My Jesus

Some may wonder why a person would choose to love someone that they cannot see. A person that cannot be there to hold your hand when you're scared or to dry your tears when you cry, or to laugh with you when your joyous. The thing is, I don't love someone like that. Now you may say, "but this Jesus guy, He's not here!" Well, I just have to tell you that He's been here for me a lot more than some other people have throughout my life. A lot of times I didn't know that it was Him that was with me, but He sure was, and is. I've learned to listen to what he says to me, and now, to me, He's as real as this keyboard that I'm typing on.

I know that everyone has their own experiences as to why they love the Lord as they do, and I know that there are a lot of people who don't love Him. But what amazes me, is that He loves all of us, no matter what. He doesn't keep His feelings closed up just because we might not take the time to say "Hi" to Him each morning, or if we forget to say our blessings when we eat. Or maybe we forget to praise Him when we get a blessing, He has an unconditional love! Do you realize what that means? No strings attatched! How often can you find that from the people you meet? I know that parents and family may be a close call in there, but it's still not the same.

Jesus loved me before I was born. He knew that I'd be born out of wedlock, yet He loved me. He knew I'd not be a great scholar, but He loved me. He knew that I could be short of temper, but He loved me. He knew all the things that I'd do wrong in my life, yet He smiled at me and loved me.

He's been there when I was crying. He's been there when I'm joyous. He's been there when I didn't know what I was going to do in a time of despair, and He's hugged me. He listens when I talk to Him, when I tell him the desires of my heart. When I pray for my family and friends and all the things that mean so much to me, He listens like there is nothing else He has to do.

He talks to me each day, though sometimes I don't listen.....and I've learned that He knows a lot better than me! He helps me make decisions about everything from my finances to my children. He's my councelor and advisor.

But most of all He's my friend. A friend that I couldn't have gotten as far as I have in life without. When I think of all that He did for me, before I was even here, it amazes me and fills my heart with joy to know that all He wants in return.....is for me to love Him.

So knowing that there is nothing on this earth that I can do to compare with what He's done, I love Him. Though I know the love I have for Him is nothing in the amount He has for me, I try....and when I come up short, I try again. I made a decision in my life that has given me great rewards....not earthly rewards....though He does provide the desires of my heart and He will not let me be in want, its a bigger reward....something in my spirit, in my soul, in my heart.....that tells me I will get to be with Him one day. That I'll see Him standing and waiting for all of His children to come home ..... to Him. That everything I went through on this earth will not be in vain. That all the times I wanted to not believe, I'll be so greatly rewarded for trusting myself to believe.

That when I put my hand in His, and feel the scars He bears for me, I'll know more closely the amount of love He gives me. And to see the compassion in His eyes..... the eyes that I've tried to recreate artistically over my life.... I'll be equally rewarded to see the generousity and caring that he has for me.

So, you may ask, why do I love Jesus?

Because He first loved me.

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