There's almost nothing left
You eat my kind for breakfast
What did I expect
To come here and find anyone?
Find open arms to feed me
I sicken myself so much
And you eat my kind for breakfast
You eat my kind
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Whatever I fear the most is whatever I see before me
Whenever I fear I let my guard down, whatever I was ignoring
Whatever I fear the most is whatever I see before me
Whatever I have been given, whatever I have been
Seeing myself this way
I am a monster I believe
And seeing is believing
Is there no doubt left?
When I wake up I poison myself
And poison gives no appetite
I sicken myself so much
I sicken myself so
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Did we expect these things to change
By waking up and suddenly there they are
And all I need's a starting place
And nothing ever seemed so hard...
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Open up and let me in
I was lucky to live, don't need to win
Forgave myself and if that's a sin
It's not enough you'd even know it
You did right to call my bluff
'Cause I won't say when I have had enough
And I worked so hard to need this stuff
And you tried so long to just ignore it
Won't you come down where I am
Words are hidden, understand
I won't repeat myself again
I will not repeat myself again
It's another promise D.O.A.
And despite my every hope
There is no truth behind my best intentioned oath
Won't you come down where I am
Words are hidden, understand
Won't you come down
Been away too long I know I have
Won't you come down, help me stand
There is healing in your hands
Won't you come down where I am
Words all leave me
Been away too long
I know I've been away too long
I know I have
Are you the hand
That shapes the board
Part of a history
Smoothed and worn
Oh the windy weather
Dry spells, brushfire
Isn't it strange
To see my life
You must cut me down
To look inside
Oh the simple pleasures
This ring tells of rain
This one, summers
Good years, nightmares
How is it I remember
Knowing that I would live forever
Isn't it strange
How truth can change
Oh the windy weather
This ring tells of rain
This one, summers
Dry spells, brushfire
Is it this place that makes me fall from you
Forget the words that once rang so true
Did we expect that life was ever fair, my god...
I sowed a field of rose and reaped a whipping rod
And everything I've held too tight inside
Could make a part of me die
And if my lips could only speak the name
The dam would break
What is this ice that gathers 'round my heart
To stop the flood of warmth before it even starts
It would make me blind to what I thought would always be
The only constant in the world for me
And every hour of every day
I need to fight from pulling away
And if my mind could only loose the chain
The dam would break
For all the things I hid away
And all the words I could not say
The dam would break
I want to be clean I want to be whole
I want revenge I want control
I want to give up I want to give in
Destroy all I have been
I want to be cruel I want to be cold
I want a chance to sell my soul
I want to break out I want to dive in
To lose myself in sin
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I don't need anything
I'm just wanting
Just wanting
Desire all desire is
Desire feeds desire
Desire all desire is
Desire breeds desire
I want to scream I want to should
I want to have faith and never doubt
I want to bend I want to break
To sleep and never wake
To break down walls and to escape
Be alone and hide my face
I want to feel I want to touch
Want to stop wanting it so much
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Lead me well, don't clear my way
Fascinating how the pallor can stay upon your face
When you are light like a little boy
Flying kites and shouting to the world
You're shouting to the world your joy
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Don't fade, you're staying here with me
Don't fade, I need to know that someone still believes
Look around, see for yourself
He led us down and at the water's edge we knelt
Petals in the lake and red upon my face
She's crying as we pray
And it all comes down to money, again
How could you forsake the love of god that way
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Little man big man who came first?
What is the measure of our worth?
If there was a storm rolled in
Who'd run inside?
Who'd go walking?
Little man big man what's inside?
It's all in the places where we find our pride
If there was a soul lost by the road
Who'd pass by?
Who'd take it home?
Where is the beast lying?
Is there a beast hiding?
Little man big man who is who?
It's all in the damage that our toys can do
If there was a window pane
Who'd throw stones?
Who'd walk away?
Where is the beast lying?
Is there a beast hiding?
Are we moving?
Are we learning?
Little man big man fade away
It's all in the violence of the games we play
It's all in the violence of the games we play
It's all in the love we give today
Take your cautionary tales
And take your incremental gain
And all the sycophantic games
And throw 'em all away
Burn your TV in your yard
And gather 'round it with your friends
And warm your hands upon the fire
And start again
Take the story you've been sold
The lies that justify the pain
The guilt that weighs upon your soul
And throw 'em all away
Tear up the calendar you bought
And throw the pieces to the sky
Confetti falling down like rain
Like a parade to usher in your life
Take the dreams that should've died
The ones that kept you lying awake
When you should've been all right
And throw 'em all away
With the time I waste on the life I never had
I could've turned myself into a better man
There is nothing you can buy
And there is nothing you can save
To fill in the hole in your heart
So throw it all away
Help me to empty out this house
The wool I've gathered all these days
And thought I couldn't do without
And throw it all away
Here, I need your help
Deliver me from myself
Take me where I'm wanted
Or make me someone else
Never mind what they said
Forget about the things you read
It was something you'll never know
Never see, never understand
Just leave it now if you can
Tell me
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When they come for you
Who will there be to speak
And when they come for you
Who will be left to speak for you
The final solution's back in style
We are the ones letting it ride
I never knew we were so blind
Amnesia in comfort, so unkind
Tell me
(Chorus)
Life is suffering
Tee-hee, ha-ha
Life is suffering
Tee-hee, ha-ha
Cold and shuddering
Tee-hee, ha-ha
Cruel and pummeling
Tee-hee, ha-ha
Smile on little buddha, smile on
Little buddha, smile on
It's only illusion, then it's gone
Lost and struggling
Tee-hee, ha-ha
Life is suffering
Tee-hee, ha-ha
Smile on little buddha, smile on
Little buddha, smile on
It's only illusion, then you're gone
Telling you now it don't seem right
He is in there and you're on the outside
Over Pine Ridge to Wounded Knee
There's blood on the ground as far as you can see
Crazy life
In the air I'm sensing a change of weather
In the end a change is due
Does anyone remember here
Did you all think he'd just disappear
Crazy life
What've yo done with Peltier
Who did you think you'd taken away
Crazy life
In the air I'm sensing a change of weather
In the end the path is clear
Burying won't stop it breathing forever
Underground it takes to root
Anyway now it don't seem right
He is in there and you're on the outside
What've you done with Peltier
Who did you think you'd taken away
Crazy life
It's not over...
Call me up when you need
Strangers often deceive
And there's something so freeing
To call out a name
And someone's believing
I've been changing my mind
Through with looking behind
It's a crash course in life
The best you can do is pass by
No getting out alive
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I'll hold a light for you to see
All things in time, all you'll ever need
Something I can't explain
Keeps me running, afraid
And every day
Looks me in the face and says
"Who'd you think you were, anyway?"
(Chorus)
Well, you told me so
That we'd seen this all before
So what is it keeps us coming back for more
(Chorus)
Green button like a lantern
Illuminates this cavern
And outside nothing matters anymore
My instinct won't deceive me
My senses will not leave me
When there's no one left to grieve me, i won't mourn
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Good night, don't fear
I always will watch over you my dear
Good night, sleep well
I'll see you with the rest of them in hell
My hand won't shake the console
My handcuff will not rattle
As i win the final battle of all wars
And down beneath the ocean
I'll dream of wings in motion
Blinding glory, that'll show 'em what freedom's for
(Chorus)
And so, for now, farewell...
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