(Friday, March 22, 2002, Denver CO)

Shay was sitting on JC’s hotel bed while he was in the bathroom getting ready to go out and party. She chewed on her finger slightly staring at the ground. She had been trying to get Justin to make a decision; keep her as his personal assistant or let her be his girlfriend. She still had a job, so being his girl friend to her wasn’t something he wanted, at least she thought.

So there she was sitting in JC’s hotel room waiting for him to finish getting ready to go clubbing. They would be in Colorado for five days, to the guys that was awesome, snowboarding and clubbing. Shay looked over at the open door at JC who was putting on the finishing touches to his hair. She found it kind of odd that he was trying to hard to spend all the time in the world with her. He knew how she felt about Justin, yet he did everything he could to have her around him and not Justin.

She thought maybe Justin said something to JC, maybe Justin didn’t want her around like she thought he would. She wasn’t sure any more, at first she thought Justin wanted to be with her, but now she wasn’t sure any longer. All she knew then was that they had four days with out shows and she was, wanting and needing to go out and get a little fucked up. She couldn’t do it while in Texas; Justin had way too much going on in Texas for some reason.

JC came out of the bathroom and clapped his hands loudly. “You ready to get FUUUCKED UP?” JC smiled over to Shay who gave back a smaller smile.

“I’m not sure Mr. Chasez, I’m afraid of getting too fucked up. Apparently last time I got drunk I tried to rape my boss.” Shay winked as both she and JC left the hotel room. They were both met with the rest of the guys in the lobby.

Justin’s eyes roamed over Shay, she was wearing a pink shirt which was low cut in both the front and back. She had on a tight black skirt that stops short of her knees, and she had on a pair of pink flip flops; this struck him as odd she always wore more clothes when going out. He noticed how her hair was slightly up and curled she had make up on and she was standing close to JC, really close to JC. He could feel his temper start to rise, but he knew it was his fault.

He started to get jealous when JC grabbed her hand as they left the lobby for the van that was waiting for them so they could go clubbing. They all sat in silence while they drove for about twenty minutes, the van pulled to a stop in front of a crowded club. Mike, Loonie and Tiny all got out of the van behind them and opened the van door they were all sitting in.

Twelve mixed drinks, five shots and three beers later Shay found her self out on the dance floor between JC and an unknown guy. Her neck was being attacked by JC’s lips, while her hands where on the hips of the unknown guy behind her. She knew after her fourth mixed drink that she was drunk, but she didn’t want to stop. She told her self to stop after the second shot, she didn’t she couldn’t for some reason.

Shay let out a loud laugh when JC pulled her closer to him by her hips, his kisses moving along her jaw line. She was having fun, or what she thought at that moment in time to be fun. She was dancing with two fine guys, to her knowledge, and didn’t have any care in the world. She was single, and she was finely getting to enjoy being a single twenty-one year old female.

Justin finished his last shot of the night and gave Mike the look, indicating to his body guard that he wanted to go, not later but now. Mike gave a knowing nod and proceeded to round up the rest of the body guards who in turn got everyone else together. Justin had had enough of JC and Shay all over each other. He couldn’t believe his best friend was all over the girl he loved. He loved her, and had told JC many times before that he loved her. All JC would tell him was that she didn’t love him. Justin was starting to think maybe she didn’t want him the way he wanted her, she was after all, all over his best friend at the club.

The ride back to the hotel was loud, everyone was a little overly drunk, and Shay and Chris being the loudest Chris was always loud after being out at the club. Justin couldn’t remove his eyes from Shay, the way she was acting like he wasn’t there. His anger grew slightly when he noticed JC’s hands rubbing her upper thighs and kissing her neck. She wasn’t pushing him away, and that made him even angrier. It didn’t help his anger at all that the moment they got out of the van at the hotel cameras were going off in their faces like they were at an award show.

JC stopped in front of his hotel room still holding on to Shay’s body pulling her closer to him self. “Care to come in?” He breathed against her neck laying light kisses on her.

She giggled slightly pushing him off of her, “You doe me answer?” She slurred running her hand down the side of his face. “Sowwey” She lowered her eyes and rested her forehead against his.

“Once more?” His voice hard pulling her to him again, he ran his hands up and down her sides.

“Why?” She half asked looking around, “No more.” She half smirked pulling away from him.

“I love you and I want you.” JC’s words caught the attention of not only Shay but of Justin who had been listening and staring at them the whole time.

Shay giggled softly and turned back towards JC, “I love you too, but we can’t it wouldn’t work.” She said slightly listening to her own words.

“It cans wour…”

Justin walked up and put a hand on Shay’s arm cutting JC off from finishing his sentence. Justin gave JC a hard look as he grabbed a hold of Shay’s arm and started to pull her towards his hotel room, leaving JC staring at their retreating forms. Shay pulled her arm away from Justin’s and gave him an angry look.

“What!” She yelled out stumbling a little at the loss of balance.

“We need to talk.” Justin stated going for her arm again; she pulled back and fell in to the wall behind her.

“We no talking!” She snapped out trying to push off the wall, not going too far.

Justin ran a hand over his face trying to get rid of the drunk he was feeling. Justin pulled an arm around her body as JC moved towards them only to be stopped by Justin shooting him a look.

“Stop… you can’t love her!” Justin’s voice raised slightly causing JC to stop and Shay to jump at his words.

“I…”

“No! NO YOU CAN’T. I LOVE HER!” Justin snapped glaring to JC who moved to his hotel room at the words.

Justin’s attention went to the wait he felt on his body. His eyes moved to where Shay was passed out in his arms. A tear fell from his eyes as he picked her up the rest of the way and went into his hotel room. In his mind he was happy she passed out when he was yelling at JC. He didn’t want her to find out he loved her while they were both drunk, her more so than he but still both drunk.

It all seemed to come together after hearing JC confess his love for her. Of course he wouldn’t want Justin to tell Shay he loved her because JC him self was in love with the girl and thought maybe there was a chance for them to be together. Justin knew he should have pieced it together when he found out they had slept with each other for over a year. JC was a romantic and fell in love really easily it was no wonder he didn’t want Justin to be in love with Shay.

Justin sighed as he woke Shay up having her change into some of his clothes. She grunted a few times, him doing most of the changing then she. He ran a hand down her arm and kissed her forehead softly before he crawled into the bed him self.