January 28th - Changes afoot I factored McDonald's into my eating today, this is the second time I've had it since starting my good eating.  The first time was on Tuesday night, and I felt ok about it, as it was at the end of a pretty low-fat/cal/pts day.  Today, I had it at lunch time, and then I had to be careful about what I had for the rest of the day to make sure I didn't blow my budget.  That was not as good for me, as I felt like I had to deprive myself and that's the first time I think I've felt like that.  What's more, is although I enjoyed it ok, I didn't get my 'points' worth out of it.  There's lots of other things I could eat for the same points value and enjoy much much more.  So, it was a good exercise in that I didn't blow my budget but still learnt that junk food is called junk food for a good reason.  It really isn't up to scratch.  I had a lovely lean steak for dinner, and it was about 100 times more enjoyable to eat, with much less fat and much more nutrition. Tonight I am having to get ready for work again.  I really feel like I don't want to go.  I feel like I've achieved a great deal during this time off, and I'm scared it will all be undone when I have to get back into the drudgery of turning up for work everyday.  I guess it's a possibility that the positive changes I've been making will improve things, but my fatigue seems so constant I'm not sure that will happen.  This doesn't sound like the right mind set, does it?.  So I will try and think differently.  I've put my lunch together ahead of time so that's a good start.  I don't like catching the train though and I'm going to have to tomorrow morning.  But, no point whining, it's just something I've gotta do.  Once I know what my routine is, I will ride my bike, but tomorrow I'm not sure where I am so I will go on the train. Anyway, I'm sure I will enjoy working again once I get into it.  The main thing is for me to work on keeping the structure that I know helps me in the problem areas of my life, particularly in food preparation.  So maybe I need to plan what I'm having for dinner in the morning before I leave for work, get out the meat to defrost, and get my shit together to cook it when I get home.  If I'm hungry when I first get home, crackers and salsa will take the edge off and then I can get cooking.  OK, sounds like a plan :) Better get to bed, big day tomorrow. <<Back     Home    Next>>