the door, but Head stopped her. ”There’s something I’ve to tell you that might helps your relation with Benny...” To be continued