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I wish with all my heart
that I wasn't....
Sadly, I had no choice in the
matter. My babies weren't meant to be here with me. They were
called back to Heaven.
I know one day I will hold them,
and we will cry and rejoice together, but until then all I have is my love
for them.
I do have 3 babies here with
me. 3 sweet, wonderful spirits who were brave enough to face me as their
mother. I am terribly blessed to have them with me... I have more than 
many women do. I hold them everyday and praise God for seeing fit
to allow me to have them with him.
Still I miss the ones I lost.
I try to live my life as though to "teach" them vicariously through my eyes
and experiences. I don't dwell on the sadness of their loss, but try
to focus on the brief moments of happiness I had when they were with me
and the joy we share when we are reunited.
Meet my treasures
in Heaven...
I have dedicated the following
sections to each of my lost treasures. Read their stories, see their
ultrasound pictures, and browse through my diary entries from the times of
their losses.
I don't have pages done for
all of them yet. Please forgive me, but I pray you will try to understand
how painful it is for me to relive the experiences, so creating these pages
is a journey of healing all it's own.
  
 
Aaron | Riviera | Kennedy|
Destiny | Luke & Mitchell |
Sabrina
Support
I have made so many new
and dear friends on the healing path. It breaks my heart that there
are so many women hurting because their babies have joined mine. As hard and
far and wide as I have searched there are no words I can say that will take
away the pain. The only thing I have found that makes this road less
lonely are these cherished spirits I have grown to love and have adopted as
family, for that is truly what we are. Loss, grief and healing have
bonded us as sisters. Together we make the journey less lonely, and
more bearable.
 
If you are looking for the
most wonderful women on the internet, you can find them on the
Our Baby Angels (OBA) e-mail support group. Every single one of
the women there has experienced the loss of a sweet baby, whether during pregnancy,
childbirth, or shortly thereafter. Some now struggle with infertility,
and others have gone on to have beautiful subsequent babies, but the best
thing you'll find there is understanding, compassion, support and unconditional
love.
   
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