dear friends,

Life gets hectic time to time, and we forget what is most important to us, Sad to say this happens to more of us more often then we would ever like to admit. I realized the other day in my ever present yearning to get on with my life i am not living my life. I mean sure I go out and have fun now and then, but really is that life? maybe for some, but not all of us. Think about it, do you remember when you were 18 and you swore that by the time you were 30 you would have completed a list of things so grandeous and so exciting it would put everyone in your family and everyone you could think of to shame! If you look back how much has really been done. I mean I am sure that Many have the college degree and the job, but how many of us put happiness on that list. Yea the list was in essence a list of what would make us happy. But true happiness??

I sit here writing this as i prepare to turn from mid twenties to late twenties, and i analyze that list and i think back, I have completed a lot of the things on that list, i got to watch the sun set over the rockies, i got to meet lots of people and made lots of money (not that you could tell by my life now) but in reality are those things that will ever really make us happy.

Until the last 7 months i was unable to say i had ever really known what it was like to be happy, now although i am still happy i am almost scared to be, Cause how painful is it truely going to be when that happiness is gone? Do you ever wonder, Is the idea of blissful happines just a rediculous fairy tale or is it something we just have to reach out and grab without worry of falling off the cliff?? Maybe we need to just lay on the grass more often and stare at the stars to understand where we need to be...

Just my thought

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