Brick Wall

Is this game worth the pain that I feel deep inside?
If it is I can't break from this terrible play
It's all just the same and someday I'll go insane
And I'll keep hurting myself until I fade away

Then maybe you won't see what you're doing to me
Then maybe you'll feel better about the pain you've caused
Then maybe you won't feel so bad
Then maybe I won't seem so fucking sad

I'm pushing on a brick wall
I thought I had it all but then I lost it
I'm feeling like I'm so small
I'm trying to reach out but can't touch it
I don't think it's worth the fall
I'm tearing apart at the seams it seems
Setting it up to lose it all
But I continue to push on this brick wall

If I'm sick of this shit but I can't let it go
Am I as weak as you thought, just the trash to throw?
The footprints on my face don't seem to fade away
And I'm left with this mess of myself tattered and torn

Now maybe you can see what you're doing to me
Now maybe you can see all the pain you've caused
Now maybe you can feel so bad
Now maybe you won't be so fucking sad

I'm pushing on a brick wall
I thought I had it all but then I lost it
I'm feeling like I'm so small
I'm trying to reach out but I can't touch it
I don't think it's worth the fall
I'm tearing apart at the seams it seems
Setting it up to lose it all
But I continue to push on this brick wall

Your facade doesn't fool me, I can see right through
The lies you throw at me can no longer be used
I won't be the one to fall prey to your tricks
I won't be in line to fucking suck your dick

But I'm pushing on a brick wall
I thought I had it all but then I lost it
I'm feeling like I'm so small
I'm trying to reach out but I can't grab it
I don't think it's worth the fall
I'm tearing apart at the seams it seems
Setting it up to lose it all
But I continue to push on this brick wall

I thought I had it all but then I lost it
I'm feeling like I'm so small
I'm trying to reach out but I can't touch it
I don't think it's worth the fall
I'm tearing apart at the seams it seems
Setting it up to lose it all
But I continue to push on this brick wall